How do I go on?
You claimed to be my White Knight
Your words not mine
I felt a disconnect and knew you would break my heart
I tried to break it off
These words I said
I love you deeply
You my soul mate
The response was the same
Your words
You are my soul mate
We were so happy
Happily ever after type
You begged me not to leave
Called me your lifeline
I would have given up everything
Just to be in your arms
A picture of you
Shared only with me
So I thought
You said only me
Only me
We were a secret
You didn't want others jealous
But everyone knew
You get to the airport
Tell me it's just me, only me
My friend talked of you
I confided in her of Us
A letter arrives
You cut me to pieces for telling her
Telling her we were Us
You were my White Knight
I was your lifeline
Pulling you from the brink
Soul mates
Stars aligned
I will never know
You would never tell
The picture partly a clue
You sent it to her too
Dumped me for saying you loved me to her
She was our friend
Only a friend you said
Then why
why all this pain
I saved you
You almost killed me
I saved it all you know
Every word, phrase, poem
The pain unbearable
You had to know
I would try to end my life
Your lifeline would be dead
Nothing but silence from you
One day out of the blue you show again
Say you still love me
Still desire me
What were you thinking
After all that time
Just needed your lifeline again
Then what
Disappear after
What you did White Knight
Was inexcusable, cruel, vindictive
You swore you would be back
I would see you again
You might as well have been the knife
Sliding across my skin
This time you succeeded
Severing all ties
Bet you didn't think it would go this far
No longer your soul mate
Your lifeline gone
All because our friend's feelings were hurt
You could have done better
Should have done more
Now I am gone forever
They buried me today
Our friends were there
But not you
Not even then would you show
Written by Jennifer Humphrey. All rights reserved 1/31/15