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Jan 2017 · 1.2k
tanka 三
chuckae Jan 2017
I go to sleep at
eleven eleven so
all my dreams come true
I wake with a 1:00 am
nightmare, it's reality.
a tanka is a form of 5 lined Japanese poem like haiku save for more syllables that goes in the order of: 57577.
—chuckae
Jan 2017 · 497
blank
chuckae Jan 2017
home is where the heart resides.
tears are what the brain prescribes,
as a heart that breaks forms a lake,
and the body is out of control.
death is the ultimate goal.
everyone is always the centre of their own world.
triggered teens with wristarts and no skin—
thirteen year olds girls calling boys honey—
lonely ladies with cats that don't speak—
old corrupt men who think life is money—
everyone is always at the centre of their own world,
that's where you are born,  
and that's where you shall die,
in a journey to the end of the earth,
you're getting nowhere.
Sometimes I confuse myself trying to collect the complications of my overthought hours.
Jan 2017 · 624
tanka 二
chuckae Jan 2017
muse, one who inspires—
dream, an imagination—
you, muse of my dreams—
settle down, my heart, i say
—but your smile ruins it all
a tanka is a form of 5 lined Japanese poem like haiku save for more syllables that goes in the order of: 57577.
—chuckae
Jan 2017 · 373
tanka 一
chuckae Jan 2017
an angel for soul
a devil for an heart; you
took me to heaven,
and made me fall my way down,
and it hurt like hell, you see.
a tanka is a form of 5 lined Japanese poem like haiku save for more syllables that goes in the order of: 57577.
—chuckae
Jan 2016 · 977
« urban empire »
chuckae Jan 2016
Words, he had left me
With words I shall never say.
Lies as my eyes tell,
My lips refuse to betray.
And my mad hatter of a love for you
Dissolves like poison in my blood;
Like addiction, like drugs, like cigarettes.
They coat a layer of dark black sin around my heart
Like dying trees growing thick branches with falling leaves
And wounded roots around my bones and ribs,
And the thorns dig out of my flesh.
They wrap around my ankles and wrists,
And tie knots around my waist and hips.
They scratch against my skin making me bleed,
And this plantation tears me apart from limb to limb.
And I know I never cry out, I know I never scream,
Because there are animals nested into my head.
They throw their demands at the weakling in my chest.
They give me commands and expect me to obey.
But my demons, my love, they never leave.
As vultures circle the blood with which I paid,
For the funeral of a love that never deceased.
But you in your empire, you sat and watched me rot,
In another's arm, who beheld my decay.
You watched the colburn they brought,
And watched my colours ashen to grey.
Yet I can't taint the love that leaves me these burns
Because you are ablaze, a star, much like the sun,
And I fall asleep as you do,
And I want to sleep next to you,
But I am afraid of these sparks I feel;
They will explode into flames when comes a day.
And I can't save myself from the hero of dreams,
That makes real, the roles of the villains in my nightmares.
I would run faster then the waters if I had to,
Even though I can't swim.
I would fight soldiers in heavy armour
Without a sword or a shield.
Not to die but, from life, to run away.
From myself and the heart that you hold,
And then my ghost shall dance around my grave.
And if still you, the art in my eye, would not accept me,
I will cool down the fire in me to steam.
The steam to water spilling against my cheeks,
Because,
If the heartache won't break me, I will live a funeral.
I won't die if you think it's selfish.
I will bear the rain against my wounds,
The salt in the sea stinging against the stabs,
As I drown my way back home again.
2016
F.E.
Dec 2015 · 372
terror love
chuckae Dec 2015
Like a ghost, you haunt my mind.
There's mirrors that reflect our dead love.
And through mazes I follow your footsteps.
The giggles of your laughter ring with empty echoes.
And these dead memories, and ghost confessions
With conjure my mind and possess my heart one day
Because what we had is dead today.
Nov 2015 · 489
Dream Boy
chuckae Nov 2015
I was without lungs, and he couldn't breathe.
He told me he loved me, but I felt the need,
To find someone better, out of my greed.
But I was an artist he was dying to please,
Stabbing himself for what he couldn't be,
And my blank white canvas started to bleed.
I saw the red and the corpse of the deceased.
The blood blinded me and I was deceived.
He told me if comes a day, he'd die for me.
But after the sun fell, I refused to believe.
And now as he lay dead at my feet,
I have realised that the demons I had released,
Charmed him, harmed him, worked its magic.
And now the spell is stuck in his dead body.
He opened his heart and I had started to feed
Of the love, affection and his soul so sweet.
He was a dream boy, I was a witch.
I was an artist, and he, a mere masterpiece.
You know the cliche
Where you think one day
A boy could come in a white horse
And claim to be yours,
And die for you and stuff?
Well, for me, that was love. XP
This is just a darker version of my imaginations.
I expect a little too much sometimes, I Guess.
Nov 2015 · 336
fighting for fate
chuckae Nov 2015
I'd fight to be loved by you,
But would you fight back for me?
it hurts now knowing I will never get to mess up his chocolate brown hair again
Nov 2015 · 469
I'M brOKen
chuckae Nov 2015
It hurts for a little while, but it's alright.
I tried so hard smile, and laughed for you: to be worth your time, because you were funny.
But today I realised, my genuine laughter has turned into laughs that ring through the air right on time on every joke.
I know you so well, I have gotten used to you, I know you too well now.
You don't know me at all, but you are used to me, bored of me even.
So, when I laugh for you just to make you smile, you don't realise that it hurts underneath.
It hurts for a little while, but it's alright.
I still want to be worth your time.
Nov 2015 · 1.2k
freindship
chuckae Nov 2015
(the title is intentional)*

