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Mar 2015 · 724
Nightlight
Krista Abraham Mar 2015
This isn't what I wanted.
Hands gripped
Eyes shut.
Keep them, keep them coming.
I said watch me take the nape of your neck with my lips and show you what it is like to have my chest on yours.
Is this what you meant when you said I reminded you of the moon?
How I escape every now and then but when I appear I take your breath away?
Because baby I see how you leave at dawn to chase the sun.
This isn't what I wanted.
His hands tangled in my hair when all I can think about is the last time I saw you
You were standing in that **** doorway, your eyes glistening
I asked you what was wrong
And you told me how you weren't afraid of the dark anymore.
Jan 2015 · 478
Find my way back home
Krista Abraham Jan 2015
This is what happens when you get too involved.
Everything starts to fall apart.
You lie awake every single **** night. And every single **** night you try to remember how it was.
Back before you got too involved.
You remember that you were lonely.
You remember that you craved to stop merely existing, you craved to be alive.
You got so used to craving that you became content with being lonely.
You were okay.
You knew that one day you would not just exist.
You were going to be more.
Then you got involved.
You started living.
You started allowing yourself to feel again.
You allowed yourself to fall.
You allowed yourself to be stupid and bold.
You allowed yourself to get attached.
But you forgot one thing.
The reason why you did not allow yourself to get involved.
You remembered that when you got involved, you got too involved.
You started to feel too much, but not at all.
You started to love these people so much, whether they knew it or they had no idea how much they meant to you, you loved these people so much you burnt a hole right through your chest.
And now you lay awake every single **** night gasping for air because you forgot how to breathe.
You lay awake every single **** night trying to forget how you used to be so content with being lonely.
You lay awake every single **** night asking yourself why you allowed yourself to get involved because they have nothing to give back to you.
I have these moments where I cannot remember how to feel. I feel numb almost. Sometimes I stare at the ceiling endlessly until a huge wave washes over me and I forget how to breathe
Krista Abraham Jan 2015
I was patient
It was not what I expected
I can keep being patient
Until I know what I feel is real
Jan 2015 · 1.3k
Senior Year
Krista Abraham Jan 2015
Last year I would cry because I felt so alone
But now I am crying because I feel so loved and alive
And I am so ******* scared to be alone again
Jan 2015 · 446
lonesome
Krista Abraham Jan 2015
you are like the sun
you give off light and life to everyone around you
but on the inside you are slowly self destructing
Dec 2014 · 378
Everything is a mess
Krista Abraham Dec 2014
Close your eyes
Breathe in then let it out
The pain, in your gut
The need for something
Something you cannot grasp in the palm of your hands.
The need for what
What what what?
Tell me, tell me I beg of you.
What do you mean you don't know?
It hurts, everything hurts
I know, I know sweet
It is okay that you don't know
That is why you write
That is why you write such strange things
Things that mean nothing but something
You write what you feel
And feel what you write
But you must keep in mind
That you have always known yourself
Too little but *too much
The battling conversations within my mind
Dec 2014 · 505
Claustrophobic
Krista Abraham Dec 2014
Circle of faith
Circle of flowers
Flowers all in a row
Dancing, flowing, crying
Fleeting from the ground
Crawling crawling deeply
Into the ground
Deeper and deeper
They go
Darker darker
Thicker thicker
Until they cannot breathe
Gasping gasping for air
Why why why,
They scream,
Did they crawl crawl
So deeply?
Running running
Digging digging upwards
To the sky
Air air air
They scream
I need to breathe
Dec 2014 · 316
Naive
Krista Abraham Dec 2014
Leave me to be fed by the birds
To fade into the ground
To be found months later with a smile on my face
And a heart shaped scar on my arm
Dec 2014 · 759
Longing
Krista Abraham Dec 2014
He smells of whiskey
And tastes of regret
Sep 2014 · 352
Implode
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
My chest aches with such pain
Like a black hole about to implode
Bursts of stars ready to be set free
Free of all of the chaos rattling inside
My chest aches with such pain
Like the moon each night wanting to see the sun
To be able to reach out and touch her
But he can't because he is scared
She is full of light
While he, darkness
this is really really bad, and i just thought from the top of my head. my chest aches because of so many reasons and i wish to explain in a more beautiful manner but my head is a mess and my heart is rambling and wont stop
Sep 2014 · 1.1k
Searching For Nothing
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Each day I long for something I can't figure out
I search and search, but am filled with doubt
I look a little closer, listen a little carefully
But nothing is there.
