He was standing in front of me
His big smile turned to wee
Suddenly his face was dotted with tears
And I felt something queer

He gripped me so tight
That made me feel nothings right
He whispered unto my ear
"I am sorry for all the pain my dear."

Memories twirled back in my mind
The years I had spent with him was a mere nightmare
It was like living a happy life in a beast's lair
I was not the only girl he loved, we were three, I remember

I was like martyr hero killing myself for his sake
Our love was no piece of cake
It was only then when I knew-
Our love was a pure fake

His tears weren't enough for all the ache
Now that I am awake
You can no longer deceive me
**You can not delude again a fooled heart

I wear stupid glasses unlike her
Teardrops are my own makeup
Looking at you is my dose
I just wanna be with you so close

I wear oversize shirts incomparable to her
She wears tight jeans and lovely corsets
I walk through the dirtiest streets at night
She sways and enjoys her princess life at bright

I roll over my untidiest bed
She amazes everyone with her lips at red
I glaze the road with my unfixed hair
She roams the cities and turns it to a funfair

I could not do all of that
I could not even give you what you want
This feeling is only what I got
I said it through this poem 'coz I can't be blunt

I am afraid to tell you everything
You are my best friend and you are my everything
Why are you so numb of what I am feeling?
Is it because I am not what you are dreaming?

If only I could be that girl
But I can not.
Because I just wanted to be me
The girl who slowly kills herself
The girl who keeps on pretending
That she loves seeing you happy with that luckiest girl

Whenever I close my eyes
All I can see is your painful goodbyes
Every time I try to cover my ears
All I can hear is you walking away with your fears

You just left me hanging with your promises
I even gave you a thousand and one chances
Why can't you accept our differences?
And then, you left and I shattered into pieces

You easily forgotten what is "us"
And here I am, still waiting for that stardust
Which will make you come back
And refill the moments that we lack

We are now moving onto different places
Your feelings really evanescence
I should be happy for you now
Even though you left me with your broken vow

Time had lapsed so fast
I am still haunted by our awful past
Because even though you made me mew
My heart still craves for you

She has the loveliest smile
She has the warmest hug
She has this magic
Turning my tears into laughter.

I do admire of your strength
And also to your patience which is very in length
You always do what is meant
You are always there in my every achievement

Having me inside your womb
It is like finding yourself a tomb
Your bones starting to crack
You cannot even eat your favorite snack

Hands down to you my Queen Bee
I promise I will not make you dree
I shall give you thousand of posies
And shall make a gown with full of lilies

You are my mother, my sister
My best friend, And my teacher
Even if I give you troublesome
I will always love you my dearest mom!

Seeing him happy was my daily pill
That is the truth I cannot conceal
Holding his hands was my only remedy
It makes me tough and sturdy

His glance melts my soul within
His smile tickles my chin
I will never ask for more
Even if this love gives me a sore

Seeing him holding that girl's hand
I just wanna dig myself down to that sand
Bury myself with this kind of love
Loving a boy which I can never have.

I can wait forever.

Wishing I could avast
Everything that happens so fast
Dreaming of ourselves beneath thy clouds
Rolling and laughing between those strouds

I was holding his soft hands
We were lying on the meadowlands
Leaned on my broad shoulders
When he avowed that "I must be stronger".

Days had never been this lovely
All I can hear is our hearts' on melody
However the music went go wrong
His last smile was the last song

Lips became pale as rose
It can't even make a single prose
His eyes slowly close
This is not the future we chose

Wished that I could avast
Everything happened so fast
Wanted to take his last breath
But All I can give is this **wreath for his death

Tonight, my hand sways over a blank sheet
It matches the rhythm given by the time
Rumbles and croons over the lyrical past
Keeping the things that are worth to keep

Inch by inch, my life was changed by your intimacy
I was in loved with your fondness
I was moved by our endearment
I would like to keep the things we used to nurture

The warmness suddenly abated
Like the flower which suddenly died
Everything was adequately managed
However you realized that the time was in mess

I miss the curve at your face
I hanker after our lovely moments
I crave for the affection you once gave
Hoping that those things would come back

Tonight, I tear a part inside of me
To put these feelings into expressions
To tell you how this poem was made
And to tell you that:
"I write because of our love that once existed."

Today, A new journey begins
Holding my pen in my hand
It bleeds for new adventures and stories
It searches for the best ones

An awful past was left behind
We must remember how to forget
Forget a percent of those 365 moments
Each day was peculiar in its own way

Peculiar ways to hurt that soul within
But you must be a great warrior
You should have your heart sealed
Because fragile is its second name

Today, your fragile heart will be a diamond
Shining like the first star at night
Winking at those who stare
And loving those who dare

The day had come when lovers had to say goodbye
Bid a piece of smile and wave a little hand
She thought that their love was so real
Yet ended up being strangers to each

Weeks had passed and you are still there
In her little mind that is full of moments
Moments that you had shared together
Moment that you should have cherished together.

It's been a while since her heart was so alone
And now, she had learned something new
That no one could fix her broken soul
But only she could do it, if she only knew.

A newbie down here does not know where to go
Kept on doing crazy poems for daisies out there.
She knows that the line she made were true
True as the sun strikes her dry skin
Asks for a little guide from the older roses
Hey! Please help me and drag me from this grave.

Yesterday, you were just a part of the crowd
You were singing crazy songs out loud
Suddenly came and knocks in my life
Harmonies came over like a playing fife.

Now, you are still singing those crazy lines
Shouting out loud that you are still mine
Cherishes the moment that we continually writes
Loving you because you are the only light

Tomorrow*, you will still sing our craziest love
And shall say, "We survived the past, very tough!"
We will meet at the end of the aisle
And will walk together for a thousand mile.

Our love shall have no end
'Coz you were always there to mend-
Mend every piece of my heart
And keep as your missing treasure part.

Whenever I haunt for you
All I wanted is to be with you
Hold your little limbs
And sway next to my tough hips.

Keep me as your greatest lover
I will hold you till forever
Cradle me like your sweetest treasure
I will love you forever, That is sure.

You must not leave my lonely soul
Or else your dreams shall give you a brawl
I shall haul your fears to my heart
'Coz if you leave, I'll fall apart.