The erectional tide
That crosses my mind
From time to time
You are

I'm on the ceiling
I'm the words you float on
Up in the air
Without a care

I like my Dark
Especially when it's
On Fire

Ice is water
And too smooth
For my satisfaction

I don't need a breeze
Or a tree
Or to find me

I'm okay with me
And accept all of my
Flaws behavior
And the abscence
Of my positivity

I can create in the dark
With spells and bountiful PEACE

Her hair waved
With passionate oversight
She dawned
Every time she whipped it and
It grew light
She was a princess
But then
She cut it.

And found those
Words were
People's idea of what
She thought she was
Then when she was ready
She cut it again and said
I am a transman
And the weight got lifted
His aura changed.

People got scared
But guess what
His smile got bigger
Cuz he didn't care.

And his body felt
Light and tingly
Every time he thought
Of himself as a man
With that question gone
he didn't ever have to
Say I'm sorry again.

He grew confident and proud
That he had grown into his skin!
Yay me!!!
You go boy!!!

She speaks when no one else is looking.

I'm so much more than
This little gift that
Art and poetry call to me

There's this little droplet
That won't fall down
To overfill my bucket

It seems to take shape
In this creature that
All started it
Her name was Tina
And she was my therapist

I lost her
Due to my unwillgness
Transference
And mentally not being
Able to be assertive

Yet I feel I was not
Heard
And just not trusted

So I'm at a point now
Where I'm willing and
I feel I deserve this

Humility and sobriety
A big plus
When starting over

I just hope she trust us
(us meaning my DID system!)
We shall see

Cause I'm ready
To start a new
Beginning with or without it
And ask God to take control
Of it!

This time
Act athourative
Give pleasure to the pain
Demand respect
Be an as whole
As long as you don't hurt yourself

Counteract the regression
Look inside find peace and perfection
Hurry the hachet
And then go steal your key
Back from the wicked witch
And stupid ol monkey

I'd agree things
Aren't meant
To repeat
You act as if
It's good to feel rushed
Nervous behavior
Come to a stop

Let winds whisper
And trees blow
Go to places
No one knows

Then
And only then
Will they leave
You alone

Part one
Scene a million
Out of nowhere came a shadow
I looked to my right
And felt this strange
Oppressed and battle
Timeline jumping
Scattered
What the he'll does it matter
Stop and pursue
The red flag
That you draw

You can't hurt me
You are fictional past
Someone somewhere far away
Hurt you and I sit everyday
With your pain
I give it back

You are the night
Pulled in tight

Hair tangled
Around my fingertips

Sweet nectar of neck
Honey gold permiance

My beliefs are what make me strong
My beliefs set fire to passions that spark
Send flames
A smoke signal
To the ones i harm
Tells them to come home
Run away from the shame
The blasamist
The pain
Run away to the light
So I can hold you warm
And tell you it's alright
Keep faith
In the unknown
It is your friend
It's,time to
Tell you the truth
It's all misbelief

What notes
Do you sing from
The top of the
Blossom tree
Or the corner of
The darkest basement

What color
Are your leaves
Brown and gold
With crisp edges
Or lillac green
With peace
And  pure essence

Where do you
Flow from
On silver ponds
Cascading

Made in your face
Or drawn over a thin
White lie
I mean line
Made out of paper
You posted it
Didn't you

Who are you
Where do you live
Inside a crib
You once slept in
No home goes unnoticed
To us kinds

We live in imagination
BEyOND the bright fillip stars
Where comfort and knowing are

We live to follow you
And quarter just for a go about
What you imagine life really is

It's you
It's all inside of you
Your soul stretched a thousand lands
Before finding you
And reaching into
Your afterlife care

It sput out ashes upon
Your bed
And told you
Please do not take
These off your sheets
One day you will kneel
I'm what yiure now doing
Only to look up
To a brighter pool
Of hopefully zooms of light
Inhabited by mother
And father time

Just joking they don't exist here
Here is parallel to any know being
Where the fish comb
Through your vessels
And hats race thru your mind
And hurddles of black sea
Trunks of ancient old trees
Soon devour
Fastly
Intrigued
By YOU
Little I'm
Nobody pays attention to me you
We,are interested in you

But why?
I don't like the attention
Please don't look at me
It makes me really
Creepy and weird
And mad and rages
Like scavengers eating
At my brain

Please,see it a different way
You are us
We birthed you from the Stars
We love your light
We never hate
You
When you feel
Low or have a hard time
We encourage you in
Whispers light
Through this species
I found your aunt
Delilah and uncle Sam

aha I thoubut so
They are mine

And the dark ones
I carry like backpacks
Of rocks
Never to lift
With each,thought

Erasing won't,help
They've already
Bought space
In my mind
And they live in my bed
And eat,the ashes
Before I have tome,
To descend into the sky
Upside down they have
Me
Curling my toes
Where,the duck are,my toes anyway
It's man eats shot all day
Kind of love,that they celebrate

To my disguise
You,can eat cake and raindrops
Will soon taste like healing
And your insationable appetite
For life,will soon
Turn on

Is it perspective
Can or do I still have you've,them
For morning noon and night
Or can I take a flight
Or lay down a Lahore the help do I get rid of them all

Well never tell
That's where you'll
Find us
That's where we dwell
In the back of my mind

Enter stage right
Exit night
Enter light
Take,my hand
OFF TO NEVER NEVER LAND

Perspective is everything!!

