since birth i've been plagued with this brutal honesty
that people beg for but then return
with receipt when they don't like the way it works

my biggest fear
right behind clowns and dying alone
is that you would say yes
because you thought you had to

She was the new girl
The shy girl
The one I hadn't quite met yet

She was the soft girl
The quiet soft spoken girl
She is the girl I have fallen for

She is the beautiful girl
The Christian girl
She is the girl I want to be with

She is the hurt girl
Heart ripped out by a past love girl
I can and will love her with all I have

It's funny isn't it
How a mere stranger can
All of a sudden
Without notice
mean the entire world to you
Was it your coffee brown eyes
So full of life
Full of care
Or was it your big white smile
Stretching from ear to ear
Or the way you spoke to me
Like no one else
In that soft tone of voice
What was it that
Pulled me in
What was it
That intregied me
To end up liking you so much
Just all of a sudden you
Meant the world
And I'm not quite sure why
Or how
For you see
I hardly knew you a year ago
But now I know things about you
Even your best friends don't
And you know me
Better than anyone
It's funny that
We hardly knew each other
Just our names
And now
We know everything

those aren't skinny jeans
she painted them on
just like her smile
and every other emotion she dawns

I love how
When something happens
You always want to tell me
Even if it's not that exciting
But you still want to share it with me
But you won't tell me in text
You have to wait to talk about it in person
And I'm the same if something happens
No matter how extrodinary
You and my best friend
Are the first people
I want to tell

all that my receptors are picking up
is the smell of stale cigarettes
the taste of sleepy time tea
and you, the most important of the three