I know a place where happy ending always do come true.
Narnia? I don't think so,
Hogwarts? my answer is still no,
Disney land? I love to say no.

I'm not Snow White,
that if I eat a poison apple you will come and kiss me.
I'm not Cinderella,
that if I left my slipper you'll search to find me.

I'm not Aurora,
that if I pricked my finger in a spinning wheel you'll give me a true love's kiss.
I'm not Ariel,
that if you found out about me being a mermaid you'll accept me with my fins.

I'm not Belle,
even if I'm the most beautiful in town you're still not my Beast.
I'm not Jasmin,
even if you have the lamp I'm still not the one who you want to wish.

I'm not Pocahontas,
it will be hard for me to paint the color of the wind.
I'm not Mulan,
it will take me hundreds of year to follow my own heart beat.

I'm not Tiana,
but I know my dreams will not be completed without you.
I'm not Rapunzel,
but if I can I will treat your broken heart so you can love again.

I'm not Merida,
I can't shoot any arrows but you came straight to my heart.
I'm not Anna,
I can't travel in a cold just like her but I can endure the coldness living in your part.

I'm not Elsa,
I don't have any super powers but I have a fear, a fear that you will leave me.
I'm not Moana,
I don't think that the ocean will choose me but I decided to chose you.

I'm not a Disney Princess,
but I want to live in Disney land.
I'm not as good as they are,
but I still want to stay for a while.

I'm a lost girl from wonderland,
I'm a lost girl who wants to live in disney land,
I'm a lost girl who loves to be a princess,
I'm a lost girl who chose you to be my prince but you disagree.

I'm not a princess,
you're not my prince.
without having our once upon a time,
I got my own first tragic smile.

23:11 Wish
He is my old foe.
Always leave me in throes.
He is just my raven.
He is not for heaven.

Tremendous I might say.
Lustrous slays me everyday.
Uses the lenient way,
too good to obey.

Time is my old foe.
Time leaves me in throes.
Time is just my raven.
Time is not for heaven.

23:11 wish is in line.
Repeat it three times.
Time never made me fine.
Time wasted mine.

23:11 wish was been mine.
11:11 wish will be pulverize.
23:11 wish is in my sight.
11:11 wish is out sight.

23:11 won't last.
23:11 had passed
23:11 is full of dust
Time won't have my trust.

I love time before,
however he never made a score.
I love him everytime,
but time never made him mine.

Here I am breaking the words I cannot say,
Standing here smiling like an idiot.
Scrolling my phone to choose the best song for today,
a song that would definitely go straight to your heart.

We met unexpectedly,
it was the right timing but we're in the wrong place.
We met when my heart got broken and yours that felt loneliness,
but we met behind the world of screen.

We got close impressively,
For starters I showed the real me that quick.
I told you what I can't, want, need and wishes to do.
I asked myself, why do I need to be me for you?

Surprisingly we bond a little longer,
I didn't stop same with you.
You begun to tell your secrets, you begun trusting me.
And I begun to be afraid.

That night when you decided to trust me I cried, a lot.
Knowing your secret I thought it would hurt me a lot
That your secret would left me so bad.
And your secret is the reason why I cried.

You didn't know that my sobs were meant for you.
You didn't know because you never had the chance.
So I kept it as a secret, I wrote down a piece because of it.
I wrote down with my hands 'cause I can't take the pain away.

Is this even possible?
Loving you and I can keep it as a secret.
Is this even true?
I love you and I kept it in silence.

What is love?
Love is something you must risk it all.
Love is something that will push you to give your all.
Love is something scary to feel.

I'm scared that I felt it for the first time,
I'm even terrified to know that I felt it for you.
Isn't scary? I love you yet I can't take the risk.
Isn't terrifying? I accepted the fact that I fell for you yet I must not give my all

This is suppose to be a love letter,
but in different version.
This is a computerize love letter,
in different form and can't be sent directly to the owner.

Do you know who's the owner of this love letter?
To be precise do you know who's the person I love?
Do you know to whom I will send this?
You can't take a guess, because this letter can't be shared secretly.

I will share this to the world,
I love you and they need to know it.
I won't tell to anyone who's the unlucky guy.
I love you and you will never know that it was you.

The Possibilities that kept on popping on my mind;
Possibility that you might love me back,
Possibility that you might hate me instead,
and possibility that I might get my heart broken again.

I need to stop falling.
I must pretend not knowing him.
I shouldn't keep on believing,
I can see clearly that he's just a dream.

One, two and three. I counted my tears,
as the idea become so clear.
Four, five and six. I counted my heart beat,
as my fear grows to hold my feet.

Seven, my hands are trembling.
Tears keeps on falling.
My heart started shouting.
Hope keeps on fading.

