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Johnny Gillespie Feb 2015
What's a green world when all I see is Blue?


What's a reflection when all I see is you?
Some things never change
    


      The circular stains on the ceiling above my 
heart shaped bed didn't exist under that rule

  Sometimes they *seemed
constant
           And sometimes that made me feel ok
            
        But other times, as I lay in bed,
            Somewhere near the halfway point between laying down and falling asleep,
       I stared up at them and they moved
         Left and right
Ellipsing each other,
    Becoming ovaloid in shape

Sometimes they simply flitted away, vanished


    I thought them gone,
But they continued to return.

They would not be so remorseless as to leave and not look back to see the blank space they had left.

     So my little circular stains stayed for a while.

    I was happy looking up in wonder at something I could never understand but never dared question.

   Until one day I simply wasn't. My interest in the stains steadily faded until I began to drift off on my side staring out the window, searching for owls I could hear but not see. These sounds made me hope.

They made me open the windows I had locked tight.
They made me breathe.
    
    Those sounds lull me to sleep even now.

*And I've stopped looking for the circles completely
Johnny Gillespie Feb 2015
I can break my back to carve it
                                                       into the earth beneath.
                                                                                               I can float it across the clouds and sun, so it, the sky may repeat.
                  
                                                    
You, it has known
for centuries,                                                     inside you it will be,

                          And still, I cannot guarentee that you will see.
Johnny Gillespie Feb 2015
If a world is turned upside down, does a man follow?
Can a man in ascension be lost to us but accompanied by our trust?
If the man follows the path of his world, where does he stop?
When does the world begin to follow in his?

Can the weight of his world be supported by our ignorance to its existence?
At that point does his world really exist at all?
When its all turned around on you, do you ascend before the world?
Or do you supplement the force that restrains it in Fear?

Are you worried that I know you too well?

The ashes of the past long for the fire of the future,
and we are the means that stand between them.
Walls are painted thick between man and God,
but no one is there to guard them.
The galaxies spin before our eyes but their sizes show us no mercy.
Men used to be young, teeming with wisdom and opportunity.
These days boys are old, piling on the ashes.
A thousand years are whispered in a thousand tears
in the hope that we might make them our own.
Each soul on the path to fulfillment, lost in the equilibrium of man and child;
to change lives, or save them. To live to die, or die to live.
Barriers are breached between worry and fear,
but all that has changed is that now they are free.
Seconds, minutes, hours… days… all real, all fearless,
no matter how much we wish they were not.
Bringing us to a point where an end seems evident,
as we find ourselves at the beginning once again.

There are two kinds of people in this space and time:
those who find that all hope is lost to what has brought us here,
and those who realize that we brought ourselves here.
For now, we reside in silence,
and await the one who stands up upon the ashes
to find them both.

We search the path to discover what defines us,
and it is already done along the way.
Love lacks the pure form that it used to hold as the motive of all action,
what bound us together and allowed our place in the sky to be contained.
Time has fallen to become an enemy,
the only thing restraining us from everything we’ve dreamt for
in the form of an impossibility.
We have infinite hope that we will reach this heaven,
blind to the notion that we are already there.
So much of us and what we feel, given away,
as if it has become a burden to hold on to.
But when our opportunity has been exhausted,
the rivers keep flowing,
the leaves stay falling,
the flowers bloom once again. Life proceeds.

But here we rise through the eternal haze,
battered and bruised from head to toe,
our eyes pointed not up, but forward,
unhindered by the smile of the darkness.
Here, we build cities and forge mountains,
expand the horizon and release the light upon the stars,
all under the power of one notion:

Who we watch ourselves become has an end.
But who we are lives on.
Johnny Gillespie Feb 2015
Tonight I’m leaving this life.
Left everything at home, unseen in my flight.
Gone to where the love flows so pure,
A light that will shine once I make my return.

Emotion shared through the language in my eyes,
Heeding no attention to the shadow behind.
Nothing left to fear, I’ll make it this time,
I’ll never be stopped, I’ll live before I die.

Tonight I’m leaving this life for good,
And you're coming too, I knew that you would.
Johnny Gillespie Feb 2015
Love can pass me by,
Memories can escape my cry,
No longer with the chain will I try,
Forward I will fly.

Whoever arrives at the timeless gate
Surpassing the previous lucid fate,
No longer will I wait,
Never will I be late.
Forward I will fly.

Time extends across the fight,
Floating into the grasp of the night.
No longer will I be blind to the light,
Never will you leave my sight.
I won’t be late, and Forward I will Fly.

Blameless at the spirit’s womb,
Whoever has the love consumed.
Preaching to the vacant tomb,
Make sure you leave me some room.
As I keep you in my sight, I will never
Be late, and Forward I will fly.

Leave me the comfort of my room,
Will my sight capture the vanity of you?
I won’t be late to the essential true,
Forward I will fly, with or without you.
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