My chest caves in,
At the thought of trying again.
I look outside, and lose myself in thought
My eyes open, ears listening, waiting.
Hours, days, months passed
Nothing.
I waited all this time and I still have no answer
I was tired of waiting, tired of trying, so I stopped searching.
I no longer long for what I am missing
For the answer was always right in front of me
but something
Sep 2014 · 184
Untitled
Sep 2014 · 221
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
You are like the universe to me.
You captivate me with every glance of your soul I can get
I keep wanting, wanting, wanting more.
To be engulfed in your presence.
You make me feel so alive
Like the stars and moon capture my eye.
Wrap me up in your arms like I am your galaxy
Protecting me from the dark holes in which they surround us.
Sep 2014 · 265
Starry Night
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Oh moon
Little big moon of mine
Why are you hiding away this divine night?
I want to see you so badly.
You make my heart feel alive
But tonight with the clouds out, and the little stars glistening
It's nothing because I can't see you.
Sep 2014 · 436
Brown Eyes
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Remember that girl?
The one who looked at herself with so much hatred?
The one with death gleaming in those pretty brown eyes?
They’re glowing now.
Her laughter is so filled with life, she can hardly even recognize herself.
She’s growing.
She never thought she could feel so much love.
She feels very deeply still, but with so much light.
She could love so effortlessly.
Why wouldn't ya want to love on a girl with so much love in her heart, and life gleaming in those pretty brown eyes?
Sep 2014 · 2.1k
Butterflies
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
There's tiny little flutters settling in my stomach.
Planting themselves there.
I feel them all throughout my body.
Tingling, buzzing everywhere just from the thought of you.
Just from the way you look at me.
They flutter everywhere.
Flowing, flowing, flowing
Through my fingertips they fly away.
Sep 2014 · 243
Let me go, or come with me
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Do you feel that?
That stinging, aching, terrible, but blissfully bad pain in your chest?
I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry I grabbed your heart with my bare hands, I took it and ran through the mountain tops and I wont give it back until you know what it feels like to have your heart ripped right from you.
Just like you did…you took my heart, no warning at all with your bare hands and ran to the hillside.
So excuse me while I learn to bear this stinging, aching, terrible, but blissfully bad pain in my ******* chest.
Meet me in the middle of the universe so we can fall among the stars and bear this stinging, aching, terrible, but blissfully bad pain in our chests together.
Sep 2014 · 194
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
When I'm upset, sad, mad, angry to the very core
The trees will
Sway and sway violently
Only to calm when I look up at the stars as they whisper in my ear
"Breathe, let everything go. Let everything in your mind explode in the universe."
Sep 2014 · 223
Immortal
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
I could live and live and never die
I have this thing where I write and write and try to tell a story through these ink splattered words.
I could live and live and live and never die
Through the mountains we walk, and the deserts we run.
And we run until we find love.
I could never ever die until the wishing well is well overflown.
I will fill it and fill it with all the wishes of the world
And we will continue to walk the mountains and run the deserts and search and search for the love we felt.
But we will never die because we will live and live and never die.
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Sometimes when we are through with being around everyone and anything we venture out into the Milky Way.
Sometimes we like to believe that we can go further than we did the last.
As we glide our hands through the powdery sky we find a star we have never seen before.
One step forward, two steps back. One step forward, two steps back
At least that is how it's done in our universe.
As we drift towards that star of ours we realize that it's not in fact a star.
But a huge planet full of light, and life.
I look at him confused and very very curious.
He takes my hand and we go to that planet.
*One step forward, two steps back.
Sep 2014 · 199
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
When we touch the whole world shakes.
The streets crumble
People hide
The sky cries.
