Goodbye,
she said to me.
Without explanations,
without any hesitations,
Goodbye

So there I was, standing
In silence, waiting
Just waiting for something
A thought to cross
To take shape
In her ****** up mind
Making her realize
That the only thing I want
Is for her to look at me,
Look at me in the eye,
While she reassures me
That she, the girl I love
Also, unconditionally
Loves me back.

In bed I tell myself,
That I am too far gone
There is no turning back
This is who I am,
What I have become.
And there you are lying,
Breathing the same air I breathe
As you sleep beside me.
Again I ask myself
Why? Why do you stay?
Why do you even persist?
Is it simply because of love?
Or is it something else entirely?
Then again, does it matter?
Of course it does, stupid ****.
Everything has its reasons
I just don't know hers

I may be silent
but my heart will
deafen you

Am I boiling beneath your skin yet
You waged war
When all I wanted was peace
Let's explode
Paint all over our bodies like canvases
I promised to paint you
And you promised me pianos and voices
Loudly roaring and softly muttering
I'm tired of all these promises to never lie
Never hurt me
You can't guarantee your future
Sure as hell not mine
So now that your skin
Bleeds purple and green
From my brush and needle
Are you ready
To believe me
Don't forget to breathe when I boil you through
For it was all you
You waged war