I've seen my eyes through everyone
I've seen who I like
Who I don't
I've seen that which I despise
I've seen it live in me
I've seen no separation from the good the bad the ugly
I've seen love beneath it all
How God loves all daughters and sons
I've been in the darkness and I've seen the light
My eyes have been open at night and the visions have shone
The days already been come and gone
The time overlays the truth
We are everyone
Contrast has come
To open our hearts once more to the love
We share
Beneath it all

You are Divine
You shine from within
You have always been and always will
You are the love you so often want to give away
You are unconditional in every way
Life seems to forget this
Lessons along the stay
Faith connects us back to this place
We go into our selves and the source of all is known
Our love eternal
Spiritual
Divine
Whole
We in essence are home

This week I've felt intense emotions
At night they have made me shake
I feel the death of me
It's ego it never likes to leave
I see the images of harm in my minds eye
I watch as I let them drift bye bye
It's ok to be with
To cry
To release the pain held deep inside
I lay under a comforter and comforted even in my shaking resistant ways
I knew not all motions last and there is a deeper insight ready to emerge

I'll lay down with a peppermint tea get all warm and cosy
time for me
Rest tonight to wake up and put a smile on my face

I've been shaking this afternoon with panic attacks
I got use to looking after myself in these times
My dog lays beside me

My mother only speaks to me when I phone her
I haven't seen her for a year and maybe nine months
My dad means well but constantly criticizes
I'll see him a few times a year
I have to keep doing the healing work to forgive and to myself and for the pain I feel
Some days are easier than others

Past partners I attracted from my lack of self worth
So I was constantly left hurting
The things said stayed in my head
It came from my lack of feeling good enough as a child
So she ran to her saviour
But the attraction was from a place of pain
The rain fell from my eyes and many times they just watched
Only picking me up after I had completely fallen felt I'd given up
I keep working on self healing but some aches are still present
I wish I had loved myself earlier
Maybe
I could be happier