All my life
I’ve wished
And hoped
Waited
And prayed
For a love
So true, to
Come to me

But yet
Somehow
More love
Than I could
Ever
Wish for, hope for
Pray for was
Sitting there
All along
Purring away
Contentedly
In my lap

Though I was too
Blind
To see it
Until it was
Gone

Maybe I just
Don’t want to
Remember
The light in your
Eyes
The quirk of your
Smile
The soft, rolling
Lilt
Of your voice

Maybe it’s better
This way
To forget
Let it fade
Like ink on paper
Worn with time
Illegible
And decayed

Maybe I’ll let myself
Float on away
Gentle and drifting
Far from those
Thoughts
Those old aging
Dreams
Withered and worn
At the edges

Maybe someday
I will find
Somewhat strangely
That all of those
Feelings
That once were so
Vibrant
Have lost all their
Color, their light
Once so shining

While all that is
Left
Of this once so true
Love
Are the dust covered
Maybes, now
Locked in a box
Tucked away in the
Darkest of corners
Deep down in my
Heart

The truth is,
Even if he feels
The same
As I feel
For him
This is his
Choice
To make

And all the
Feelings
In the world
Can’t change
His decision

I try not to
Can’t help it
My eyes are drawn
Like magnets
To yours
Do you see me?
Were you watching?
No
You look away
Speaking to someone
I drag my eyes down
Shuffling papers
Before me
But then
Looking up
I catch it
A look
A smile, soft and sweet
Your eyes
Warm and gentle
You turn your face
Away
But your lips
Still curve
Your cheeks tinged pink
Were you looking
At me?
In your eyes
Did I see
Could that possibly be
Your love?

I sometimes wish
The earth was
Flat
So that I could
Walk
Straight to the edge
Then jump off

Would gravity
Pull me back?
Or let me
Float?

If it’s anything like my
Heart
It will not allow
My feet
Ever to leave
The ground

My words, they rise
From deepest soil
From pathways strewn
With rock and fire

My words, they fly
On shifting winds
Through tempests born
Of breath and sky

My words, they float
On gentle waves
Through waters deep
They dive below

My words, they ring
With songs of joy
With sunlight dancing
On their wing

My words, they creep
Like rolling fog
In whispers soft
Their secrets sleep

My words, they grow
From jagged heart
With softened edge
They bloom in snow

My words, they reach
A hand toward you
My heart, they hold
My truth, they speak

As you let go of
My hand
I felt myself
Fall
Dropping, tumbling
Through the air
Reaching out, grasping at
Hands, but
Each one, again and
Again
Let me go

At times I found
Something
To hold onto
And I held, and
Held
With all my might
Hoping,
Praying it would
Lift me up, but
At last
My arms grew so
Weary, I could
No longer
Hold on

Freefalling
Soaring
Arms outstretched
Until
One day, I
Realized
I was no longer
Falling, but
Flying