If to find
In order to lose
Step on the lines
To never snooze.
Or if to lose
To someday find
Then it's the use
To live the unkind.
Yet among the two
I still don't know
If I do have you
Or never for all I know.

There's something in how we lock hands together
How the warmth of her hand travels through my veins
How my heart jumps out of its beating.
There's something in the way we kiss
How passion leaks out of my skin
How her soft lips feels right in mine.
There's something in the way we touch
How my hands shiver on her waist
How our hugs electrify every night.
There's something in how we laugh together
How I see my eyes glow in hers
How we never stop even if it hurts.
There's something in how we stare at each other
How time freezes up like forever
How our smiles never ever falter.
There's something in her
How even when I close my eyes, I see her
How even in dreams I can feel her.

My childish dreams in a paper
With handwritten neon letters
Is flying to the sun beamed skylight
Oh yet the feeling is not right
I glimmer in hope when none’s there
I drag my feet to the stairs
Stretch my arms out to nowhere
I know I’d get to somewhere
I stupidly trip towards below
I crash and lose my borrowed halo
And at the ground I stare at the sky
Like a baby waiting to cry
I wish I’d remember the things
That really made my heart sings
So I’d know just where to go
So I could be the first to let her know
I run to the unknown screaming
A whisper to God, I’m praying
My feet seem to know their place now
I’m getting rid of the crowd
Darkness is embracing me slowly
Got the feeling I’d capture the glory
When my breath is taken away
I feel how the wind sways
And there goes the bright neon letters
Moving back to its sender
I reach out my hand to hold it
And feel the need to rip it
As I turn my back my heart stops

The mountains are waiting for you
Fresh air that wraps around you
They seem to notice you’re away
Wishing you’d be back someday

Those sparkling stars in the sky
That you miss to look at each night
They hope to see your face again
Before it starts to rain

That person who thinks about you
The person who wish that you knew
That you got everything in you
And can’t stop thinking about you

And she’s missing your sunshine
The way she reads all the signs
When you smile, she smiles
And then her dreams can go for miles

The door of her heaven is closed
You hold the key to unclose
Pull her to sleep in perfect peace
Be with her please

She wants to stop thinking of you
She wants to start to be with you
She’s missing you really bad
So she asked our help to call you back

‘Cause she’s missing you more than mountains do
Even more than the wind that hugs you
She’s missing you more than the stars miss you
She’s missing everything about you

It’s never enough
To feel the love
It should be put into words
To say it out loud
Or write it in a verse
It’s never good
To hide and pretend
It should be put into actions
To establish a connection
So there’s no second guessing
Don’t just feel the love
Let it out, Let it begin

You mesmerize me
You know the game
You got me loving you
And I’m never the same
You came unexpectedly
To meet my heart
And rushing to me
Like the waves in the night

Oh Oh
You are under my skin now
You are
The wind on my cheeks now
And I know
It’s not gravity
‘Cause what pulls me
Is the love you bring

You make me smile
Every second and so
You make me so alive
You’re putting on a show
It’s a work of art
How you’re loving me
You’re such a miracle
I’ve been waiting to see

Aye,aye,aye
And all those things you do
Whether big or small
Got me closer and closer to you
A leap to it all
And there’s just nothing else to do
But to hold your hand
And kiss your lips
From where we stand
‘Cause baby…

I’m chained with my feelings
Yet nothing is certain
Like trying hard to believe in
Something that’s not there
Like taking hold of the air
Yes, love is unfair
I keep fighting for the love
And yet it’s never enough
For a moment, it’s messed up
And then, it’s glittery perfect
For a moment I’m up above
Then I come crashing down in a second
It’s a trap inside
Luring me to take it all in
But once I actually do
Fragility sets in
There’s no way to back out
No reason to go astray
Because when I found this love
I thought the only way was to stay
I cannot walk out
I can’t fool my heart
I’m already chained with my feelings
It’s bittersweet from the start

