this feeling in my throat starts to fill every gap and inch and crevice in my body and that lump that sat safely in my lungs has multiplied my body is overwhelmed with this crushing weight this weight you brought over me it takes over my soul and limbs it makes sure i feel every last bit of pain you dispensed inside out of me from the moment i escaped the haunting walls of my mothers womb to the moment i uttered these last words to you all of it flows back through my ears into my brain from cell to cell you brought it back with just one wave of your unforgettable palm i thought that same fist was making me stronger but all you did was hollow me out and crack my bones until you were all i was then you ******* left took yourself and me right out the door what the hell am i suppose to do now?

I just wanna see if I got it in me
if I can keep going and going
becus I've been surprising myself
With the new things I keep finding out
thought I knew all of me
some things I knew I was capable of
like love with my all
haven't did that since
well we won't speak of what's gone
but that's the whole point
I'm here, and understanding me
*** we're all lost souls
Til we find our way
I'm some hippie hopeless romantic
made of many galaxies
and there's nothing but star dust being blown off my unventured planets
Just keep shocking myself
and I thought I was finished loving myself
but there's more to love than ever before
and I couldn't be so thankful
for the mistakes I've made in my life
*** they've all brought me to this point
With still many years to come