When he left
I felt as if I was burst open
And a part of me was taken away
I thought there was a gap in my heart
And a wound in my chest
But I was mistaken
It was only an illusion
An image created to explain
The sadness and the grief
My Father wiped away my tears
Now I can see clearly
There was never a void
My heart was alway full
Overflowing with the love of a Savior
I can only sing songs of praise
For He never left me
My scars are fading
And my joy has returned
I may have lost someone
But I am not at loss
His grace has made me whole

I was never scared of love
Until you broke my heart
I had yet to feel this great pain
I fearlessly fell so deeply
Foolishly ignoring consequences
And now I am afraid
To do it again for another
To press my lips on someone else's
Because now i know
How great the possibilities
Of loving and losing
Of giving and not getting back
I am now a cautious soul
Made from your leaving
Carved by your abandonment
I chose to love you completely
Because I believed in consistency
But I will no longer be a fool

Who is this girl chasing after a boy?
Darling, you are worth so much more
He has failed to see that

I know I can’t stop you
as long as the pain in your heart remains
you will follow the one who you think can fix it

But he is not the only source
there is a place of overflowing joy
A place where the truth prevails

In your Father’s arms
there is love everlasting
I hope you find it someday

You gave me the sun
But it has reached its time to set
and this dark will remain here
for a length I cannot predict
you gifted me this beautiful light
yet you’ve pulled it down
and taken it away as well

What would I give
to be back where we once were
I don’t need perfection
I just need your hands
reaching for mine again
just a sense that
maybe I’m still
someone to you
I wish you would.
But you are the one
who is done
and I am the one
who wants you once more

They have much to say about things
that they do not understand
Does the human mind have too little to think of
that it begins to twist the lives of others
weaving fictions and sending them out as reality
and their listeners mindlessly believe
They are fed with the misery of others
Never did I think I would become meat
to be passed around and pulled apart
until nothing is left of my origin
They have rearranged me
Those who know nothing of what I am
have managed to destroy all I have built
Years of finding myself
Spat on by their hunger for earthly game
It does not take tasting human flesh
to become a cannibal
They have consumed me
taken my truest form
and left it for dead
only bringing with them the ugly

And there it was.
your toothbrush
still in its usual spot
the perfect epitomy
of what is left of
what I feel for you

it is the last of
all that you left behind
the proofs that you were once here
an item on display
the final thing to throw away
but I don’t do it.

dusty and morphed
it shows signs of use
yet being untouched for so long
sitting there and waiting
for nothing
a lonely cobwebbed fool

it reminded me of better days
of the closeness and the comfort
it hit me just like that
a glance and a notice
I was trapped in flashbacks
all from a **** toothbrush

there is little left of what I feel for you
yet there it still sits
a subconscious essence
and once it was acknowledged
it brought be back to our befores
when you used to use that toothbrush