A recent discussion about the obsession with Hollywood starling divorces
has got me to wondering if love is still something that anyone ever endorses.

When grocery stores peddle the Hollywood gossip of constant unfaithful behavior,
The Star and the Globe and the National Enquirer all sell like they’re offering salvation.

No wonder its normal when people don't notice the pulse of their marriage has flat-lined.

So when did it start that 'in love' is a prison and the moonlight brings nothing but lonely?
And why is the suffering in silence accepted and all of the torture seem normal?

If the one whom you live with is hit by a bus do you howl at the loss as horrific?
Or is death a fulfillment, reprieve from the anguish of all that you worry eternal?

To be honest with self, I must simply confess that the latter was always my longing,
then longing got lucky while she was out walking,

a bus hit that ***** and kept going.

I

Under vibrating lights
The mystique of two of us collide
Too late in the night
Speaking of home and vast distances
Your x-ray voice and venomous cynicism
Are melting

A rooftop, city under our feet
Cars screaming like wild birds
You’re touching my arm
Through bricks and cement
And solid air of defence wall

Cut and transformed, pasted in wrong places
All we ever been
New words tingle through me
This given thing is unveiling

Wrapped up in a see through metaphors
It was always here

II

Nonchalant touch, a look, a sigh
Catalyst to my complete degradation
To this state of demolishing chaos of you
Running through the boulevard of prohibited
Propinquity
Past every connotation of time
When innocence is in demise

My vows are burning me
Around my finger
I’m melting like a Wicked Witch of the West
Selling myself to this unstoppable force of Nature
This twister inside of me
With your breath in my ear, like a butterfly
Clapping its wings to start the cycle

Nerves are twitching
Skin under your hand, screaming
I hide
My head under your neck
You smell surprisingly sweet
For a tempest

Your hands are holding me against the wall
Like a prisoner of this absurd war  
I roll my eyes up to
Vermilion lights trembling above us
We’re simultaneously breathing in
Myriad of incandescent particles
Of materialized desire
World is sinking into oblivion


III**

The arch of you above me,
On your chest, suicide turned into butterflies escaping
Transforming you into my ultimate
Fall from grace

Breathing underwater, in this liquid limbo
I’m breathing in absolute fire
Between every particle of sweat is sin
My skin is inked with handprints
Bones showing

I sink in the ethereal on this cold floor
Under velvet waves
Seeing all red
Those butterflies now fling above me
Out of some fallen creatures head

All of you, will I ever find it? Is my life the only thing concrete  
I just want to free you, break down all your barriers
When the moon hangs high above temptation’s broken hope
Experience does not make me love you any less
As hours, pass into nothingness

I have never been one to bring an offering of a better life
Yet when appointed I know that I must lead
If we combine our love apart from the you and I
We could smile as anyone else awakened
Let all our pride be ******

A person is like a sweet flower growing from the sidewalk
Carrying risk as it valiantly waves and stands
If you bid farewell because you are sad and angry
You will surely lose the greatest token
In this concrete flowerbed

All of you, will I ever find it? Within this happiness called my life
I am barely alive apart from the love of you and me
A sameness slides over everything we are and wish to be
Tracing patterns around your flowers growing
Here in my concrete free

I have seen the face of there is no going back
Wiped away the tears of hate
Held the hand of addiction’s bitter hatred
Ripped the mask from a lie’s
Own face

I have reached way up to touch the bottom
Said goodbye, then returned
To feel my heart break one more time
When the fingers of my regret
Got burned

I have walked in the darkness of I can’t feel
Because I choose not too
Fell face down and bumped my head
On every feeling I numbed
From truth

But I saw the face of I can still go on
Looked into my own eyes
Crawled out of darkness in such pain
Even those empty spaces
Made me cry

I am no different than you or you from me
We both carry our own pain
I only know that now I choose to feel
Enjoy my life with no regrets
In the light remain