I claim to have changed since meeting you

In some ways, I think it's really good.
I have the courage to be myself again.
I haven't felt that way since I was 5 years old.
I think it's kinda beautiful.

But in other ways, it's also pretty bad.
I can't have you, so I take what I can from others to fill that up.
It's a little selfish, and I think I might be hurting people.
I think it's sort of gnarled.

We have a fascinating way of talking about everything else
Except for the reason
We talk about everything.
We have a fascinating way of talking
About anything except
What's on both of our minds.

And I'm starting wonder how much if it is
Good,
And how much of it is
Bad.

I could listen to you talk
From midnight to morning rush hour

I would watch the headlights pile up on the 101
And the sun climb up the horizon
To the hum of your voice

My head is buzzing
This buzzing ***** lol

it would be something about how much you don't know yourself until you meet certain people. It's wild. Maybe it's partially reactionary. They say our behavior is largely in part due to our environment. Does that mean that parts of my identity are just knee-**** responses to the people I surround myself with? Or, to dig deep a little deeper -

does that mean that you're changing me?

Keep challenging yourself: a corny, yet necessary reminder. Surround yourself with people who test your limits and make you think more.

This can't just be me,

Can it?

Your words bring me to my knees,

We think out loud for hours:

Whistle on in my ear,

I just wanna kiss you, man.

You are,

And I'm not just saying this,

The most extraordinary person I have ever met.