Julie Butler: Favorites

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Olivia Choi

a star that falls in love is in the most dire situation,

because they must sacrifice their existence to meet with another,

for when two stars come in the closest proximity as possible,

their ultimate fate is to collide and to explode into the darkness of the galaxies.

o.c.

#love #stars #tragedy #collide #galaxies #ocpoetry

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

The Sweetest Melody

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Olivia Choi

The Sweetest Melody

I think I'm letting go

I think that it's time

For your sweet melodies to cease

And my sufferings to die

o.c.

#melodies #letgo #cease #sufferings #ocpoetry

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

A storms of teardrops

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Olivia Choi

A storms of teardrops

Tears crumple to the ground
But so do the raindrops

And as you can't tell the difference
In which one is which

One soul gone
In a storm of millions
Would not ever seem amiss

#tears #soul #storm #rainfall #amiss #ocpoetry

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Second Place

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Second Place

what do I do
I've walked thousands of miles
tore my flesh on the rubble
followed the path

climbed to the highest peak
watched the world flow
now I'm at the drop

it's tonight- or never
and I realize
I was never your first choice

You put me second
the same way
I put myself last

and now
my eyes are blurry
and I'm reaching
searching

but I am no ones first
I'm stuck in a dark abyss
I lost my chance to be safe
the second is always a waste

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Love Aches

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Love Aches

late night I wrote a poem for you
it goes a little something like this

you left
I hurt
you came back
I kicked you to the dirt
now there calling me a *****
and your laughing through your tears
I won't let you leave again
and I won't let you forget
I ached for you
I trembled at night
now you deserve to hurt

I'm throwing this poem in the lake
sobs breaking through
if only I could hurt you
but I can't- I love You

a little rhyme-y, sometimes we can't not love, even if they hurt us and don't deserve us

#love #sad

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Low Self Esteem

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Low Self Esteem

I feel so confident
behind these facades
but in front of you
I'm just a puddle under your feet

I have a problem
I can't concentrate
or smile your way

my self esteem is terribly low
and the time is escaping me
I'm losing all control

but

even so, you try to gather me up
strong embrace
and I'm shaking
begging
I need space

in the pitch black
I'm back to cursing my name
I'm
just
a
disgrace..
hopeless..
worthless..
weak..
timid soul

might come back and change this..

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Lack of Understanding

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Lack of Understanding

she is perched on his bed above the covers
he can feel her weight on his tired limbs
she doesn't understand
he can't keep his eyes open long enough to truly see
she smiles for the flash
he treasures his last few hours

her thumb traces his silhouette
doesn't remember this time
no voice
or mannerism to match him
all she has is this Polaroid candid

and years later
she still doesn't understand
why he had to leave

you can perceive this in any way.. but i wrote it about my dad who passed away from
cancer when i was 4 years old. (might edit later)

#death #cancer #young

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Fading

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Fading

I'm lying on my bed in the pitch dark
snuggled underneath the covers
my eyes are leaking tears
and I'm too bothered to wipe them away

Sitting up I find
I'm fading
the ground is so far away
and I don't have enough energy to reach

my hands
nor my legs
work
the way they used to

and my mind is skipping
thoughts and memories split in half
the minutes and the hours around me
don't seem to last

I'm less and less than I was
and no ones
bothered to take a look

Tonight I'll be gone
before you get a chance

not really liking this one.. prob will edit in future

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

Hope Gone

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

Hope Gone

staring cold eyes
cut my skin in two
a shrill siren blares
there touching
mapping my skin
my eyes surrender to the black

fake exuberant smiles
prepare to tantalize me- shackles and all
my lungs are quitting
there sweet laced tone seems to get louder and louder
my hands are erratic

my fake smile is long gone
there patience has been buried

I'm a part of the bland walls
and the midnight silence
h o p e l e s s

a weird one- trying this new thing where i use more powerful words to get across emotion ha

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

I Can

Nov 2014 Julie Butler

April

I Can

I can wrap my arms around your middle
pull you tight
feel your heart beat

I can scissor my hands through your hair
savor the strawberry scent each strand gives off
feel you close to me

I can carry you anywhere
hold you like a glass vase
feel just how fragile you really are

I can
But I won't

You told me how he once held you so close
your airways were blocked
and the tears leaking down your cheeks were a plea
you said his touch was fire
and every now and then your hands burn in his memory

He didn't listen

and now I'm here
and I can listen
and I will hear every sound your chapped lips make

most importantly I will wait,
until I can be the man
you deserve

I liked how this turned out, but this meaning was not the original thought for this poem :)

#love #sad #abuse