I still remember how the distance tricked us,
and lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured.
I still remember how we held so strong to this,
though we had never really settled on a way out.
I still remember the silence, and how we'd always find a way
to turn and run to our mistakes.
I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again.
My dear, I hear your voice in mine.
I've been alone here, I've been afraid, my dear.
I've been at home here. You've been away for years. I've been alone.
I breathed your name into the air; I etched your name into me.
I felt my anger swelling; I swam into its sea.
I held your name inside my heart, but it got buried in my fear.
It tore the wiring of my brain; I did my best to keep it clear.
So, dear, no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head.
And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead.
If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend.
And I will lay a bed before you; keep you safe until the end.

I knew this was coming all along
I just didnt want to believe that youd be gone.
You told me to stay strong,
But youre the only thing that kept me fighting through it all.
I need you here now more than ever
But youre not coming back from down under.
You were always so happy, so full of life,
Nobody knew what was going on inside.
You just keep fighting, smiling through it all, always standing strong and tall.
You kept me sane in my weakest hours.
Oh if there was a god, why would he give you cancer?
Its just not fair, you never hurt anyone.
You were always there to help, give them the answers.
Noone knew you quite like i do, they had no idea youd be saying your last words soon.
You told me goodbye but i didnt want to believe it, i kept hoping that you would just be sleeping.
But now your gone and i know for sure,
You spoke your finale breaths and left this earth.
But ill keep my promise, ill stay true to you.
Because after everything youve been through, you just wanted me to see it through.
I will stay strong, ill be as happy as can be
But im only doing this for you bud, because you would do the same for me.

1 month and 7 days since the last day i saw you, i swear it was like 1000 months.
I miss you, i miss everything about you!
Your face,
Your smile,
Your hug,
Your smell,
The way you look at me!
The way you talk when you're angry!
The way you laugh!
The way you talk about someone you hate!
I know that we weren't saw each other everyday, but the feeling that we're in the same place makes me feel safe!
I can't say you're my love or my happiness because actually you mean EVERYTHING to me.
I keep thanking god every single day for having you in my life!
I can't imagine my life without you!