Thank you for turning me into one of those cold hearted person. Thank you for bullying me,kicking me,punching me,giving me hates,making me believe that my life and my existence were a ******* joke. I really thank you for bruising my body,making me bleed,giving me black eyes,and just basically hurting me physically and mentally. If it weren't for you guys,I'd probably still cry about the littlest thing.

I've changed now. My heart is ****** cold. I don't cry anymore and I won't.

Maybe it's a good thing and maybe it's not but like I said,this is a thank you message.
You guys almost made me **** myself but I kept my head up and I stayed strong. So don't ******* blame me if I'm insensitive now because guess what? I'm not gonna let anyone step on me again. I've lost some of my feelings and I literally mean it. So thank you,for turning me into a cold person. Thank you for saving me.

Has this ever happened to you?
Strange that it happened to me...
I came across a stranger I never thought I'd meet.
Stranger has a journal
Stranger let me read
And inside of those pages seemed every word was written to me.
Yet I had never met this soul a second of my life.
Seems they have written  a response to my every move over time,
Wrong or right,
Stranger knows me.
Stranger apparently not,
Journal showed me...
What do I do now?
With this feeling I have for them?
If I carry it out I'll surely lose again.
There's a pattern in that journal
I make the same mistake that hurts me
So naive I just fall free into anybody's arms who I seem open up,
And when they close and I hit the ground and I break I want to give up.

Stranger told me

Stranger knows me

No need to think inside.

"I already know things, you dont have to hide, I wrote everything. I know your kind".

Feels like 3 days but its only been one.

Feels like my place in darkness is done.
Feel like my face is finally enough and my ways are actually going up.


I know better
Its too good to be true.
It didn't happen to me
Maybe it'll happen to you.

If we are being honest here I never wanted to fall in love with you. I never wanted to wake up wanting you. I never wanted to skip a heartbeat when you walk by. I didn't want this. But somewhere along blurred lines of reality and in an abyss of emotion, I drunkenly fell for you. I told you I didn't want this in the beginning. But everyday, my heart grows warmer and my eyes open wider when you're around. I want to know what it feels like to hold your hand. What it's like to be the one you fall asleep next to and whisper "i love you" all night long in my ear. Please fall in love with me too. I want nothing more than to be what you want. Please don't go.

i lay here tonight, thinking of your warm hazel
eyes

how they danced with mine when i looked your
way

and the way your smile held a thousand secrets;

fingers intertwined but our hearts were on the loose

you didn't know how to feel love without fearing your horrid past

i could have kissed your pain away down to the depths of the ocean

but you left,

left me thinking of your warm hazel eyes.

It's easier to notice
Your flaws
When others point them out.
So why on earth
Would you be
One of those people
To yourself?

m.p.

I wouldn't mind dying,
If you held my hand,
And whispered goodbyes,
In such sweet, hushed tones,
Softly in my ear,
The way you say goodnight,
But then how could I leave you?