Kaiden

Kaiden Apr 6

THE note

Goodbye.
What else should i say?
It's better for me to go,
Than to suffer and stay.

You probably wouldn't care anyway,
Just read this and throw it away,
I wrote it like it was a story,
And for that i am truly sorry.

pretty much how my suicide notes looked like, but as a poem

#suicide #note

Kaiden Apr 4

Write like they want it

See through their souls
And the things they like,
Write like they want to read it.
The writing style that according to them
Shall be successful.
Make it more simple,
More complex,
Whatever they like,
Make it realistic,
Or dreamy,
Happy
Or sad.
Tell a story
They would tell themselves.

I go to this writing contest every year since 5th grade, i got the 2nd place 3 times and 1st place once. The only time i didn't get anything was in 6th grade, when i wrote how i liked it. Trust me, on those you won't get far, you have to write how they like it. But it's also very important to write how YOU like it, otherwise it becomes another task.

#writing

Kaiden Apr 4

Worry

Worry hurts.
A lot more than it should,
Sometimes it's different than just hoping
Someone would get home safely.
Sometimes it's worrying about someone's life.

To those that read "hurt him", the guy responded. He left the server he loved, he texted me and apparently he's really stressed and im extremely worried about him. He said he's not suicidal but I'm still really worried.

#worry

Kaiden Apr 3

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Apr 3

Hugo Pierce

Lost

I don't love you
But I love you so much
I am trying

Apr 3

Poet

/_\

I used to draw on my arm all the time
Nothing big or elaborate
Just a triangle
One triangle
Then I wouldn’t hear the end of it
Everyone complaining
Ink poisoning
Future punk
What’s next, a motorcycle?
So I stopped
I stopped drawing that little triangle on my wrist
Right above my pulse point
But with it
I
Stopped
L I v I n g.
A triangle was supposed to be the strongest shape
It was supposed to make me strong
But I wasn’t even strong enough
To let it stay

Just a small note I didn’t think would be obvious if I didn’t say anything the “I v I” in “l I v I n g“ is supposed to make it look like the ‘v’ is trapped by the two ‘I’s

Kaiden Apr 3

Punishment

The punishment,
Mental torture turning into thin red lines.
There's no one to punish me anymore,
So who should?
I look around
And see
Me.

I feel like after some time self harm became a way i used to punish myself. As expected, it turned into an addiction and an unhealthy attachment to pain itself, i've been working on it with my therapist but i'm getting way too ******* tired.

#punishment #sh