I remember when your favorite thing was to love me.
When you couldn't wait to hold me.
When your heart longed for me
But one day the light was gone
The prepossessing light that gleamed
In your eyes filled with galaxies

I look up at the sky
Tiny dots emitting light
Amongst nothing but
Blank space
Outer space

I see distant heavenly souls
Across the void of our galaxy
Distant light traveling millions of miles away
In some predestined way to reach pmy mind

I can't comprehend the complexity of this universe
I can't fathom the vastness of it
How insignificant I am to all of it

Without you I was lost in it
Tangled in all the possibilities
Sure that you would save me
Waiting for you to save me
from the catastrophe
Building in my mind
Meanwhile, you were lost in someone else

While I was stuck in the same spot you left me
Wondering what it was that I didn't have
What was so different
And yet again I felt insignificant
As if I was staring out in the vastness
Of an empty space
Again

You don't know the ache in my heart
Every time I repeat the toxic phrase
painfully over and over
As if I was saying it for the first time
"It's alright if you stay forever with me.
and it's alright if you're waiting on something else"
But if you know,
if you know
that what we have is real;
then it's alright if you love me.

-k.w