amidst all these chaos
i am but a withering flower
polluted and diseased

a wonderer, wondering
where will i ever belong
in this big, bad world

i am but a flightless fish
caged in this contaminated aquarium
with all the floating, dead fish

a lawless city
filled with outlaws
committing crime

amidst all these chaos
i am but a lonely boy
yearning death
as time passes by

My guard dropped like an anvil from the sky
I never knew I was up so high
So alone
Freezing from the inside
Hiding lies in lust when love would've done fine

you were as elegant as hummingbirds,
sipping dripping nectar.
as soothing as the sea shells,
clenched within the sandy shores of Miami.
as gentle as the raindrops,
pouring down on a Saturday afternoon.
and as I slip into a deep sleep of euphoria,
I can only think of what little memories I've left of you.
I hope you're well.

honey, you'd lose the love given to you
but darling, promise me
to never lose yourself

i know it's not the same
and we're both drowning
drowning from the sorrow
the sorrow that is us
just leave me alone