i had a dream
it was about you and me
it was about our future
about the places we are going
i always thought i would never find my one
but now that i have you
i promise i wont ever let you go

i love those days
when we cuddle for what seems like hours
when we pull each other close
i love those days
when we are comfortably silent
somehow the space between us never feels awkward
i love those moments
when you grab my hand holding it in yours
like you can sense the anxiety growing in my stomach
i love those moments
when you open up
i wish i could read your mind if only to help you

i wish i could erase myself from the narrative
wish i could let history wonder
how i reacted when everything i wished for fell apart
i wish i was stronger
i wish i was better
wish i knew who not to give my heart
i put myself out on a limb
when i was ready to give in
and i can still hear the devil whisper
"i know the best way to break your heart"
and i wish the lords voice was a little bit louder
because maybe then i wouldn't feel so torn apart
when you say good bye

i want to trust that we are okay
but then you cut them with your words
they are my parents
and yes i argue with them
and yes i cry over them
and yes they do alot i dont agree with
but no you cant cuss them out
no you cant threaten her
no you cant yell at him
and no you cant take your leader position into this relationship
if you want me we are equals
i hope you understand that
if not i worry we will be morning the loss of each other

double dutch.
double dutch
double dutch
life is like double dutch
we jump in and out of twisting ropes
pay attention.
pay attention
pay attention
you have to pay attention
because if you don't you might trip
don't fall.
don't fall
don't fall
don't you dare fall
because if you do we wont help you
jump the ropes.
jump the ropes
jump the ropes
jump in time with the ropes
because if you don't you will be left behind

i hate you so much
but i love you with all my heart
i never want to see you again
but i cant wait to this weekend
i don't want you near me
but i love when you pull me close
i keep my walls up high
but you walk right by them
i don't want to let you in
but i can't stand to let you go

I live behind a barbed-wire fence
I watch the world move around me
I watch the way everyone moves on
But I stay here in my barbed wire fence
Like the caged animal
Caught by my fear to move forward
Caught in my fear
The feeling I will never be enough
Keeping me its capture
Even as the years pass us