Eight, I wish it was a joke.
One word yet it made my heart broke.
I'm looking for a miracle.
Yet finding it, is hard cause' I'm too weak.

Nine, life is about not being fair.
Life is about making a dare.
Life is about not to care,
but I can't help it I can't bare my despair.

Ten, I'm scared not for my life.
I'm scared for someone who can't survive.
Tears with fears are drowning me in,
Wishes, Miracles are nothing with my Prayers for him.

I prayed for him not for me,
I tried to be me but I can't break free.
My eyes starting to be blurry,
blame it on tears and fears staying beside me.

I'm so happy with our prologue,
that I never thought about our epilogue.
I'm so mesmerized by our first chapter,
that I never thought the possibility of our final chapter.

Prologue:
"Friend request accepted"
"Connected"
"Say hi to your new facebook friend"

First chapter,
You chatted "Hi", I replied "Hello"
Second chapter,
I told my secrets, you shared yours.

Third chapter,
You became my human diary.
Fourth chapter,
I learned about your favorite food

Fifth chapter,
You called, I heard your voice; you heard my laugh.
Sixth chapter,
Your sweet words and chats are dangerous.

Eighth chapter,
I'm trying not to fall.
Ninth chapter,
The cliff cracked and slowly I'm falling

Tenth chapter,
You're falling.
Eleventh chapter,
I thought it was me.

Twelfth chapter,
You disappeared.
Thirteenth chapter,
You stop chatting and calling me.

Fourteenth chapter,
I'm missing you.
Fifteenth chapter,
you're missing her.

Sixteenth chapter,
"I love you"
Final Chapter,
"I love her"

Epilogue:
"Change color"
"Clear Nicknames"
New Message: "Goodbye"

Miracle happened not only once but twice,
He let us meet again after so many tries.
Meeting you again brought me into tears,
Thoughts of losing you make me shiver in fear.

I am moved by your sweetness.
I am mesmerized by your kindness.
Do I deserve someone like you?
Am I worthy of having you?

I want to be better,
But you said me being weak doesn't really matter.
Unintentionally you became my knight,
You came and you lessen my fright.

If my words is your energy,
I'll give it to you wholeheartedly.
If my words are enough for you,
Then it's all yours, it will always be true.

You're the guy who deserve every praises.
You are worthy of all those respectful gazes.
You were the gift not me,
You were created perfectly.

How can you hit my heart so effortless?
How can you do nothing and still look your best?
How can you put a smile in my face that easy?
How can your words makes me feel so free?

Boy, unintended you fixed my heart.
My pieces were empty until you became my art.
It may sound crazy and lame,
But you inspired me the moment that you came.

I don't care about their compliments,
Your compliment is enough to leave it permanent.
You're nice, sweet, hardworking and a workaholic guy,
And so I wish never lose your smile.

Can I take your words seriously?
I will never let you go free.
I don't want to see you feeling blue,
So yes, I'm willing and I'll be happy to take you.

Dreams will make us fly.
It's nice we could reach the sky
We will soar so high.

Inhale the blue sky,
Exhale lot of star.
Continue reaching high top.

Wolves stay with their packs.
Penguins travel together.
Humans give their love.

As time gets older,
Things change and adapts.
It's no need to change yourself.

A gaze from Moonlight,
Sweet smile gushing from starlight,
Wishing you goodnight.

The shooting star falls,
Have one wish for you to speak
Good night and sweet dreams.

Moonbeam makes your dream so sweet.
Stars will read you a right story,
And time slowly making you fall asleep.
A good night won't let you fall too deep.

Have your serene smile,
And your night will be fine.
The sky will look surreal,
Full of star for you to see and feel.

You were my silhouette.
But you were also my favorite rendezvous.
You were the home I wanted,
But I wasn't the one you needed

My words wasn't enough.
You still need someone else.
I'm still not enough.
You still need different words I guess.

I miss our sweetnes,
I miss the feeling of moment that we first met.
I miss your sweetness,
I miss you and you only.

You weren't a saint
But it's okay
I love you and I like you
With flaws and imperfection

Still growing
My feelings for you are still growing
When will it stop?
No one knows.

This wasn't the first time,
But I missed you real bad.
My heart beat was out of rhyme,
You were the guy that I will never had

Your words were like a dagger.
I'm jealous but I'm not your lover.
You love her more than me,
But I don't want to set you free.

You are the art,
I'm not the artist.
You are the protagonist,
I'm just an extra.

If the door's open,
I'll lock it up and throw away the key.
I don't want to leave nor take a rest,
I refuse to move on.

Why can't I have you?
You're my wish that can't come true .
Why can't it be you?
You're the future I want but I can't have.

Miracle and fate *****,
If I can't have you I'll make our own miracle.
I don't care about the possibilities,
I chose you and only you.