You lost the right of calling me a *****
the day you forgot to be my friend.
Because some people say friendship lasts forever, I tried it out.
Turns out it's a myth after all.

F.E. (Fiona Embers)
Nov 2015 · 396
drifter
chuckae Nov 2015
I'm a drifter;
I drift ashore, and away again,
Like an ever travelsome voyage
En route to finding myself,
The part of me I never thought was lost within,
Until now, until I found myself drifting.
Drifting by people, drifting by days,
From city to city, countries apart
Bad lands, good lands, and wonderlands;
They take me to an incandescent
State of art.
However,
As art is but art, a madness of literature,
I find myself a lonely, lonesome, creature.
I find myself all alone in the crowds,
Of foreign souls speaking in foreign tongue,
Under foreign skies and clouds,
In a foreign land, I walk among
The loneliest of grounds.
What I have decided, what I have realised,
Is that when I flee every city and every sight,
I drift home when I am alone sometimes,
But because I do it so often so many times...
People aren't happy, yet not sad, nor astound,
As I am a drift, I always roam,
And when I come back to my Mother ground,
No one notices, that I'm home.
Me in my darkest hours
chuckae Oct 2015
(letter from the past to the future)*




You know,

We are just the memories of ourselves,

Living a million times,

In thoughts we never had.



You see,

We are the past we can't rewind to,

When we are older,

In the uncertain future.



You forget,

We are the youth we never remember,

The age of rebellious anger,

Storming into the thunder.



You can't believe,

We are the thoughts between dreams,

The careless, weightless, ruins,

And that we will soon disappear.



You think,

We are the ones in the pictures in frames,

With tearless gazes, and unfathomable smiles,

When what we really are has died in our memories.



We are the thoughts we never dream of,

The past we never speak of,

The minds of maximum disorder,

Chastised into clouds that never rain.




F.E.
Just a little wittle bit of wisdom from yours truly ;)
Sep 2015 · 11.4k
i miss my broken heart
chuckae Sep 2015
My broken heart
Holds a broken story
Of a broken past
And broken glory
Aug 2015 · 385
love me when i'm gone
chuckae Aug 2015
(love letter to anonymous)*


kiss me like

the stars are bleeding

and the world is nothing

but a boundless pit

and like you forgot the

last time you forgot to

breathe.

and **** me when

i stop caring because

the stars are without

a cause without you

in my heart.

and love me then

when i have gone too

far away and only then

when i am too far away

to love you back

again.
Aug 2015 · 410
Love, Faith
chuckae Aug 2015
hello world,


I heard you used to be a sight to see,

luscious in your own ravenous greenery

but people are fake, people try to be pretty

and now they've turned you into their own toy

of smoke, dust, delight, desire and so much noise

and now they want to make you beautiful

but the greenery is gone and the beauty faded.

and now they want everything you can't give

people only want things that they can't have

and now you are what lays beneath my feet

there's mud and dirt but fire underneath

and now i don't know where to go, what to be

people turned me into a void of insecurities

and now i have come to realize that it's your fault

you don't give us the code to open the volt

you lay there like a ground is to lay

and let us walk over in this screaming disaray

but i know you have the key to all doors

and we are just creatures invented for your entertainment.

