Life has given you quite the beating lately. I know your strong. But your human. I know you feel like you have to be invincible. But you don't and you aren't. I just wanted to let you know that in this crazy, busy, lonely world filled with greed, narcissism and pain I still see you. I see your pain.. Yes you are a chameleon and wear many masks for the ones you love. I do the same my friend that's why I still see you. I want to tell you it's going to be ok. But I won't. I don't want to lie to you. I wish I could take all this sadness away from you. But I can't... I just want you to know... I see you. I see your pain, your horror and your courage... I'm here.
Love you my friend.

    L. Mack
        8/22/21

You planted a seed of hate in my heart.
But I am the one who nurtured it.

L. Mack

8/4/2021

I'm trying,
But this feels way to familiar.
My demons must of found me .
I'm trying,
But I'm exhausted,
Physically, mentally and emotionally.
I'm trying,
To figure a way out.
So I don't have to go back to this.
I'm trying,
Yet most have turned against me,
Even my own son.
I'm trying,
I really gave it my all this time.
Hope is deadly sometimes.
I'm trying,
But I'm not even sure why.
History has taught me it will always repeat itself.
I'm trying,
To find some positivity,
While everything I've worked for is being stripped from me.
I'm trying,
To find the solution,
To finally stop this insanity.
I'm trying,
But can't anyone see I'm failing,
I got nothing left in me.
I'm trying,
To just find somewhere I belong.
I have searched my whole life.
I'm trying,
But I'm so **** angry
At life, at God and at myself.
I'm trying,
But I'm so sick of being disposed of,
Like a piece of trash.
I'm trying,
But I can't do this much longer.
I'm gonna break.

L. Mack

7/25/21

We hustle, fix, buy, comfort, lead, entertain, and tolerate whatever this wicked life requires of our forgotten battered souls while it's ***** filled with lustful greed and it's plump hungry swollen belly let's out a piercing whine demand more more more. "Give me more pain, more anguish, more drama. Let me feed!" Vicious, endless, mundane, abusive circle of life.

Lori Mack
2/27/2021

Most of the time,
There's a wrestling match inside of me.
"Come one and all,
Watch this historical event,
Time to put your bets in.
Will the untamed, crazy, black sheep Scary Larry win?
Or will the indecisive, shy, awkward Lori Mack win?
Who knows but it's guaranteed to be an eventful show.
So grab a drink and some popcorn and pull a chair up.
It's bound to bring a full house.
​​​​​They will have all of you laughing so hard you'll wet your pants."

*This program is brought to you by a crazed mind,
Who has been locked up,
Due to pandemic,
Way too long.
Insanity was the route she took.😜

Lori Mack
3/14/2021

Just for a moment
My son sleeps peacefully.
I see my sweet heroic lil boy.
He used to have so much love for me.
Just for a moment
I feel whole again and can breath.
Letting myself drift to happier days.
I was so proud to call him my son.
Just for a moment
Im happy, content and filled with joy
I live for these precious moments.
They are why I keep going
It's where I find my drive.
Just for a moment
I get a break from the horrific reality
That my son, my precious baby
Is dying slowly everyday
Just fading away.

     Lori Mack
         12/28/2020

It means that I am no longer loved by that person,
Only hated no matter how hard I try.
I am not even thought of at all by that person.
And that I am expected to take care of everything,
Without any help not even a thank you.
It means if I defend myself in anyway
I will always be wrong,
I will always be the bad guy.
It means I no longer matter
And only exisist for finances or to be stolen from or used.
It means as long as my loved one is on it,
I will be there punching bag.
I'll be degraded, belittled, tore down
And reminded of every mistake I ever made.
Humiliated til there's nothing left of my self esteem...
It means I get to watch my handsome, talented, kind son
Turn into a monster at times.
And it means I have to watch him wilt,
While it slowly kills him,
And eventually he will die.
****** is a cold, decieving, serial killer.
First killing your heart,
Making you dead inside.
Yes many physically die,
But the greatest loss
Is how it kills your conscience,
Your morals, your values, your common sense.
And breaks down everyone around you.
Til they are dead inside too.
This is how ****** has effected me.
I truly believe that ****** is satan himself.
And It feels like God is just standing by,
Watching us like we are etertainment,
Doing nothing to stop it.
  Not even batting an eye....

           L. Mack

                12/16/2020