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julius alcancia Feb 2014
underneath the stars, i am holding your hands.
your grip tortures me, it kills me.
then the look in your eyes, i cannot
take it.

slowly my skin touches yours, filling every
gap in my soul.
lips are trembling, my knees, they
are weak.

i want to embrace you, feel every part
of your body.
i want to kiss you,
from head to toe, everything.

but . . .
julius alcancia Feb 2014
you are here and i am glad.
staring at you now, all i
could feel is love.

beyond those quiet words,
that make-believe hug, i want
to say i miss you.

one, two, three. . .
the sinking sun wakes me up.
that pale light,

**it pains me.
julius alcancia Jun 2015
we are changing
and yet,
we haven't changed at all.
(10w)
julius alcancia May 2014
it is a sunday.

earth is in complete darkness.

surrounded by light.
(haiku)
julius alcancia Feb 2014
bukowski said, find what you love and let
it **** you*.

well, i am long dead before i met you.
julius alcancia May 2014
i am an owl in the night
wide awake and unseen
caressing yesterday
cursing your daybreak beam.

stiffened by a promise
of watching over you from afar
wipe the tears in my eyes
so that i may learn to fly.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
to the times you felt alone
in the crowd.
when the promise of another
lifetime wore you out.

those stolen images, familiar feelings
that woke you up.
the empty streets, rainy days that
made you sad.

for the old soul who never
looked back.
the soul who stopped dreaming.
i’m your memory reaching out
from the past.

i say.
carry on,
carry on.
it wasn’t a lie
and this one’s for you.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
i hate it when you smile,
when you caress your hair
like that.
or when your lips move
as you speak.
your eyes, i hate them
even more.
i hate everything about you.
**i hate you.
julius alcancia May 2014
will i ever find you.
scotch tapes and
mashed potatoes.
(10w)
julius alcancia Feb 2014
watching my footsteps slowly dwell in this
empty walkway, the rapidity of my breathing steadily
alters my fainted vision.
powerless to see what’s behind this lengthy and
meandering trail, the still darkness continues to
wobble my somnolent body and soul.

i can hear faded voices echoing in the dimness of the night,
scared and disoriented, the corridor seems so elongated.
the serene reflection of the moon outside is undeniably amazing,
but its pale luminosity gradually kills me from within.

wondering if i can still escape this everlasting torment,
the voices are beginning to sound patent and obvious.
enlightened by the cheerful voices under the daunting dark sky,
i hastily chased these resonances until the murkiness swallowed my being.

taking my chances, i ran as deeply as i could,
until the beams of the sun elucidate the rusty creepy alley.

surprised from the eccentric sight,
i warily sat down on the floor
gazing at this peaceful and tiny square shaped room.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
these words that i write,

will never be read by you

and it breaks my heart.
julius alcancia Jul 2014
planes flying high,
emotions are crashing.
afraid of what’s there,
things that will never happen.

grasping for each other’s breath,
whispering the pain away.
fulfilling fantasies,
before finding our way home.

back to life a little too late,
i see shades of orange, of blue.
running in circles,
we’re spinning out of control.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
this unfought war finally ends
tonight.

the madness, it has to stop
here around these unscathed
warriors.

six feet under, i see them from
where i am lying.
full of happy faces in a world dominated
by wasted chances, what might have
been questions.

along with queries that we never dared
to answer, chances we thought would
come again.

i know this is the end of me, of us.

flickering hope, regrets, a piece of me
to you.
i am ready to go, to let go.

this unfought war finally ends
tonight and i am free.
julius alcancia May 2014
all roads lead to somewhere.

where?
that i don't know.

barefooted thoughts,
how will i deal with loss?
julius alcancia Jun 2014
i want to dive
into your being.
to drown,
and never come back.
julius alcancia May 2014
vague words,
they're silent.
they're honest.
tasteless,
yes the rain.
or your cigar.
it's black,
it's white.
like the skyline.
plain,
yet obscure.
imposing,
but unnoticed.

vague words.
from me,
to you.

vague words.
from here,
to heaven.
julius alcancia May 2014
bending words like a madman,
deep beyond what is real.
there you will find me,
struggling with what i feel.
but here i could speak truly.
say, you are my life
and it is you that keeps me alive.
no, i am here to take a chance.
to be alone with you,
to be near you,
even if it just in the mind.
let me look right through your eyes,
grasp what it is like,
to feel,
to touch,
everything that we will never be.
julius alcancia May 2014
that stigma.
stings like a bee.
like those unread poems for her.
gray skies and saturday sunsets.
the road less traveled.
i want to see more.
but i'm practically dead.
and it's a sad thing.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
maybe we could plunge
into nothingness together.
where we can waste
time forever.
just the two of us,
lonesome life forms
floating in the
atmosphere molded by
sheer desire.
promise, there will be no
tears and heartbreaks.
no sorrow, no rainy days.
we will abandon our minds
and vanish together with
the air, the blackness.
then the blankness in
your heart will be filled
by my own emptiness.
the firm silence will
consume us. we’ll hear
nothing, here, we’ll be
safe and sound.
right or wrong will not
exist, no faith to
tell us what we want.
the dead space, it
will envy us. then slowly
the abyss will
feast on us until we
get lost and never be
found.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
one fleeting encounter, it lasted
a lifetime.
at the back of our heads, were
inner demons swayed by
fate.
you smiled, our souls kissed
under the rain.
i felt you.
for a moment, i felt you
there.

**then the world moved on.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
the afternoon sea.
vivid black and white photo.
screaming emptiness.
(haiku)
julius alcancia Feb 2014
wake up your soul,
the gods are asleep.

dream of a rainy evening,
i am all yours tonight.
julius alcancia May 2014
tell me.
*will
i
ever
reach
the
outskirts
of
your
soul?
(10w)
julius alcancia Feb 2014
i want to go back.

to that exact place where i
first saw you.

in that moment only the two of
us understand.


i want to go back.

to grasp once again how beautiful
you were that day.

in that place nobody else dared
to remember.


i want to go back*.

to fall in love over and over
again.

in that fateful day heaven
and hell made love.
julius alcancia May 2014
she is the oxygen i breathe,
the bread i eat.
(10w)
julius alcancia Feb 2014
pretentious twisted words.

on a saturday night.

i wrote poetry.

so they may never understand.

my broken heart.
julius alcancia May 2014
what if for a second,
you can love me back.
look at my eyes
the way i adore yours.
rub your supple lips
to mine 'till i break apart.
squeeze my hand
and never let go.
write poetry about us,
like i'm the only thing in the world.
wake up next to me,
after those soothing lullabies.
feel your body,
close to mine.

what if.
what if.
what if.

you can love me back.

then i wouldn't have to write you a poem.
julius alcancia Feb 2014
these are words written
by you.

words that i cannot write
at this hour.
lost words eclipsed by drunken,
sober thoughts of you.

it is past midnight, i cannot write
a word or two.
julius alcancia Mar 2014
find me.
in these words.
devour me.
until it hurts.
(10w)
julius alcancia Jun 2014
sometimes i wonder if poetry
would
lead
me
to
you.
(10w)

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