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  Dec 2019 Jasmin Jackson
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“You’re not good enough”
Is the one sentence you should
Never tell yourself.
Hi. I’ve been struggling with this my whole life. It’s like I’ll never be able to convince myself. I feel like my poetry is at a decline. I feel as if nothing I write is good. I couldn’t tell you the amount of “drafts” &  private poems I have on here just because I’m afraid.
Afraid of ridicule.
Afraid of hating myself more.
Afraid of everything.
Jasmin Jackson Nov 2019
My **** means so ******* much to me but I **** at deliveries
I guess my talents aren't as big as they're supposed to be
I don't know how I'll make money when I'm 23
I doubt I'll even live to be 23
Jasmin Jackson Nov 2019
Beautiful, bold,brilliant, black.
Behind bars, bankrupt, bloodthirsty, black.

Only a few commit crimes,
Yet my whole race is attacked.
Death certificates always forget to add a fact
These boys, they're black,
And that's all there really is to that.

Seen as thugs and cops only see that,
Hoodies on, face down, oh no, it's a threat!
Who cares if he was just mourning the death
Of his grandfather, brother, cousin or lover,
Who cares about his story,
His dark complexion screams felony.
And because of that, a boy's dead at 17.
And they wonder why the graduation rates are dropping.

Framing the fallen angel as someone he didn't want to be,
On the tv screens for the majority to see,
For the majority to believe that this was meant to be.
But to me and my black community,
Black is beautiful, bold and brilliant.
These murderers on paid leave may tell you something different,
And I know that line is controversial but please hear me out and listen,
I'm a black teen in 2019 surprisingly still living,
And for those who unjustly died, I'll voice my opinion.
Jasmin Jackson Oct 2019
Sol
Somethings in those coffee brown eyes
It's the way you stare, nothing can compare
The way those hands roam my body like we were sculpted together
Those secret places were meant for you
And you only
I've never felt so selfish
If a girl came at you I swear I'd hurt a *****
And I'm scared because I know I actually mean it
Theres something **** in those eyes
Your ***** words leave me surprised
With you, I truly feel alive
I never thought I could get as high
Without taking something
I'm addicted to you
I'm obsessed with me and you
I dont know but something about you gives me euphoric clues
About spending forever with you
I normally dont think like this but **** baby
I really really like you
That sleepy **** deep voice
You look me in the eyes and call me baby
That **** cancels out all the noise
Because of you I forgot about the other boys
**** last year all I wanna do is be with you
Holding your hand
**** gives me sanity
The way you spot me in a crowd
I finally found him
I found the ******* boy I've wanted
And while you were in Glendale I was in the city by the sea
Waiting impatiently for our worlds to meet
Jasmin Jackson Oct 2019
My man had me paint his nails but because he's a *****
Yall look at him like his heart's frail
Is there a problem if it is?
He cries and is emotional
But that cant be appropriate
Because he's black he can't not live like this
But we don't really care
Jasmin Jackson Oct 2019
Your energy makes me go mad
I've never met someone so **** similar
The way you look at me like I'm gold
Your deep attractive calming voice
It gives me comfort and sanity
I feel like you could sing me to sleep
Or tell me sweet little nothings

You treat me like a princess
Something every father wants their daughter to feel like
The way you smile oh my god
I just want to say something stupid to hear that laugh
Again and again

It's something about you
You're the reason the sky is so blue
Most of my days now consist of me thinking about you
And trust me I'm not complaining
Every Frank Ocean song I hear now
I think of you and I
Hanging out at the park playing "self control"
Cuddling and hearing "moon river"

I feel like I'm thinking too far but I dont wanna backtrack
I really hope you're okay with that
I hope we can go together to hear Tyler rap
You're too cool and you don't even know it
I'm starting to like you if you haven't noticed
Jasmin Jackson Oct 2019
He never responds
He told me I'm pretty but he never responded
For a whole year I kept thinking what I did wrong
Why did I get ghosted
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