past  midnight
my body and soul at fight

1am
I realize how sick I am

at 2
I fantasize about sexing you

at 3
I imagine things you can do to me

at 4
I'm still not sleep
still not bored

at five
I close my eyes

6am til 11
wet dreams appear
too explicit for Heaven

at 12 I'm up and about
licking my lips
hoping this day I can taste your mouth.

& in that very moment
You looked deeply into my soul & said
"I will never leave you"

A million moments later those words have faded into whispers
Those exact words echo inside my head every night before I go to sleep
I replay them over & over again as I enter a state of drowsiness
Hoping to once again them clearly , in my dreams

Because a million more moments will soon arrive
& I am certain that those words will no longer be existent
& I will be left with nothing but silence & a broken heart

& for the first time in a long time
My heart throbbed hard enough to break through the brackets which hold my lungs together
In order to reach out to the warmth of your touch