When we touch it's like the world stops
Then starts and dies
With the touch of your hand on my thigh
Sep 2014 · 213
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Dating someone who lives through books and who lives through movies just to feel something... you are going to have to be patient and understanding. Because these people have never felt a love from someone so beautiful. And what's dangerous is the fact that they have lived their life hoping for a love like the book they read, for the movie they watched. And this is where you need to be patient and understanding.
Be patient, don't think that just because they lived their lives in a world that is made up, that they will always think they will need a world like that.
Don't runaway.
Stay.
Be patient and teach them, show them that reality is not on a t.v. screen.
It's not in a world that you paint in your head, but that you will show them that they can depend on you and you will love them with everything you have.
That you will believe in their love.
That you will fight for them.
Show them the world outside the pixalated screen.
Show them that although it's not the world they imagined, it is a world worth living and fighting for.
Lastly, be understanding.
Understand from their point of view.
That they have not felt a love so strong or a love so beautiful.
That they want someone to look at them at 5 in the morning with no make-up on, to look at them like they are the most beautiful creature on this earth.
To have small, but amazing moments.
To have someone to hate and love at the same ******* time.
To have someone they can trust.
Understand that all they ******* want is to be shown how to love, and alongside have someone love them.
Sep 2014 · 176
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
The clouds reach out for the sun to hide her away.
They swallow all of her brightness and beauty, and replace it with darkness and sadness.
Are they protecting her?
Or hiding away all of her beauty from everyone?
So that they can go back inside, to give up trying to look for her.
Sep 2014 · 282
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
One day I hope my heart will be strong like the reckless ship beating through a stormy night.
I hope my that my mind will be as safe as a child in her father's arms.
Because nothing hurts more than a broken heart and an unsafe mind.
Sep 2014 · 213
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
You said I looked beautiful
Please don't call me beautiful.
It's dangerous
Especially for a girl who is falling, that does not want to fall.
{Especially} For a guy who does not want to fall
For her
Sep 2014 · 160
Untitled
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Maybe if I say over and over again in my head that I should not be afraid...maybe I'll finally stop being so ******* scared.
1/6/14
Sep 2014 · 8.3k
Impossible Mystery
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
I'd like to think of myself as an impossible mystery
One that no one can figure out.
He looks at me for one second, then looks away the next, because he can't solve me.
I keep walking on my broken puzzle pieces hoping someone will soon put them together.
He looks at me, kisses my cheek one second, then walks away with a confused look upon his face.
Another loss for me.
Will I forever be an unsolved mystery?
One that will remain impossible and given up on
Because I simply can't be figured out?
Sep 2014 · 319
Endless Ticking
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
The time ticks day by day
Tick tick tick
I feel trapped in this world
Not a world full of darkness
Nor a world full of light
A world stuck in between
Tick tick tick
I ask myself if I'm going to stay here forever
With no change
The same, constant, same old same old.
Tick tick tick
As I watch the lives around me change
To grow
I wish, and I crave for that.
I want change, I want to grow
Tick tick tick
The time ticks day by day
And every second of every day
I dream
To be in the world that is full of light
11/18/13
Sep 2014 · 667
A poem that makes no sense
Krista Abraham Sep 2014
Do you think when a leaf falls from a tree is is screaming because it's terrified of falling?
Or do you look at a dead rose and think of sadness or of a love that was once beautiful, but is now dead?
See, the thing about poems is you could say anything and no one would fully understand or grasp what you meant or how you were feeling in that moment.
When I fall, it's a terrible thing. I scream and try to stop myself, but I can't.
In some cases I have, so when I fall...it's rare.
A girl that used to wear her heart on her sleeve, and fall for every boy who smiled at her
To the girl who is intractable, hard to understand, guarded.
Why?
Not really scared of falling anymore, but terrified of someone falling for her.
It's hard to believe you will never fall in love, or have anyone fall in love with you.
{Especially when you are a sucker for any love story you can get your hands on}
This isn't really a poem, but a mess of thoughts...what I'm trying to say...{I think} is that I'm falling and I'm content, yet oh so terrified.
11/20/13

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