It can mean a lot of things
i seem to care too much
so i give up
I want you to be happy
I hope it works out
If not ill be here if you need me
But its all going down hill
Just stay quiet
not a word
right?
I dont need anyone to make me happy
when i havent been in so long
not since....him....

then you walk like nothing happened
if you can walking
you ask yourself why like if you have an answer
if you have the power to speak

your feet take you like if there is a place to go
everywhere is closed for you

you are close the end like everything is far from you

You don’t see me.
I mean…
You do… see me.
You see, a warm smile.
You see, direct eye contact,
You see, a quick joke.
You see, a random fact.
You see, us laughing.
You see, “Why do you even remember that?”
You see, confidence.
You see, certainty.
You see, a shoulder to lean on.
You see, an ear to listen.
You don’t see, drowning.
You don’t see, shrinking as you walk away.
You don’t see, a mountain’s climb to simply get out of bed.
You don’t see, doubt.
You don’t see, fear.
You don’t see, being alone in a crowd.
You don’t see, lingering on every word.
You don’t see, “What did they really mean by that?”
You don’t see, a plea for help.
You don’t see, no self-worth.
You don’t see, gray days.
You don’t see, lost.
You don’t see… me.

Some days we are not alright but it’s completely okay to be not okay sometimes .
Everything takes time .
Not everyone will see the pain in your eyes,
Not everyone will feel the bleeding ,
And not everyone will understand the choices you have made ,
To keep your life breathe,
It is okay not to understand
   _susie