It’s when I wake that my life *****
Waking in a world without you there
So I close my eyes
And I tell myself lies to keep from going nuts
I can’t feel happy in my head
And just one thought is there
What if I let go ,
I’m standing on the edge .
And your not there to pull me back

I did the best I could
And all I wanted was your love

And in reply
Your words broke me
“Not good enough “

You said to me,
"Dont throw me away"
But
You never thought twice
About calling me trash.

This isn't living
This is you
Pointing a gun in my face
telling me that everything is ok,
You put the bullet in the gun
and
I pulled the trigger
That's the bullet
That
Took away my pain
Running from a blind a man
Lost in the known
I'm afraid to be found
If you can love me,
then you must not know me
I just wanted to dream,
so you poisoned me in my sleep

I've always tried to  hold everything together.
Pain or love threw any weather.
But even the strong know the week.
It hurts when you get knocked down but you get back up, cant sleep.
I hope you know this in every word I speak.
Because one day I'll be gone.
All that will remain are forgotten melody's to a broken song.
I can never claim everything will be all rite.
because we all know what hides inside our heads at night.
Even when I've lost my fight
And I don't wake agene at the end of a night.
Just put your faith in the sick, deprived, and un-holly
Because death is all it seems will take you wholly