The days when you're all alone
And your friends turn out to be your enemy
And you have this storm inside
That doesn't know weather to cry or get angry
You want to cry
But you fear someone might see
Until you remember you're all alone
In the dark
Then your phone lights up
And you think you might be ok
Until you realize its you ex texting you
For tips on how to get a girl into bed
And now you really want to cry
But just text back instead
You go on the internet to clear your head
And see post of R.I.P because another friend is dead
And inside you bend so far you break
Lay in your bed wear you shake
And you pray when you fall asleep you never come awake
Maybe then your heart won't burst
As the seams tear out
And you drowned in this ocean
Of pain so thick and cruel
But you can't help to fall deeper within

A single flower
Upon your frozen skin
Your skin so pale
Almost so much so to see your viens
Swell and turn purple from the venom
The sky darkens with dark clouds
And the ground shakes and growls
Then lightning dances across the sky
And the clouds begin to cry
Quietly I wait
I watch
And almost so slight not to be seen by the human eye
Your chest rises
And then I feel the sharp tug on my heart
You will live, as much as a immortal life could give
And I would not be alone
Even if it was selfish
I couldn't stop the satisfaction from swelling deep inside
The lonesome days were in my past
Looking down I was finally aware of the silver eyes
Glaring deep into my own
"What have you done to me"

Beneath the moons gentle gaze
The fluttering of leaves touching in the wind
Sounds in my ringing ears
The soft rippling water spilling from the earths skin
Drag my finger across the velvet surface
Calling the power only pure water such as this gives me
Close my eyes and concentrate
Feel the way the water hugs my emerged skin
Feel the way the water moves as though it breathes
The pale moon a reflection against the dark waters
Clusters of stars dusted in the sky
Shine down like dozens of lit candles floating
The cool scrape of the grass against clad knees
And the soft chirp of the awakening night life
All natures gift to me

I watch the blood drip on to the cool tile
Watch it pool as my brain numbly
Focuses on the throbbing in my arm
I was so strong for so long
And then you knocked all my efforts over
And that's what urged my hand to wrap around
The cool orange bottle
I didn't know what was inside
But i twisted the cap off
Look inside at the long white pills
A tear slid down my face
Being human was my greatest weakness
I want to swallow them all
I want to tear my wrist open and let it bleed out
I just want it to end
But one face in the angry mob i'm surrounded by
One face stops me
One that held on for me
Gives me the strength to put the cap back on
Gives me the will to stumble to my room
Close my eyes, and write it down

Small birds chatter together
As I watch with a keen eye
I wonder what it's like to fly