someday I’ll get over with this pain.
                   no more tears.
            no more sleepless nights.
     no more clouded thoughts.
someday I’ll get over you.
          I’ll be prettier then.
   bright smile, beautiful eyes.
           better hairdo. better me.
and I’ll walk right in front of you.
              with my best face
      and stilettos on.

you have that kind of beauty
       that your own eyes forbid to see
              there's something in you that captivated me
                    something that made me long for thee

I got less time to groom myself.
          less time to have chit chat with my buddies.
 and even lesser time to make new friends.
          I’ve been busy dealing with something
 it is this monster I have inside
          that eats up the 24 hours I have
 thinking of how can I make it shut.
          planning of killing it to make it stop.
 everyday it is getting worse.
          madder and madder as time pass by.
 I don’t know what to do anymore.
          my own ghost is haunting me.
 help — can somebody take me away,
          away from here. away from myself.

I don't need to cut,
      I'm already drained,
           there's nothing left in me,
                I'm just an effin lifeless *****

I saw this coming
you'll get tired
love will fade
you'll be mad
and eventually walk away
I tried to make it stop
tried to cure
make it better
save the ruins
but it's too late
you're already gone
had enough
of me being no good
it's my fault all along

I want to build my own castle.
and rule it on my own.
I’ll be my first follower.
until it’ll count to thousands.
power, wealth and influence.
been dreaming of everything,
everything I never had.

a dream I’m afraid I’ll never have,
I haven’t started building my castle,
but I’m already destroying it.
ruins burning right in front of my eyes.
maybe nowhere will always be where I belong.
nowhere will always be where I’m going.

how nice it would be if I were just a ride away,
it would be much easier than being this way.
when it’s cold, I could really hug you so tight,
kiss you when everything’s falling or nothing seems right.
I guess it would be sweeter if I could whisper I love you,
or say I miss you with me staring right through you.
but all I can do is dream of things we cannot,
because dear distance always permits us not.