why did you abandon me?
in times where i was in need
where all but my liberty
was taken indeed

why must you abandon?
as you left all the worries
now im all alone
hoping for the apologies

if this was just a simple fancy,
how come it lasted years
where you're the only one I see
albeit you've caused these tears?

"do you love me?" i asked with utmost uncertainty
he looked at me as he said, "sometimes."
unsettled, unsecured and in limbo, "no guarantee."
he repeated, "no guarantee... at all times."

the moment you slipped out of my hands
was the moment I regret to let you go
despite I only loved you once
but so much so.

I'll never be the wondrous kid
that you once knew
whose feelings you try to hid
who was naive with no clue

I'll never be the child
that you once spoke of highly
in your eyes I'm exiled
as I left quietly

I'll never be the daughter
that you once molded
whom you planned to hold forever
in your palms, i was guarded

I'll never be the listener
that they once relied on
in their sights I'm a betrayer
the grudges they have are a ton

I'll never be the friend
whom they once smiled with
for the ties are loose ends
because of what I did

I'll never be the shoulder
that they once held to
so who would hold her
when she is blue?

I'll never be the person
that you were once fond
whom you paid much attention
that these feelings spawned

I'll never be her
whom you once loved so much
like your favorite sweater
that you wear with no match

I'll never be enough
for them and for you,
indeed, it's tough
now that i have no one to hold onto

i don't wanna be your friend
for I wanna hold your hand
as genuine as i intend
as long as i planned

i don't wanna be your friend
and stay on that lane
where we both would mend
the gore and the pain

i don't wanna be your friend
but i can't say it
for it's hard to comprehend
as i still can't admit

i don't wanna be your friend
i don't wanna see that smile
as something just for the end
i'll wait even if it takes a while

i don't wanna be your friend
i wanna be something more
now, i can't pretend
you are what i wish for

but if you ask me why
why friendship isn't enough
i'm just gonna lie
maybe tell the truth or half

hungry for power
while the poor starve from hunger
the rich shall cower