I always tell her
“You are mine”
When we know reality’s
A different story.
We believe in dreams
That we can take
Only in each other’s side
We can make.
Moments come by
In slow motion, we rise
We frame it in our hearts
Every breathing time.
Oh how you’re loving
Wakes me up every morning
Makes me not want to give up
Even with a happy ending.
To us there’s one and two
Hey that’s me and you
With all the holding hands
And all the kisses at night.
When I do the things you do
Talk just how you do
So when you say that you love me
I always shout “I love you too”.
Right now all we know
I am yours and you are mine
Right now, we own the world
And nothing could ever change
The love we found

I cannot speak
The words to make you mine
It makes me weak
I'll never cross that line

I cannot look
Deep inside your heart
Can't read you like a book
You are far apart

I cannot hear
What you're trying to say
All i have is fear
I keep running away

I cannot touch
Your life and make it fine
Cannot hold you much
All i need is time

I cannot be
The person you would love
I'm nothing else but me
I'm not what you dream of

Your words
Linger in my head
So I say
Goodbye instead
Of telling you
How much I do
Really, really
Love you.
I have to take
It all in
Control for the sake
Of not hurting
You
Because I know
If you know
Then you won’t
Ever let me go.
As much as
It hurts me to
I have to let
Go
Of my only you

You’re almost there
Those things you do
Makes me think
That I want you too.
Those sweet nothings
That you whisper
Lingers longer
That I remember.
Little by little
You’re getting nearer
I have my eye on you
With those things you do.
And the way you say
That you love me
Got me thinking
I want you with me.
Oh yes I may be falling
To your arms
I got your name calling
With all my heart.
It’s almost perfect
You and I
Pull me closer
Then I’m on your side

I know
I never crossed your mind
Even just like a passer by
A stranger to your heart
Garbage thrown out of sight

I know
It’s a dead end dream
A story with a blocked out scene
You’re a million miles away
Can’t hold someone who always sways

I know
I am never an angel
Someone worthy to remember
I share a space on the ground
Where I can never be found

I know
You’re a melody inside my head
A perfect dream when I’m in bed
Someone I can only wish for
Someone who will never knock on my door

I try not
To fall so hard
To discard
This love and my heart.
I try not
To hear your words
To dispose
What could grow most.
I try not
To be so weak
To stay firm
To not fall on my knees.
I try not
To linger long
To keep myself
From doing wrong.
I try not
To fall so hard
But I found myself falling
So madly in love.

I’m not lonely like before
Just kind of deceiving
I ‘m not the one to shut the door
If I had you believing

I’m not a lover of the melody
And all that’s easy to see
I’m not part of the symphony
I always am me

I’m not the one to close the eyes
And not care what’s inside
I’m not the one who rolls the dice
I choose my own ride

I’m not the one who loves not
And act like a fool
I’m not the one who gives a lot
Then regret giving my all

I’m not the one you can easily read
Like books and newspaper
I’m not the one you might not need
You know me ever or never?

Tears
I can bear
Even pain
That takes
Time to heal
Even slaps
On my face
And my
*** getting kicked
I can take
Losing a thousand
Times
With my face
On the mud
I can take
People shouting
And cursing
At me
But what I can’t take
Is your silence
That lingers from my ears
To my heart
And to my soul
That simple silence
which tells me
I can never be in your
World

My mind is battling itself
When my heart is falling dead
This love I do not regret
But this life I hate instead
The misery of every second
I have collected in my pocket
Is my very own ticket
To be blown off by a rocket.
And there I go
Away without another
No one really cares
No one even bothers.

Wish I know how to say the right words
Wish I know what you want me to do
But all I can say are my own little words
And all I can do is only few

Wish I could be the love of your life
Wish I am the one made for you
But all I am is just a part of your life
And that I’m only a friend to you

Wish that our love story is easy
Wish that we could have at least a try
But all there is got me feeling uneasy
And my heart without you is starting to die

Wish this could all be my call
Wish you could just be mine
But all I got is nothing at all
And still waiting for the right time

Hello mediocrity
Stop pulling me like gravity
Don't be too sensitive
When I try to chase the positive
You're on your own now
I'm not a victim you can grab down
It's done and all over
You can go now, I'm not your lover.

