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Joshua Neill Jun 2014
Every day you wait for the pain to fade, because you've almost lost all that you've made. You look at me with those tear stained eyes, but I swear I'll pull you out this time. You say you're alone, but turn away from the wall and you'll find me waiting.

You looked for a way out, but with that shadow looming over you're shoulder. Its hard to find light. But your stronger then you know, you can make this right.

I would do anything to stop your shaking, but there's nothing I can say. You just have to stop that thinking, that you shouldn't live another day.

Don't wait for a way out, cause day in and day out you could be finding help. You say you don't know where the hell your going in, well look into my eyes and I'll tell you.

You say you give up, I know what's its like too. There's rarely a way back from that. I know what's it like, don't just give up.
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
Thoughts racing through my head. Repeating every moment, every situation. I just want to leave the waking world behind. And let the two lights become eclipse by night. Oh, how do I just want this tired mind to feel at ease, to let the world cease. But I don't think that wish will become reality.

The only difference between day and night, is that one is dark and one is light. The only difference between day and night, is if the sun is out or if the stars are shining. I see one pass by, I close my tired eyes, and wish for a moment of rest.

Recreating and changing situations, what could have been and what could have happened. Thoughts, ideas, memories going back and forth. One thought always comes up, "when will sleep finally take me in, and let my mind and body rest."

I am an insomniac. And I don't need rest, these thoughts makes my heart beat out of my chest. I don't need sleep, because I have these emotions to keep. I don't need sleep.

I see the sun start coming up, and I think back to the tornado of thoughts that just went through my head. Say to myself "to hell with it, let your mind go blank". I see the sun shining bright, hear the sounds of the world waking up, my mind was just a little late, but now the sun is the moon, as my mind and body finally give into the temptation of sleep. My last thought is "just another night down, at least the moon and stars kept me company."
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
My eyes drink in this beauty, this horrible beauty, its way to much, oh to much. I think I'm going blind. All I've wanted was trust and caring, but I swear that I didn't get it didn't get yours. Am i just not enough, in your eyes.

Here we are, standing face to face, those **** eyes burning holes into my memory. Is all my sorrow, all my heart ache not enough, to feed your hunger.

We went though hell and high water, but you're the one that killed it, the wick of the candle burned all the way down. So get away. Get the hell away from me.

I am the victim, I am the prey, I am the victim, you better pray. I'm done wasting time trying to stand by your side.

You left me with all my desire, break me free. Wipe that smile from you ******* face, I'm done being toyed with, wipe that grin of your **** face. I'm ******* done.
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
Summers gone and I'm back alone. The warmth is gone, and I'm back to the cold. This weather takes me past, where I would want to be now. So I sing...

I need someone to adore. I just want something more than nights staring into the sky, so I write and write. Hoping that someone will jump out of these words, and that I'll have someone to embrace in my arms.

I will make someone proud, and I will make someone happy. But for now I'm laying on the couch with a pen and paper. Making words into life, holding on, holding out for that someone.

Maybe someone will know me instead of just my name. Maybe someone will come along, maybe someone will know me for who I am. That someone is out there.

I will mean something, to someone. But for now I will take care. And be another lost and found.
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
This black and white canvas, is turning into color, brush stroke after brush stroke. I don't want another or a masterpiece, all I want is for you to be with me.

My cheeks turn red, as our eyes meet. I look down and smile, wishing to be out of this seat. And be off somewhere with you. Making mischief and acting like kids.

Walking down the street, lost in thought and dragging my feet. When I looked up at the sun shining through the clouds and I think of your face. Thinking of your smile made me reflect a smile of my own.
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
She's in love, with the thought of being in love. And I know, the only reason I am here. Is because I believe the words that she lied through her teeth. While I'm restless at night she's smiling in her sleep.

You smile in your sleep, you smile. You smile in your sleep. You are the first one I wanted to keep, you're the last one I wanted to lose. You are the first one I wanted to keep and you're the last one I wanted to lose.

Who knew that hell could be so close to my heart, when I found out the games that you played from the start. Why did you continue, you knew that this would end, you knew this would die.

You played the part of the hurt victim oh so well, it's no wonder I fell under your spell. You cast me as the your hero, and together we pulled you out. But once you didn't need me you just threw me away and left me to the crows
Joshua Neill Jun 2014
Take me down, to the fire in your heart, let me find you in my arms, we can just let the world pass us by. Take me down, as the embers slowly fade, and sail away with me

I can picture, writing songs for you. I can picture counting down the hours, and I can picture my friends saying how you've got me wrapped around your heart, but as long as you're wrapped up in my chest, I'll be fine because it'll be for the best

Take me down, to the fire in your heart, let me find you in my arms, we can just let the world pass us by. Take me down, as the embers slowly fade, and sail away with me.

And I know I have sorrow, I know I have heartache, I know all of this. But I know I could be someone who could make you happy, I swear I could make you proud. So here's my heart for you to take

Take me down, to the fire in your heart, let me find you in my arms, we can just let the world pass us by. Take me down, as the embers slowly fade, Take me down, to the fire in your heart, let me find you in my arms, we can just let the world pass us by. Take me down, as the embers slowly fade. And sail away with me.

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