How would you define strength?
Is it when your heart shatters to the ground and still beats?
Is it when you were thrown against the wall and still lives?
The pain that I feel deep inside me, all the betrayals that cut into my chest, I still feel them,
The words that lingers in my mind,
Still pops up in my head sometimes,
"Forget and forgive", they say,
"Only if it's that easy", I whisper to myself,
Only if it's that easy to bear if all I said were less important than his,
Only if it's that good to hear when all I ever hear was "you are difficult",
It was all I ever knew - always being the wrong one,
I built him a home, not realizing I was losing my own,
Forgetting I was enough,
Everything that happened is meant for me to find the way home,
And that, my love, is just my beginning.