Why break a fight
about some lost chocolates
though i am sure
absolutely sure
that i gave them to you last

i looked up a term
gas lighting
Ever heard of it?

she sits behind the tv
watching in the living room
surrounded by her family
with empty eyes
the only things she says
are empty lies:
“I'm okay, I'm alright,
don't worry 'bout me”
she was in her own fight
and as a reality show plays
in her mind she thinks
of all the different ways
and with the morning light
she takes a chair and a rope
having chosen on one of them
to the tree in the garden
to make a final flight.

My worn pages are my scars
they show the places that I've been to
they show I've seen the stars

My painted quotes are the words I spoke
And although they often speak of you,
they were always perceived as a joke

Now my binding is falling apart
And I don't know what to do
When will it come?
This happy ending part

Care to explain
the reason for being angry
for swearing at me
tell me what I did

I might say sorry
If only I knew what I did wrong
you don't have to disrespect me
just use words I understand

******** too
for making me feel bad
for I don't know what

I don't need friends who use me
and downgrade me because of their own jealousy
******* too

Stop making me feel bad
for things like having higher grades

Stop being jealous
on someone you don't know

Stop expecting things
what will come will come

Stop comparing
I am not you and you are not me

They often ask
"Did you see _ last night?"
"Do you watch _?"
"No."
I don't have a ******* television.
There are enough
Actors acting
At work
On the street
At mom's house
At the grocery store
At parties
At the bar
I don't want to watch more when
I'm alone.
The dancing spider on the wall
The paralyzed lines of the book
The breathing notes of the music
The slow pour of cold beer
I sit here and stare
At nothing
Just like you