neither wanna do something
nor wanna stay here still
then suddenly these tears shuts awaking all the past
uselessly where even knowing it is
still heart feeling those thorns

regretting the regret of wasting the now second
every time failing in a war facing being alone
can I get some strength to prove doing alone?
coz I know I can succeed when there is an helping hand

being low is ok until you get to know
that you are depressed
with depressed mind
suffering from so called depression
starting from there everything hits so differently
even the tears which fall down asks more for it's successors
tips of curvy smile's feels like thorns
hitting through tiring all the whole day
feeling the feel of being fake
hating the hate of loving yourself
still couldn't stop any!

when the first time I loved you
even unperfect things felt like perfect
it just went, not letting the hands go apart
but this is the only thing I couldn't realize

when the first time I loved you
the trust you gave was so mesmerizing
that I still miss that wore off newness
but this is the only thing I couldn't realize until it left

when the first time I loved you
the vibes that my heart gave
with those butterflies in my stomach
but the only thing I didn't even imagined
was this not being forever

why is it always me
who realizes the value after the moment leaves
"it was not the same"
but still stubborn heart says STAY
you are born for this
though time making it harder
destiny is cheering up to hold on that hand

things might not be the same
the beauty may starts to fade out
but instead of letting go
just hold those hand while finding the things concealed
there's no way that your soul was wrong in this case!

life: make me look smoother;)
me: huh! well...what about trying for more good memories and least regrets
life: yahhh!! Am done T_T

I didn't knew that you became my shadow.
when I ran away from you
seems like you were before me
where bright light of your love was felt behind

the shadow on me
when the happy light showered
& filled all over the room holding
during dark days
where I actually thought you weren't

I didn't knew that you became shadow of mine
protecting
holding
reforming
molding in the way now I'm
now!! let me promise
To be human version your shadow
that can never be left

This so called life
is not the same to everyone
where it is unfair to many
at times too fair to many more

This so called life
is not the same to everyone

There are some who never gave up
even after the dark buries
there-some who just gave up think off once

There are people who gave another chance to make them fall
who once broke them
there are some broke up just on the point of suspension
where once an obsession

From the bond of no words like forever but still holding
to some having the scars of memories holding up lies

From the self-wreck of regrets for little things
to the people who never looks back even after great sins

And for everyone of us
it is justifiable in our own ways
that's where the magic of life lies
SAYING
Just forget what world says and
to go ask out your heart instead what to be done

When you were in a stage
remembering all those memories you had
with your old friends
Crying out yelling in your mind saying
'I regret joining here'
When you were suffering in
and acting out that you don't care
but deep inside you were all alone
All those days
you thought no single creature was looking at you
you thought no one really care for you
where couldn't handle the situations well

But the little you forgot to look at
is your own friend
who saw those eyes which were pretending
like they never know how to cry
who saw that heart which couldn't bear the pain
regretting like you had done the world's biggest sin
who saw you being abnormal unlike you used to..
still tried hard to look as cool & normal
sometimes underestimating sometimes overestimating
the things you were going through

you thought no one was looking at you
but I was just beside you looking at the things
trying to help out in a way I could do
& finally am glad that I made it done

now I just wanna say the same words you said
on the day you were laying beside
"nothing is permanent in our lives"
now tell me?
are you done with your temporary trauma??
are you happy on this birthday like I always excite for mine??
cause I do :)