so i hope you stay in your silent laughing state

and enjoy the scraps of what we leave behind

but you will never be what you want to be

just like us, you will stay beneath your dreams

you will never be real, you will never be good

you'll never find that moment,

the moment of truth.

and now i've come to realize another thing:

you are so plastic, it's almost pretty;

but that's the problem too... you're too pretty

and that pushes me into a rath of darkness

dear world, you make me ugly.

love, faith.
Aug 2015 · 1.8k
Tame My Wild Heart
chuckae Aug 2015
Tame my wild heart,
this violent beast
beating through me.
Encaged in my ribs,
it threatens to beat
right out of me.
I stopped living
in my dreams,
the day that I woke up,
but my wild heart
raced away the
heart break.
And left me
with a whole
in my ribcage,
were the notorious
creature used
to be.
Aug 2015 · 2.5k
Love, Lust and Limerence
chuckae Aug 2015
When wishes turn to woes
I'll be by your side
And when unrequited love
Defines limerence in disguise
You'll think that nobody knows
What you have realized
And every bit of love
Will wake alluring lies
It will consume your being
And leave your soul undefined
My darling,
Listen when I tell you this
Love is a affectionate adventure
But treacherous inside
The only route to love
Is to get lost along the way
But hanging from a cliff
Is not for every man everyday
So be careful, my love
In love, in lust and limerence
hmph, meh, random moment of explanation?
- fiona <3
chuckae Jul 2015
trembling fingers grazed grey lips,
tears spilled like ink on pale skin,
and insanity overcame by being.
First try at Haiku and it had to be about death. Yep, I am me for a reason. Depressing ~.~
Jun 2015 · 823
a heart, a soul and a mind
chuckae Jun 2015
I believe there is more to a person
They what appears be.
There's a heart, a soul and a mind,
When one disagrees with the rest,
It's a mess.
But when all disagree, then a mess,
Turns into madness.
My words mean nothing anymore.
Jun 2015 · 22.4k
Burning Beautiful
chuckae Jun 2015
(beauty burning out)


I love the word 'burn'.
Like imagine,
Everything's burning,
I am on fire,
You're on fire,
The world is on fire,
And I find it beautiful.
Burning beautiful.
It's the burning out part that's scary.
I just really like the idea of fire, and flames and burning. I dunno why.
May 2015 · 850
in c o h ere nc e
chuckae May 2015
words of a mouse
they spread from
mouth to mouth
bits and pieces*
bitten and beaten
into *incoherence
randomly thinking about how we don't understand animals and how we might be so oblivious to extraordinary words that poets can't even understand. ok i am speaking bull so ignore me XD
May 2015 · 638
b o red om
chuckae May 2015
b or e d


chunks of chatter
miles of stones
words of wisdom
time growing old

despicable doubt
of leaving life un-lived.
tip-toeing around
the cracks on the ground.

step on a crack once
and things fall apart
this ground can't hold
my broken little soul.

tap tap *tap

rain splattered glass
gazing out the window
and boredom reigns.

meaningless words
in this ugly world
they mean so little
and matter too much.

these hearts were broken
stepped on hundreds
of thousands of time
and now it's boredom.

i am broken i am bored
i am happy i am bored
i am crying i am bored
*i am just f-cking bored.
i have no idea what the hell i am writing so just go with it and heart it if you are as bored as me.
~ fiona
May 2015 · 1.1k
missing memories
chuckae May 2015
I know that you feel lost
I know that things seem
a m i s s
I know that you miss
The memories we shared.
But I wish you missed
Me, instead.
May 2015 · 2.8k
Poetry and Science
chuckae May 2015
(relations)


Poems and poetry
Are like *chromosomes

In a human cell.

Instead of DNA,
Poems hold the voices
of our soul in words.

There's so much
to say and make people
listen.

So, they are twisted
and coiled
with hidden
meanings.

