why should i try to stay strong
why should i try to move on
why should i wake up every day
why should i control what i say
why should i be left alone
why should i turn off my phone
why should i feel this pain
when i am not the one to blame
i did nothing wrong
but im left to stay strong
when you ****** up
you don't need picking up
this is all your doing
so why am i being punished?
what would **** you?
maybe if i vanished

they don't teach you the hardest things in life, maybe that's what makes them so hard
they don't tell you how all it takes is one glance into someone's eyes and your whole world before that moment disintegrates
they don't tell you how when that person closes their eyes you're the one left blind
they don't tell you how when their lips part to speak your heart skips a thousand beats
with the impatient desire of hearing what they're about to say
they don't tell you how that person won't stay
they don't tell you because they think that nobody would want to grow up waiting for that to happen to them
but the truth is i would grow up a thousand times and experience the moments with that person
because it was worth being able to communicate with them
and ill tell you something they certainly don't tell you
i would **** for those bad feelings back
because at least then i actually felt something

i love you more
than they would

yet i love you less
than i should

nobody else
could understand

that you couldn't just
take my hand

you had to yell
and start a fight

even if your little
princess was right

daddy please stop
loud and clear

are words you never
really seemed to hear

now you'll walk her
down the church aisle

in hope that man
will not be as vile

as you were when
she needed you most

you killed her inside
now she's a living ghost