You are magnificent
You are a travler of lives
You are
The SOULMaker
Mendi mg the broken
Blending the healing

You are a blaze across
My summer night skies
Light ing up the moonlight fingertips

Build me a tower
Made of gold
I'll hunt you
Down
Make you
Bleed for more

The stars have aligned

I can demolish the sky
I can twist the bricks
Till my midnight life
Disappears into thin air

Your pale skin akinned to my darkness
We blended like silver moonlight
And drops of sunrays

Only if I could hide what's
In your mind
And hold it up under me

I'd take you as mine
And love with you
In ecstacy

Words are forms of vibrational starts
Pure white light increases
Downward I feel healing

Her riot forced her into predomination
Of all the abolishment this was
The final end

She played the game
Far too long
To not give in

But to leave
All for once
And all at once

Blackhole ****** thru me
Turned toward
The torched Sun
Only to peel the bleached
infectious skin

Vibrating in the
Noise I call THE WIND
It whispers at first
Then turns up the volume
To see a traveling herse

Jokingly I submerse my body
Only to find that the
Purest necter
Negotiated on that tree
The vines wrapped around my leg
Wouldnt
Let me Go
Thru it
Around it
It wanted to eat me whole
And so I let it
For a season maybe two
But wasn't this the me
I'd hoped for lived with
It gets confusing
And this mess
Looks like a mess
A pig stye room
And after eating dinner
She roast a toast
To her dead lovely awaiting
Husband
Patiently they walked up and over
The corpses law

Jagged and weary
Their bones fell
Into each other
Lost they put the
Wrong pieces together
And now he's she
And him is her
Everything doesn't
Make sense
Except for true earth
Which vibrates
At a frequency
That is drums like WIND
Like fire
Like all the crusted attire
These women warmed me with

Nothing beats the flesh
Of another true warrior
Nothi,e and I mean
NOTHING
REUNITES AS IMPALLING
AS HIS FLESH RIPPENING FOR HIS OWN URGES

Kisses by sins nature
He throws shame and anger
Meeting her at the door
He greets his afterstare

Moon enchant
Me with the flare of desire
Capture my entire
Wrap me loose
Where your arms settle
Hold me close
Without you
I'm a ghost

Through the hourglass
Openings
Through the pebbles
Ripples
Open me
Up as if I were a gift

A day worth waiting for
Is a fight lost.

Lost words

I will regain strength through your words
I will regain power through my choices
I will earn my keeping through work
And I will rejoice in all that is coming.

Let no man keep away what is rightfully his

Once you found Rome you don't leave!

One day your voice
Will become your halo

Madness magic
Same thing

Tragic downfall
Rise Again
Rise Again

I'm tired of "understudying myself"
  
(The just in case syndrome, the worry, the not good enough,the anticipation of failure has got to go.)

Its time for me to be the Star

The spell
The spell
The spell

Lashes
Unbound

BROKE IT!

Freedom ring
Lazyboy time
No more fears

The END...
or is it

He stared
Walking up
The ally
At the thought
He once kept

The ball
Rolling along
His footprint

He stood
There searching
Somewhere between
Madness and emptiness

I hide
In writing
I hide
In notes
I do whatever
To stay
Afloat
The deepths
Of my surface

God sent a serpent
I brought a belt
One full of bullets
Aimed at your face

You may crawl into my spine
And dream the dreams you left behind

You may douse your blanket in gold
And withhold the treasure you wish to unfold

If time doesn't catch up to you soon
You may rest behind the moon
I've left a stardust path just for you

We can live there together forever
Forget the world even exist
Start over fresh

Come back down
After we've made love
To a million planets
We've left behind

To play hide and seek
In the dark with you
Seeing starlit tiptoes
Across your fingertips

Dance for me
Dance for us
You're rhythm
Is what makes the earth vibrate
Doors open to other rooms

It's what we call vibrational confidence
And it's no coincidence
You wI'll see it soon
Over and over

Making lighting out of fire
Unbracing the savlvage attire
Forkoined the darkness
It doesn't hold you still

