it burns and pleases,this deep desire

soft flesh torn up so beautifully

sweet tears, kiss them away I long for you darling,please stay...

using one finger four in back, wrap your palm around my neck

squeeze me tight, don't hold back.

 

fuzzy lights, twinkling about

a serene, soft buzz---

 

now close your eyes, it's time for me to go

just for one moment, and then I'll return

but until then, you won't know...

I've gone down, down to the deep depths of nowhere

it's quiet here, the buzz is gone.

it's just black. black and red.

what lovely colors, when they're in my head.

powerful and promising, so eager to play,

building a bridge between pleasure and pain.

Hate and love
One in the same
I love myself
I hate my brain
 
No pity for the crying girl
How shameful she is with those melting pearls
So ugly when she cries
Sweet soft tears to soon be her demise
 
What fear what fright
Such fright for life
Love and hate
Such hurt and pain
 
Love so deep it tears and tears
Those disgusting tears of passion and pain
 
Love never to be returned in such a passionate way
Impossible love,a torturous game
 
Forever will never come
the crying girl ends today 
Forever forever forever she says
I want to be with you forever 
Short breaths, chest pains
Forever is surely not a game he plays
 
To him there's others
Others would do
Others would love
Others wouldn't cry
 
But no other could feel the passion I felt
When he first kissed me on his knees he knelt
My hands sweeping his gentle face, caressing his hair
To the crying girl, this was no swift love affair
 
Such perfection in one soul
On my heart he pulls and pulls
No human words could explain
This unusual love: it's rare domain
 
For granted for granted he takes the girl
Not realizing the strength of this unusual pull
Otherworldly, some might say
But he doesn't believe in true love that remains
 
Souls meant to build together
Lives of passion, Passionate forever. 
What an exquisite life we could have
If the boy believed in starting fires
 
A chance, a step, what little faith. 
Hold my hand, there's a few steps we must take
A match in our hands, we could rule the world
With our love we could ignite this fire
The fire that burns is my heart's desire
 
No other thing could matter
The flowers could die
the sun could cease to shine
bright flecks of gold in her crying eyes 
But still my love, my love, it remains
 
A hunter's trap, he's caught my heart
There's no turning back I cannot part
He though, he parts with my untamed heart,
And laughs as he says, I told you, forever won't do
Forever isn't for us two
It's not for me, it's just for you
Forever a tortured heart, cruel love
 
Beyond love
Wild ruthless frenzied passion
The crying girl won't be tamed
Left an animal trapped in that cage
 
Bars of pain, cold desperate pain
He says I love you, what else matters?
Tomorrow matters, tomorrow I will still be in this cage
Cold bars pressing against my wet skin
Tears silkening my skin
The comfort of that cold soft buzz has begun again
 
But wait, that freedom that bliss
The freedom that happens each time we kiss!
Such laughter and warmth
The girl can't understand why he would ever want to depart.
 
He says my soul is not made for yours
It is whole on its own
No pieces are needed to make this one soul whole
 
But mine, it matches yours, she says, "your part makes me full"
But he only believes in small things
Everything: tis but a thing
 
Tis but a thing that he makes her puzzle whole
One sided passion, what an awful contraption
Her small shattered pieces of hope, warped through his kaleidoscope
 
The boy that made forever disappear
When she asks, when will he be able to see clear