You twinkle when you're being you.
Be unique and different it will be a great view.
Don't start your day without your smile,
Because wearing it is like having your own style.

Your talents and intelligent was a treasure.
You were a great artist even if you weren't sure.
You are a beautiful gift given by the heaven,
So put a smile that will struck a maiden.

Breathe the fresh air breeze.
Don't let the cold morning make you freeze.
Smiling will always be your way,
To make your great and peaceful day.

The day is so sweet.
The birds sings their tweets.
You and God's blessings may meet.

This poem was written because of you,
It was created because you exist.
This piece was completed because of your presence,
and was notice because you are known.

However, I can sense that you already met your edge.
You already reach your limit,
You were already falling behind;
at least that what they've said.

I can see how you hide those ****** tears.
I know how to find the scars you kept underneath your longsleeves.
I was informed how you change your own perspective,
and I feel ashamed for I did nothing but to stare.

I was there amuse by your smile but refuse to look in your eyes,
I was there admiring your new outfit but failed to look in your wrist,
I was there talking how you change so much but failed to question why,
I was there watching you like you're a new release and in trend movie.

So Dear J,
I miss how you make everything so positive.
I miss how you would talk about your dreams.
I miss how you live your life.
I miss the unique, pure and full of love kind of you.

I still see you but I know you're not you,
I want to look in your eyes but you always divert it far from my gaze.
I want to hold your scar but you never gave me a chance.
I was stupid to ask you to come back but I know you're already dead inside.

This ****** poem might and will never catch your eye.
This all good for nothing piece may and will never help you.
This piece of garbage will never change and pull you back.
I might never pull you and bring you back to life.

Dear J, can I watch you again ---
How you think of yourself as useless,
How you look yourself unattractive and heart broken?
Surprisingly blood was dripping and I look in the mirror it was broken.

He was my happiness also my pain,
He was the hell in my heaven,
He was the demon in my sanity,
But I'd lie if I'll tell you I didn't like it.

He was the nightmare I want to have every night.
He was the darkness I will always choose over the light.
He was the devil I want to hug so tight.
Loving him was wrong? No, it feels so right.

Love is about being real.
Love is about being happy.
Love is about how you feel.
Love is about you being free.

She's not popular.
She's not even beautiful.
Her dreams are so far,
and she live like a tool.

She's there when they fall.
They knew her when they need a call.
She's not worth to take a role.
She is way too different at all.

Her friends are so cool.
She's nothing but a fool,
Her responsibility is to make a happy soul.
Her friends always get the leading role.

She's Eros' sweet substitute.
Guys call her to ask "why your friend is so cute?".
She's a bridge that every guy could ask for.
Because with her, love is getting colorful.

She take the responsibility all alone.
She want to strike her arrow in a stone,
cause all she's been doing is to give.
Now she's not happy the way she live.

He is flawless.
I am worthless.
He live his life to the fullest.
I live my life cause it's pointless.

He is unpredictable.
I am an open book.
He have all his secrets secured.
I have my secrets for everyone to look.

I can't read his mind nor his heart.
He can read mine cause he have my heart.
I have but one secret to be true,
"I love him" but he never knew.

He have her.
I don't have him.
She have him.
He don't want me.

We almost exchange romantic lines,
he was almost mine,
until She came in the picture.
She came in and took my future

I almost have him,
but I woke up in my dream.
We almost have our happy ending,
but we got the tragic ending.

I hate you,
I don't need you,
Go away,
this is what I said.

Je'taime,
Tu me manques,
j'ai besoin de vous,
this is everything I didn't say.

Wanna know my secret?
It's about me wishing you were mine.
and I have something to tell you,
I don't know but I think I love you.

Wanna know my favorite color?
It is called black but I used to love red.
I change it for the reason red is not essential for my heart,
you broke my heart that's why red becomes black.

Wanna know why I feel this way?
It all started when you said all those lies.
Lies that I kept on believing,
Lies that makes me fight for nothing.

Wanna know why I fought?
you said you love me but I heard you wrong,
you said I'm beautiful but you just made a lie,
you said I'm cute but you just said it like a joke.

Can I wait until you are ready to be mine?
Can I hope that there's a chance?
Can I just fall upon without getting hurt?
Can I just love you without any conflicts? but then I'm asking for nothing.

You painted blue in my eyes.
You made a meal of lies,
I've made so many tries,
to make myself clear to your eyes.

Loyal is different from faithful;
Loyal is like saying to every girl that they are beautiful.
Faithful is like saying only to me that I am beautiful.
It's okay if you're loyal, but I want you to be faithful.

I'll accept who you truly are,
but understand that I've been hurt before.
I'll accept if you'll smile to others.
but love me forever.