Poets are like scientists
But poets don't invent they
*Express.
this is just random **** (sorry, not sorry) i came up with
~ fiona
May 2015 · 1.0k
i mp e r fec ti o n
chuckae May 2015
(perfection has flaws)


what was broken,

                            
you mended.

what was taken,

                            
you took back.

what was worthless,

                            
you made worth it.

what was perfect,

                            *
*you made flawless.
May 2015 · 891
afire for you
chuckae May 2015
if you are on fire
i will burn for you.
for your entertainment
i will burst into flames.
to be your light
i will bath in gasoline,
light up a match
and set myself  ablaze.
*these flames are for you,
my love.
May 2015 · 1.1k
To Be A Broken Soul
chuckae May 2015
I didn't jump
and fall and
break.
You pushed me.
chuckae May 2015
you gotta live through it.
some logic i have right xp
~ fiona
May 2015 · 974
c o mpa r ed
chuckae May 2015
Last time I saw his face
It was a beautiful mess.
Even the moon shining
Through the curtains
Couldn't be compared.
May 2015 · 447
e mpt y ne s s
chuckae May 2015
the empty streets will fill up
but my heart just can't
be healed.
Apr 2015 · 9.0k
Stars Wouldn't Shine
chuckae Apr 2015
(balanced)


If birds had no wings
They wouldn't
fly.

If there was no darkness
Our stars wouldn't
**shine.
a moment of thought
Apr 2015 · 1.9k
About Imaginations
chuckae Apr 2015
(a poem)*


life may have flaws

and the image may have faults

but the imagination never does

and i believe

the image doesn't matter

it's the imagination that counts
Apr 2015 · 713
This Life
chuckae Apr 2015
(a poem)*


maybe this life

is just a memory

or a writer's fiction fantasy

of a dystopian world

beyond we ever imagined

our imagination would take us

where the ending never ends

and the beginning is forgotten
Apr 2015 · 614
Tell Me
chuckae Apr 2015
(a poem)*


Tell me the thoughts you bear
And the words you whispered
to her.

Tell me that she doesn't matter
That she isn't someone to care
about.

Tell me that I have nothing to fear
No reason for the tears
i shed.

Tell me that the words I heard
And the note left in the drawer
didn't matter.

Tell me that I'm not alone
That you will always be there
like before.

Tell me that you are still here
Please still be hear, please swear
you'll stay.

Tell me everything you want to
Tell me anything and I swear
i'm listening.
I am back with the longer poems! I guess... maybe XD
~ Fiona <3
Apr 2015 · 648
v a s t
chuckae Apr 2015
(about destiny #2)


My palms against the window glass

The *distance
had never felt so vast.

My eyes trained on the world outside

That held my future in it's hold.

The distance had never felt so vast,

Like careless love and hopeless hope.
A poem,
~ Fiona
Apr 2015 · 358
h i s h e a r t
chuckae Apr 2015
(#5 heart)


If you break his heart,

I will
rip yours out

And *chuck it out
the window.

I am trusting you.

Don't let me down.

Do a better job then I did.

And I know, I know that

He is not mine anymore

But if you break his heart,

I will rip yours out.
A poem
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 342
t h e f o o l
chuckae Apr 2015
(#4 heart)


l u r k i n g   f o o l

never shows up and

if he does he doesn't

remember* the reason

and i start to wonder

why do i keep going

back to him again and

again
and i realise

i am the fool

not him.
Meh...I write too much of this cheesy crap xP
Apr 2015 · 434
o u t t h e r e
chuckae Apr 2015
(about destiny)


and i bet you are out there

somewhere among the *rain


of people within this world

that we are bound to live in

and i bet you are out there

somewhere along the lines

and i will find you one day


*and it will all *fall into place.
This is just for all those people out there who believe in soulmates :)
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 390
b e i n g
chuckae Apr 2015
(#3 heart)


Break my being,

Break my very ground.


I refuse to *fall


And then to be found.

Breaking my being,

Breaking my very ground.


The tears that tempt me

Refuse to rain down my face.

Break my being,

Break my very ground.


Words that are whispered

Are secrets left unrevealed.

Break my being,

Break my very ground.


But don't haunt my mind,

Leave my heart  a l o n e.
A poem.
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 342
t h o u g h t s
chuckae Apr 2015
(#2 heart)


You used to be the thoughts

That I used to *think
about

All the time.

But now you are the thoughts

I  forget  to think

About.
Inspired by you my darling reading this :) JK LOL
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 961
h e a r t l e s s
chuckae Apr 2015
(#1 heart)


Don't steal my heart.

Don't steal it piece by piece.

And even if you do

Handle with care.

Don't break my heart.

Don't break it bit by bit.

And if you do please

Remember to return it.

