I keep wondering,
Could I be content with happy?
Ha, that's a funny thought.
I'm blinded by the worst
Yet I pursue it so urgently
What could be right?
The fact that I'm falling in love
But I'm aggressively running away from it.
It's a whirlwind of ignorance,
I'll keep running from yours.
My clarity is being fogged
I refuse.
I hate you
Who am I kidding?
Me, that's who.
My divided contradiction
It's right because I trust you
Could I possibly be content?
I've found it in an anxious trust
My wandering soul
I've found my love
A love for the unsure
Delighted in the journey
Trusting my way through my disbelief
And willingly falling into the very thing that ran from finding.

Let us experience what love is
That ever winding light
A phantom of wrong
But what else could be wrong
A perfect picture of sanctification
The beauty of the garden
It comes down to the love of two
A divine picture, the elegance of love
A perfect pure
A shining light
A love of joy
And a waiting pain
Bind us, love.
Hide us away
Quiet our eyes
Put our souls on hold
Seal what's yours
And wait from the start

The cotton candy sky paves my way to freedom.
It's like I'm trying to escape but no one really knows
I'm running from my silent monsters.

And then I found the loaded gun
Finding us in all our secret places.
He's got the devils grip,
As he chokes me into a speechless affection.

How special is it to experience a heartbreak at the hands of a boy.  
Our reason for confusion that stops our very journey of life,
leaving us with the question of if God really does have a plan?
A stolen heart; a gift or a curse? A loss that is filled with such emptiness.
But a gain filled with divine purpose.
How rich is the person who loses their heart, loses their confidence, loses their purity.
If it weren't for this brokenness caused by a boy, You will never receive the blessing of a man.
A man oh so gentle with you're fragile heart.
A man whom pieces your confidence  back together.
A man who holds you're purity close to his heart of love, and not to his vast mind of lies.
How blessed is this broken heart dear child. A broken heart that you will soon enough hand over to a man, who will make it his life purpose to hold you're heart so close to God's that it shall never be broken again. What a bond, what a love, caused by a broken heart.

Tender words
Oh so frail
Where hath thou been?

To silence the writer
Is as cutting off a lifeline

Wait there's more
More to this line

It smells like a night for love
A chilly whisper
A binding light
It takes me deeper into your sight

I've found all the loss
A great divide
Between what could be right and
what I let die

A wandering token
For my wishing well  
It sinks so deep
A secret, or a spell.

Captured light
A steady sound
My heart beats quickly
I'm turned around

Pacing slow
back to the till
With a fresher air
I remain in you still

I’ve found a place where the light can’t see
and my dreams have been swept away
Where longing for you has been sustained
Where childish charm is the game I play.
I’m surfaced from within
An ever changing wind
Grasping on my soul, suffocating sin.
Oh Child of God,
You’ve lost your frame
to be with Me Holy once again
My changing might, I wish I may
to find your Holy where I lay
My shaded canopy, my dear love
Find your treasure, find your dove
Alive in me is where you’ll stay
Consuming my heart, I’ll pave your way.
Alive in me is where you come
find life in Me, and in my Son.
Your worry will fade, your pain will cease,
When I grow strong, and you decrease.