I Do
I'm you
In a hundred years

Reach up to me
Call my name
Ursula
Eugenie
Letgo the bitter after thoughts
Of long ago

You were born of earth
Camafkouged by bread
Eaten alive
At the very. flesh

But no one knew
That wasn't you
It was a picnic
For the ants

And we my dear
Ate the whole **** Sky
Achoo
Bless you
I love,your will power
And drive
The way it excites
You
The way it opens up your eyes
Like ice glades
About to crash into
The night air
The deepening
In you pupils glare

The iris moves
To a melodic sound
One not many can hear
One not seen
But found

You are a chosen one
Made from love lust and fumes
Fuel the empty kinder
And make perfume



I

Her eyes become impatterned
Her lips spread apart from the idea and light up the dark

Arrow through head
Back dot breathe

Its far more advanced
Than anyone knew
There are holes
You can fall through
And not have a freaking clue

The gap
Is another word
For depression or the blues
It seems my mind
Tears apart what it
Use to use
And makes me think
That I'm being abused
That every answer
To every thought
Is wrong
Pointless
Or incomplete

But on the other hand
It can be a good thing
A thing to use
A canvas
A poem
A way to reach out
To a few

So don't give up hoping
The fog will soon lift
I'm still obbssessed with
Finding my gift
Even through everyday
Chores I find life
A little too boring
But as soon as I start
To pour it seems
The gates start closing

Where is the open door?
What is it im searching for?

To write where no one follows
To lead where there is no path
To take hold of the mundane
And make something magical
That's what a poem does to your life

The moon shivers
Under your embrace

The earth tangles
Under the sunlit kiss
When we spoke that day
My atoms were unified
As if you were inside of me
I felt perfect bliss
With a hint
Of love, aggression, and jealousy
I wondered if you've seen her
I've wondered if you've
Changed
You've sure gotten skinnier
I wasn't sure what to make of
The change
Clothes different
Hair back long
I figured yoy struggled
But what took you so long
I'd been waiting for you
And c to get together
I saw a change in her immediately
She began to ask all
Sorts of questions
Said you were still very much
Hung on me
I love you
I want you to feel that live everyday
In whatever shape or form
That comes in
You've been
Given a gift
I don't want to see you burn out
I love you
Like the restless soul I am
I wish to dive
Into you every night
Still I hold back
I still understand
Your desire
To get better
But nothing is wrong
You just lost part of me
I need you
Just as if I needed the rain

When I see her again
Let me tell you
Every cell becomes alive
I awake

The complimentary serendipity
The particle charge of
Reading from the same mind
The quantum sharing of two universal whole beings of light
That somehow got entangeled
And when I see her
It all makes perfect sense
This and this and this...

Rotten
Displaced silence
Took presidency
Over anything ever before
And never once again
Beginning to account from
Where she left

She flew for a minute
Then touched earth
And decided
It wasn't her cup of tea
Why sit with
The normals
Why retrace the
Same look
The same composure
She felt very much out of place

But look wait she said
There's a higher ground instead
I don't desire enough quit yet
Still I want to finish my making
I've forgotten a few steps
Along the way
See I've been undertaken
By hardships
And bills and kids and life
Its all taking a very long
To allow and to claim
And to find myself some piece of mind
All my own
I had completly forgotten who
I was
The black brain void I called it
Sepped in one night and she forgotten
How to leave it
So she stood there
Frozen
Running in place
Not making a silent
Yet screaming nothing
All day

The empty took hold of her and made a martyer out of a prince
The principals thumb ruled her own
Hell she Forgot she even had a voice

To Believe that
She loved me.....
We fell
Harmless and unidentified
At first

Love and emptiness
The tragic we pursue

The silence is Interactive

          Intrusive disappears

           Once now infinite
                 The Truth
          Starts to come clear

           Without hesitation
                  Her heart,
                Majestically
                Tramposed

Without another nation
No lack of ques Or toes
She follows well

Her wings should have sprouted
By now
Her tongue should have grown
Around her neck
Like a nuse camouflaged
To her chest

The mirrors in time
Cake over mine
As I lose all
Awareness
Into the dark
ABYSS

Somtimes silence IS beauty.

I would follow the moon
As close as id go
Your voice echoed
Inside
We had coversations
Each and every night
I prayed To you
Like a God
That created
The very birth
Of my soul
You escaped me
You let go
Now I long for you
I let myself search
Beyond this cloud
Of doo
Is a beautiful earth
Waiting to unravel
Inside my twisted
Blooming
Everescent light

Drowning in nature
Pure and light

It is a calling
It is passion
That cures US

When I missed you...

Pure elicit

Language

Metaphoric blocks
To our very exsistance

Her relinquished love
Grew fire
It began
To drench
Her very core

This denial
Had finally
Came to an end