As I stand here before you
my mind is somewhere else
I'm here but I'm not
like a missing book from a shelf
you see the past haunts me
waking hours and in my sleep
mistakes long past
still scar so deep
one would say
to let go just forget
but on the inside
I'm just a mess
if all of life is but a dream
it'd be great to wake up
and go back to sleep

Surrounded but alone
longing for a place
that feels like home
by your side I saw him
as you walked on by
then it hit where it hurt most
I'm nothing more than
just another ghost

I was dreaming
And what did I see
I saw a woman
I saw you without me
You seemed so happy
this is too much
I cant handle it
I'm out of touch
Feeling crushed and depressed
Without my queen what is there left

The heart wants
what the heart wants
but what if youre not good enough
do you betray what you feel inside
by running away and trying to hide
what do you do who do you see
when what your heart desires
doesnt desire thee

Eyes of emerald
heart of stone
she face the darkness all alone
there she grew knowing no light
there was no hope just plight
he saw her sorrow
he knew it too
the horrible feeling of forever blue
he went to her offered a hand
she slapped it away crying
youll never understand
he pulled her close
and then they part
2 beats one heart

It hurts this pain in my chest
Is this what they call loneliness
I sit I watch I see
all of these couples merry
Im so alone I want to cry
or better yet maybe die
no one would care
no one would look
I'd just be a missing page
in a forgotten book

Normally I love the rain
but today is an exception
its dank dreary cold and dark
the cause of my reflection
all I want to do is sleep
but my bed is lonely
beneath these sheets
lying alone as my conscious fades
my last thoughts
please look my way