I don't know what I'm doing here
I don't know where I am
The only thing I remember is your face
Smiling sadly at me from above
As I go to speak your name
My breath catches as I cannot remember
Though I feel it right on the tip of my tongue
I know you like I know I need to breathe
But I have no memory of you

Who are you
Why do I know you
Why, can I not remember you
Why does looking in your eyes, bring tears to mine
My heart yearns for a touch that I cannot remember ever feeling
It wells up in my chest like I'm holding in a scream  
As if I am trying to cry out your name in desperation
But I do not know it

You are the most familiar mystery to me
My favorite book I have never read
I know you but I cannot tell you how
The worst of all
is the tears on your face tell a story about us that I have never heard

You are a stranger
We have not even really met
But you have become a part of me
That I cannot live without

The further you are
The slower my heart beats
The longer I go without hearing your voice
The more deaf I become

You are that first breath of air
To a drowning man
The last little light
Keeping darkness at bay

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
But instead it has torn mine in two
How have you become so important
When I haven't even met you

You are a stranger
We have not even really met
Still I need you like a flower does rain
Yet I know that all I feel
With a wasted breath, be spoken in vain

Dumb messages
Full of silly words
Laced with promises
Never to be kept

An emptiness left
That only you could fill
Shattered a broken heart
That just started to heal

Dumb messages
Filled with hope
Silly Words
The promises we broke

It may hurt in the moment
But the future self knows
These bittersweet moments
Makes the heart grow cold

Dumb messages
Silly words
Promises made
Promises broke

The traces of your touch
Still linger on my skin
The shadows of your memory
Still bombard my thoughts
An infinite loop
Of bittersweet nightmares

Overwhelming
But sickly satisfying
The desire to fight
Turns to plea’s of death
Attempting to end it all
By drifting into eternal slumber

But I always wake
From my desolate dreams
To a living terror
That day by day
Rips me apart

I need you here
Im going insane
So I hold on
To my agonizing hope,
My most precious pain

reality
who's to say that what you call reality
is even real at all
maybe the fantasy I have created
is the truth
but you insist on trying to blind me with lies

What if i'm right
and good defeats evil
truth conquers lies
and light shines through the darkness

What if i'm right
that true love exists
and theres someone for us all
waiting for us to open our eyes and look
what if i'm right
and I can go throughout life like I live in a book

My temptation,
My alluring forbidden fruit

A succulent and sweet taste
Lies within those soft lips
But still, i must distance myself
With you just beyond my grasp

My temptation,
My alluring, forbidden fruit  

With fair skin, as soft and white
As a winters first snow.
Captivating me with your touch

My temptation,
My alluring, forbidden fruit

No matter how hard I fight it
From the very first taste,
That first stolen kiss
I became addicted.
To you, My sweet forbidden fruit

cold and heavy chains
bind back my heart
locked in a cold damp cage
and you threw away the key

I cant move on
stuck in this cage
with a lock that cant be broke
and chains that wont rust away

forever waiting
for your thoughts of me
hoping you will remember
to return and set me free

Who am I?
I have a name, but it isn't mine
it belongs to who i was
not who I am

Names are for those that are their own person
who have hopes, dreams, and visions for the future
not for the brainwashed drones of society
only living day by day without any dreams for themselves
just merely existing, waiting
waiting for the next order

Who am I?
I am just another drone
another nameless pawn only known by a model number.
The hollowed out corpse of who I used to be.
The brain that housed my ideas and visions of the future,
taken out and replaced with a chip.
The heart that held my hopes and dreams,
torn out and replaced with a battery
so when our chips short circuit or battery dies
they can just throw us out like any other broken tool.

Who am I?
I'm just another drone.

staring at a blank sheet of paper
expecting the words to just appear
my emotions to raw to form
into the letters needed to express.

beating at my chest i pull and tear
begging and screaming into the night
trying to get a grasp on to any courage
I might have so to tell you
that everything i need
everything i want
is just you

Desperately clinging to pen and paper
needing to write it all down
this inconsolable loneliness i have without you
how the world was just black and white
then i met you and it was like seeing color
so vivid and bright, for the very first time

how just the slightest touch from you
ignites a fire under my skin
bringing life into the dead world i live in
and gives me a reason to go on

still so much to say but there isn't enough
words to describe what I feel for you
if you ever doubt anything i do or say
just have faith in my words here
for they are the truest i've ever spoken
no matter what, i'll always love you.

I've been gone for so long
Its time to come home
All the plans we made
that you decided to change

Everything you said
I believed was the truth
I thought I had a reason,
someone to come home too

Two days from my flight
and being reunited with you
never thought that are plans
consisted of you having another man

You gave me hope in love,
but like every other time
I always end up deceived
proving its life's biggest lie

I prayed night  and day
that what you said was true
but i realize i'll never
have someone to come home to

Ive fallen so deeply
so helplessly in love
your eyes
your laugh
your voice
your smile

I promise that I can be
everything you need
just give me the chance
to prove my love
just give me the chance
to prove im enough

What could we be
if we gave us just one try
one kiss, one dance
what if we gave it a chance

If I confessed my love
would you throw it away
or would you stick around
and listen to what I have to say

The words escape me
when I try writing them down
as if the art of poetry
has become a dead language to me

My inspiration
gone out like a light
leaving me alone
in the dark of night

My creativity
slipped out of my grasp
faded away
into the distance

I cry out into the shadows
begging for help
to restore to me my muse
to turn on the light

But my cries are mute
gone unheard
as silence takes over

So i can never write another word

You infectious parasite
you diseased my heart
I hope all this guilt
tears you apart

You played me like
a video game
and made me believe
the lies that spewed from your lips

Now my heart
is slowly dying
from the disease
you called your love

If you wanted me dead
you should have made it quick
instead of loving me
and making me sick

As we lay here
staring at the the stars
you seem so close
but yet so far

When our eyes meet
I try to confess
everything I feel
but its like you cant see
how you make my heart sing

I long for the strength
and the bravery to say
how much I need you
every single day

As we lay here
staring at the stars
you seem so close
but yet,



So far

Love me,
        Even if its wrong

Stand with me,
         Even if its hard

Fight by my side,
         Against all odds

Stay by my side,
         We can do whatever it takes

Come with me,
          Be my perfect mistake

Staring at the floor
slowly shuffling my feet
its finally that time
this is it

I look into your eyes
you can see it to
its time for me to go
my days here are through

I hope for you to tell me to wait
that you need me to stay
only we both know
its to late

I will be gone long
but not forever
oceans will separate us
you say to not forget you
but i could never

Those beautiful eyes
and the way you look at me
the softness of your voice
when you call out my name

This will keep me alive
my memories of you
no matter how few
will bring me back to you

Ill think about you
every moment im away
I pray youll do the same
and remember this

Im gone but not lost

My mistress the moon
calls to the beast within
she whispers to me
its my time again

My skin begins to rip
my new form pushes through
my bones bend and break
to form something new

Fur covers my flesh
claws push through my nails
dropping down to all four legs
im born anew

I howl into the night
the pack answers my call
we hunt until the morning light
all for our mistress the moon

I look into my eyes
All I see is the shell of a former man
All my faults are scarred across my skin
Bleeding from my eyes is the putrid infection of sin

I see the hands of my reflection
Reach from the mirror
Time begins to slow
I can see them getting nearer

I grasp the hands and get pulled into the embrace of a monster
I shake, I twist, I try to break free
In the end its impossible
I need to just except me