A walk towards
A road less traveled by
With no one to look
Walk with and talk
A place where the afraid
dare not step foot
A place where the strong
Lies about being able
To stay put.
Shall it be said that
It's not circumstance
but a choice
Not by destiny
But by liberty
That such a far flung place
Can be a home
To a desperate life
Who owns none at all
The possibility of turning hell into heaven
Bad to good
Unlucky to fortunate
Is not a new story
Neither are to find peace in chaos
Friendship in being alone
Love with self
But it is a hard story to live in
Yes, this is the road less traveled by
One must be in to believe
Experience to understand
Free to take
Open to chance

Remnants of forever
That in a time
When soul was disheartened
Life was broken down
And love shrunk
Into a pitiful pint.
That time in forever
When a break wasn't enough
A fight wasn't fought
The head was  down so low
Deep into the burrowed soil.
That time in forever
When everything stopped
And trapped them all
6ft underground
While a soul was forever carved
Into the hearts of the touchable ones.
Oh at last the unheard cry of one
Now the loud cry of a regretful bunch
A cry that marked forever
To not one but to many.
For a life only awaits death(time)
And in death shows the truth of a life(forever)

If I ever let my mouth
Shut the words of my heart
Know that I do not try to confuse
But to stray and hide
The weakness in my voice
The sorrow in my heart
The cowardice to my own choice
The tears on my eyes.
If ever my mouth fails
To utter the words of my heart
Let it be known to you
That to whom this was sent
All that's in my heart is written
Than spoken out loud
Than acted out.

Oh silence seem to be
A lesson to be learned
When words are heard
With not one sound
With not a beat
That comes around.
A time to be waited
When patience grow
Never to rush
In any moment
And let it flow.
A moment of truth
When the heart feels
With all the lies
With all disguise
It seeks what is real.

Oh salty tears
Your taste remind me
That I'm not in my dreams
That I'm far from the road
Where I and her are bound to be
Home very soon.
Oh salty tears
You make me remember that I am alone
Travelling deep into the abyss
And only the dark can embrace me
Doors are shut closed
All around me.
Oh salty tears
Your reality hit me hard
I can't seem to respond
I'm without hope, faith or prayer
Not a chance to own up
And recover.
Oh salty tears
I curse the day that i let you
Control my heart and mind
'cause I am guilty to that crime
'cause I can't bear myself to admit
That she was never mine

LIVE NOT TO SATAN, BUT TO GOD

I wallow not into Satan’s eyes
And drench not be into his blood
Forsake no God shall I not do
For God, my father I do love

To **** and bathe tears into others
Will I not, shall I not
Go and shout unto my brothers
“Least no evil can I be”

Accept the horrific wheel of fate
I would not turn my back to God
My father dies, my friend do drugs
I will accept, thy will be done

I do act not by the bible
I sin a million times and more
But I will not resign my favor
To God be the glory and all

Life is hard, a bundle of burden
But sometimes do roses bloom
I may have been tempted by Satan
But never will I come to him and follow through

I am but ordinary, a maiden of God Almighty
I am human, not omnipotent
But my life I carry on to him
My source of life and love… My only King

Drifting away towards another place
Blown by the wind, I need some embrace
Falling apart, into pieces of my own
Can’t seem to find someone to call my own

Diminishing hope of love to come
Burying feelings that are meant to calm
Away will I be, into a place that’s lonesome
Alone will I be, far from my hometown

I shall but **** those uncertainties and mockery
Eradicate all of people’s sympathy
For I might need a bed to lay upon
I dare not lay to those who offer one

I have learned the book of truth
That not all those who are good
Are those same persons I should trust
For I am mistaken once, I would never make it twice

Allaying away thus my heart hear and feel
Need to concentrate further, choose my peers
And if I were to love, I’d love to love true
If I were to love, please drift all honesty to me
Then back to you

Can you teach me how to forget?
The magic that was in your smile
The lines you uttered when we first met
The very look of your desire

The warmth of your touch on my hands
Your kisses on my cheeks
The time we started to make real plans
Our romantic vacation for a week

The everyday that you were so sweet
The way how you fought for me
The ways how you made me feel complete
The one time you made me tea

The day that you were down on one knee
And asked me to be yours for life
You said you wanted you and me to be “we”
You said you wanted me as your wife

Can you teach me how to forget?
All the things we did together
But these memories are hard to beat
I may never forget it ever