Be mine,
and I'm all yours forever.
I'll take the risk to fall in line,
Cause' with you I know I'm happier.

Here we go again,
tears are falling like rain.
Life is now being insane,
and every part of my heart feels every pain.

Dying isn't my goal,
but now I'm thinking if I should fall.
Life is so unfair,
I'm now quiting in every dare.

I can do anything,
but don't push me with everything,
I'm not a toy nor a thing,
I'm alive and I can feel any pain like a human being.

I can fall easily,
I can quit,
I can **** myself,
if that's what you want me to do.

I can hang myself,
I can stab my heart,
I can easily drink a poison,
or even drowned myself in a tub.

I can begged for my life,
I can surrender my own life,
I can trash my effing life,
I can do every wrong if that's what you want.

Can't you see?
I can't think straight,
I can't fight,
I can't even stand.

I'm quitting,
You can now live happily,
you don't have to worry about me,
I'm happy to know that you are happy seing me dying.

I quit!

I know I'm not alone,
but my voice are out of tone.
I'm fragile they will break my bone,
I look in the mirror and wished "can you help me to reborn?"

I feel so useless,
but I'm doing my best.
Is this some kind of a test?
cause it all gave to me was just a stress.

I can't lead great,
everytime I try I always failed.
Is this now my faith?
I know I am a leader to rate.

I'm wrong when I'm right.
They wish I'm out of sight.
Can I ask why my life isn't so bright?
I'm begging someone to help me fight.

If doing right is wrong,
then I can't come along.
This poem can make a sad but beautiful song.
For now I will stay to do the "right" thing which is "wrong".

Umbra were my acquaintance.
Rehabilitating was never been on my plan.
Daftness was there to give me a chance,
Iciness was the best attitude that I’ve done.

Elysian was ready to hug me, yet;
Lucifer got one of my feet.
Acting that I never been felt any sick,
Catching my breath, I’m waiting for someone to save me by their trick.

Aching heart has been pushing and calling me,
Beckon me to end everything in order to be free.
Aspiring to turn myself as a beautiful literary piece in deep blue sea,
Notifying that I’ll never see how badly was reality.

In the end I’m all alone,
Listening when will I ever fall and be thrown.
Lachrymose face is my perfect pattern,
And no one seems to bother how they left my heart broken.

The chilly wind that whines over the roof.
Break down the heavy rain that no one can create a spoof.
A pile of water rolling down the mountain.
Loads of thunders and Lightnings thread by chain.

Another wild storm is here to disturb the night,
Another wave of death is here to take a bite.
The rattling and flapping sound of the leaves,
bring shivers to each pair of sleeves.

Time has been ticking,
Hearts kept on beating.
People can't stop loving,
with Cupid's arrow they are falling.

Cupid is up to something,
He's making the pieces of our feelings.
Collecting the jar of heart from every human being,
pairs of heart that completes the red string.

Cupid wont let us down,
He will never take a shot that will make us frown.
Take the crown,
and love till dawn.

"I'm fine"
"It's okay"
"I'm good"
and flash a smile

Nonsense!
I'm not fine, don't you see?
It's not okay, understand it please.
I'm not good, I can't find peace.

Get the rope!
No, pick the knife!
Choose the poison!
thoughts roaming around my insane brain.

I'm tired,
I'm lost,
I'm lonely,
I feel nothing.

I'm stuck,
I'm suicidal,
I'm choosing,
Live or sleep?

I got the rope,
put it high in the living room,
thinking if I should do it,
but I changed my mind.

I picked the knife,
pointed it on my heart,
thinking if I should stab it.
but then I put it down.

I chose the poison,
put it on a glass,
thinking if I should drink it,
but I tossed it in the garbage.

I looked in the mirror,
with my big brown fluffy eyes,
tired of crying,
wish on dying.

School,
Projects,
Paper works,
And stress.

Tears are falling in line,
ready to flow,
ready to crawl,
ready to fall.

I made my way in the bathroom,
locked up the door and got up in the tub,
I closed my eyes and started mesmerizing everything,
Started to think those darned times to welcome myself in darkness.

before I fall asleep
I said, "goodbye for nothing"
as I closed my eyes, I felt the water enter my body,
tears are on my eyes and I drowned myself while smiling.

The flowers sway as the wind blows,
The leaves fall in the river as it flows.
My feelings for you is like the river it keeps on flowing;
but like the wind it blows in the flower slowly fading.

The birds sang a beautiful song,
The tree danced as the leaves fall.
I've been waiting for you for so long,
but like the leaves you let all my hope fall.

The silky white clouds look so happy,
as the sun embrace it heat through there body.
I want that feeling I want your heat to embrace me,
but its like dreaming to fly, we will never happen and you will never be mine