“Why do you hate me?” you ask,
I will no longer hide behind my mask.
You told me to not cut my hair,
Of course I wouldn’t dare.
You vowed that I was nothing without you,
Who are you to tell me what I can’t do.
You said that I was weak,
I began to believe I was a freak.
You shouted my name until it became a horrible word to hear,
All I ever wanted to do was disappear.
You called me pathetic, boring and ungrateful,
Every word pierced through me was painful.
You picked me up at your angriest and threw me,
I never told a soul, I didn’t want them to worry.
You used to shake me if I didn’t look into your eyes,
It makes me feel sick that I used to feel butterflies.
You would argue when I never said a word,
Even if I tried to defend myself - you never heard.
You made me promise to not get anymore tattoos,
It took me too long to realise everything you did was abuse.
NOW, I’m stronger.
Because we are no longer.
NOW, I will look you in the eyes and smile.
Because I can see that you’re vile.