JCkilledme

JCkilledme Oct 2013

I've been trying to figure out how to say this,
but it's really surprising ....
this feeling.
It's actually kind of,
exhilarating .

*I fell back in love with *myself today.

JCkilledme Oct 2013

stop

I don't like the memories
because the tears come out so easily,
       and once again i break my promise.
                    the promises i make to myself.
         its a constant battle
                            a war between
remembering                      and forgetting

JCkilledme Oct 2013

thricefaced

The Japanese say you have three faces.
The first face, you show to the world.
The second face, you show to your close friends, and your family.
The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are.

JCkilledme Oct 2013

experiences.

Do not make homes out of people. it will only leave you
constantly homesick, sad & needy.

JCkilledme Oct 2013

...

I eat, I have clothes, I have a house, I read.
i read about people around the world who survive on less than a dollar a day.
i read about how there are hundreds of millions of widows living in poverty.
i see ads for kids who are born with ragged lips and jagged teeth.
i don't have anything like that.
i just wake up with a deep hatred of myself.
how selfish is that?

JCkilledme Oct 2013

imaginary sweets.

Having one of those days again
when i miss your sweet words
and that sweet touch
its too bad that you were not real
but hey, it was real to me
at least in my mind it was
my imaginary love
my imaginary sweet
come back to me as reality.

its one of those nights
when i need you most
holding me in your arms.
and i try to make you reality
but all i get is a crazy look.
i try
i try
i really do
so i guess ill wait,
a few years more for you
with my heart torn apart.
just know, ill be the best i can
with all these broken pieces,
of my rejected hand.

JCkilledme Oct 2013

5/20/13

I will not be a victim of my own head.
put myself down when i stand infront of a mirror
sadness is not my favorite shirt.
even if i wear it often
but this year,
this year i will take it off
and hang it in the closet
along with all my other skeletons
summers are for tube tops, not long sleeved shirts to hide my scars
happiness is not tequila and love is not having *** every other day.
crying wont make me weak
cutting wont make me strong.
even though somedays may feel like razor blades
they aren't j.
please try to live again.