Please, *please
, please

Don't steal any piece

Of my little heart

Because at one point

I will have nothing left

and I would become

*h e a r t l e s s .
A message to anyone who even came the littlest bit close to my heart. I love people but I don't want to give them my heart. Isnt that what we are all afraid of? Meh...maybe not xD but I hope you enjoyed the poem! Heart / reblog / comment <3
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 306
c h a n c e
chuckae Apr 2015
(about second chances)


i remember

i used to be your girl.

but today i know

you used to love me.

so give me a chance.

i can't say i will

go back to normal

again. but

if you loved the me

of yesterday,

i can make you love

the girl i am today.

so give me a

*chance.
This is just...yeah. I am not gonna tell you what or who inspired it! lol heart it if you like it!
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 492
r e m e m b e r
chuckae Apr 2015
(from my wattpad poem)


My throat 

b u r n s

And it  

h u r t s

But I never say

The  

w o r d s .  

And

I never want

to  s a y  it.

But when I die

I want you to

r e m e m b e r*

it.
Extracts from http://www.wattpad.com/114803915-resonant-poem-10-clouding-of-a-mind .
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 523
h u r t s
chuckae Apr 2015
(from my wattpad poem)


Sometimes

It's not okay to cry.

Sometimes you need

To force yourself,

To hold it together

Just for once,

Like you hadn't

Have to do it

b e f o r e .

What explains,

That sometimes,

The more you cry,

The more it

**h u r t s .
This is from my poetry book on wattpad. Extracts from my poem "The More it Hurts". Link: http://www.wattpad.com/113168861-resonant-poem-7-the-more-it-hurts
Apr 2015 · 1.6k
Chasing Rain
chuckae Apr 2015
(from my wattpad story)*


I am just a memory

That you forgot

To live today.

Soon I will

be gone.


I will be your *yesterday.
Wattpad Story Quote
~ Fiona.
Apr 2015 · 15.9k
Falling Insane
chuckae Apr 2015
(from my wattpad story)


As he watched her

fall  asleep,

He watched himself

fall a little more

**insane .
This is not much of a poem, more of a quote from my story "Falling Insane" on watt pad. If you wanna check it out, go to http://www.wattpad.com/story/22168083-falling-insane !
Fictionally,
Fiona.
Mar 2015 · 3.3k
Our Cliche Infinity
chuckae Mar 2015
You are here
I am here
*And we have an eternity
To unfold before us.
Yeah lame but that's all my brain could think of at six in the morning.
Feb 2015 · 1.3k
Colors In The Wind
chuckae Feb 2015
It been white all morning
As the lightness
Melts hearts.

It's been blue all day
Like the sky can
Breath again.

It's been red in the evening
The rose among thorns
That breaks hearts.

It's been purple at the start of dusk
Something's gone all wrong
Like poison.

It's been black all through the night
Shaking away fear
And desire.

There were rainbows at the break of dawn
And I didn't really know
What it was.
I have no idea what I wrote, it was pretty freakety random.
Feb 2015 · 592
Do You Love Me?
chuckae Feb 2015
I give you smile,
I give you my name.
I tell you my thoughts
And you ask me again.

Do you like this smile?
Does it brighten your day?
Do you ever think of me?
How about all the time?

Do you laugh at all my jokes?
Even though I am not that funny.
I can make you smile even when
The sun stopped shinning.

Do you constantly get nervous?
Whenever I fail to show up.
Do you grin that huge grin of yours?
When I turn up again.

Do you think this can last?
Do you know?
That I will come back everytime,
And we will go from there.

Do you see that we can never
Be what, where, when, and how
We want things to be?
Do you really see?

Do you think that my smiles
Would last you a life time?
Do you really like me that much?
Do you love me?
Please don't.
As cliche as ever, I am back again!
~ Fiona ♥️.
Jan 2015 · 462
What Is This That I feel?
chuckae Jan 2015
What is this that I feel
Like drowning in life
And living in dread?
That when the words
I am supposed to keep
I give away?
What is this that I feel
Whenever I dont even
Want to feel?
That slices through it
All, everything yet
Means nothing?
What is this that I feel
When I dream it to
Be a dream?
But in truth it is
A nightmare that I
Cannot wake from?
What is this that I feel
Obliged to say I don't
I don't care all,
Even though I know
Deep down that
I do?
What is this that I feel
That I can't handle?
That I want to forget?
It chews at my my heart
Threatening to beat to death
And yet..
What is this that I feel?
Today is my birthday... And I don't know. I don't care. It's awful, but good.
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