I hate not being able to write,
About anything besides you,
Youre the only thing that fills my mind,
So what am I supposed to do?

I need different inspiration,
I'm tired of spending every day,
Complaining about how bad i feel,
and how nothing ever goes my way.

But each time i sit down to compose,
A masterpiece or a work of art,
I touch my pencil to the paper,
and cant help but spill my aching heart.

The pieces of our friendship,
Are breaking away, shard by shard,
My heart feels lost, I had no idea,
Losing you would be so hard.

The layers of our endless love,
Like paint they start to peel,
It hurts because I hadn't a clue,
How losing you would really feel.

I hope that youve somehow noticed,
That youre still my number one,
and now I know exactly,
How it feels to come undone.

No worries, no concerns, no fears,
Is what my mask should show,
Although losing you is killing me,
I don't want you to know.

Smile, laugh, get through the day,
Not a single tear I'll cry,
Just close my eyes, drift off to sleep,
Dont think about the word goodbye.

But whispers fill my head at night,
Disguised as memories,
Light and airy, floating still,
Will they ever cease?

Theres a hollow ache inside somewhere,
A hole thats been made anew,
This empty piece thats missing?
Thats where there once was you.

But little by little i understand,
I'm finally starting to see,
That in the process of losing you,
I'm actually finding me.

In just one year,
My life has changed,
I havent started over,
But ive been rearranged.

I thought that I loved,
But it was a lie,
and then it was over,
and I said goodbye.

Ive met new friends,
and lost old ones too,
They come and they go,
Like people always do.

Ive changed my outlook,
On God and on fate,
Ive lost some issues,
And ive gained some weight.

I tried alcohol,
Hard liquor and beer,
It cost me someone,
I held very dear.

Ive lived through some things,
That could have knocked me dead,
If it werent for someone,
Who had a level head.

Ive taken risks,
Despite my heart,
Ive felt my world,
Get torn apart.

I laughed so hard,
I rolled around,
In my pjs,
On the ground.

Ive missed some people,
Theyve missed me,
Ive seen some things,
I wish I could unsee.

My life has changed,
In just one year,
Ive been pushed away,
And drawn in near.

I didn't realize,
But now I see,
That all this change,
Is good for me.

I'm sorry I wasn't worth it,
but you didnt even put up a fight,
Everything in the world must be wrong,
If you and me arent right.
And right now it feels like,
This broken heart wont mend,
Cause every time I wake up,
It hurts all over again.

I wish that I was everything,
That you want me to be,
but its so hard to be perfect,
If you live like me.

Even if I had listened,
Id have to confess,
The words that people told me wouldnt,
Make it hurt any less.

I'm sorry I wasn't worth it,
but you didnt even put up a fight,
Everything in the world must be wrong,
If you and me arent right.
And right now it feels like,
This broken heart wont mend,
Cause every time I wake up,
It hurts all over again.

If I had known that this short time,
Would bring me so much pain,
The memories were worth it,
And id do it all the same.

But all of my sad thoughts lately,
Are sad because of you,
And every time I cry i wonder,
If you miss me too.

I'm sorry I wasn't worth it,
but you didnt even put up a fight,
Everything in the world must be wrong,
If you and me arent right.
And right now it feels like,
This broken heart wont mend,
Cause every time I wake up,
It hurts all over again.

It hurts all over again,
When will the heartache end?
Hurts all over again.