Words, he had left me
With words I shall never say.
Lies as my eyes tell,
My lips refuse to betray.
And my mad hatter of a love for you
Dissolves like poison in my blood;
Like addiction, like drugs, like cigarettes.
They coat a layer of dark black sin around my heart
Like dying trees growing thick branches with falling leaves
And wounded roots around my bones and ribs,
And the thorns dig out of my flesh.
They wrap around my ankles and wrists,
And tie knots around my waist and hips.
They scratch against my skin making me bleed,
And this plantation tears me apart from limb to limb.
And I know I never cry out, I know I never scream,
Because there are animals nested into my head.
They throw their demands at the weakling in my chest.
They give me commands and expect me to obey.
But my demons, my love, they never leave.
As vultures circle the blood with which I paid,
For the funeral of a love that never deceased.
But you in your empire, you sat and watched me rot,
In another's arm, who beheld my decay.
You watched the colburn they brought,
And watched my colours ashen to grey.
Yet I can't taint the love that leaves me these burns
Because you are ablaze, a star, much like the sun,
And I fall asleep as you do,
And I want to sleep next to you,
But I am afraid of these sparks I feel;
They will explode into flames when comes a day.
And I can't save myself from the hero of dreams,
That makes real, the roles of the villains in my nightmares.
I would run faster then the waters if I had to,
Even though I can't swim.
I would fight soldiers in heavy armour
Without a sword or a shield.
Not to die but, from life, to run away.
From myself and the heart that you hold,
And then my ghost shall dance around my grave.
And if still you, the art in my eye, would not accept me,
I will cool down the fire in me to steam.
The steam to water spilling against my cheeks,
If the heartache won't break me, I will live a funeral.
I won't die if you think it's selfish.
I will bear the rain against my wounds,
The salt in the sea stinging against the stabs,
As I drown my way back home again.