Been down for so long
I Dont know how to live anymore
I never really knew anyway
Searching for an anchor
To keep me afloat
I look till my eyes get sore
My soul bleeds from helplessness

I see the way people stare
Making me feel worthless
I act like i dont care
But griefstricken and helpless

Painfully shy
Always felt so weak
Confidence was something i lacked
With diminishing self esteem, as time went by

I realised fear is a choice
When given the chance,engulfs the soul
I discovered my voice
Made the Quran my companion
Though it was a hard struggle
But prayer made me feel whole.

Cant you see?
The absent stares
The sadness beneath my smile
My crumbling soul
My aching heart

Cant you see?
The language my body speaks
My head hanging low
The tremors in my speech
A walking bag of fear

Cant you see?
I need help
Oh yes i am weak
I just need a bit of your strength
Dont just laugh at my face

Cant you see?
Its all pretence,staying strong
But your bitterness blinds you

No one sees me,
But me.

I laugh at the face of foes
Because i know better
Ignoring their scorn
Because they're just bitter

Should we all unleash the demons
Hidden deep in our souls
So hatred and sorrow prevails?

Nay i shant give in
And become a coward
I shall dance, sing and live
Polluting them with happiness and love

Though, i know some hearts are stones
And can never be moved
I leave them in the hands of God.

Harmattan!! Harmattan!!
My favourite season
Embrace of the crisp air
Sending chills through my body

Harmattan!! Harmattan!!
a little bruise
With so much pain
Such is my bodys fragility

Harmattan!! Harmattan
The mufflers, sweaters and gloves
All giving warmth
A universal feeling
Which makes us one

Harmattan!! Harmattan!!
The flu, cough and fever
Drowning my sickness
With pots of  hot soup and tea
Though, you come with so much baggage
I love you always and forever.