I know a lot of people on this site are against certain types of writing's so I'm just gonna warn you before you scroll, this is *****. Not trying to offend anyone, but these are the thoughts of an extremely ****** being (me). I'm a very complex individual and have many sides. I'm actually having to pursue another site, cause it's so plain here. Someone said to me in a message, "I'm tired of reading about love and nature" haha, me to. Let's get some diversity going people!

















I'm gonna enforce ******'s like it's the law
Lets get a lil raw
Marks you left on my back lookin' like I got scratched by a tiger paw,

We can go for a ride and I'll show you somethin' I been writing to this new beat
You get impressed and feel chills all the way down to ya feet
Shortly after that I can see me and you gettin' down on the bench seat

Of my '49 chevy truck
We anything but typical and that's just how we like to ****
Runnin' amuck in a world full of blind luck

My biggest turn on is the juices I get you to leak
I'm gonna get my burn on and turn up the heat
When I'm done you'll barely be able to speak
Your gonna need to recover baby, just go straight to
sleep

-J.A.M

Sometimes I think I think too much
Sometimes I think thinking that I think too much is just an excuse or a crutch for not wanting to think so much

But I can't help it I'm just thinking about what I feel what I see
I can't help It I'm just me

Yeah, there's usually a rhythm to the things I say
Never foolishly always gracefully they leave my mind that way
If my delivery has no impact and I can't get you to react
Than this might as well be just another game to play

Now that I'm all alone, I can feel winter's cold
It's almost like a ghost tryin' to slip in to my soul

Low and behold, I think the ghost made it in
Now I'm just lost in the ocean of my spirit doin' my best to swim
The past was dark and the future looked grim,
but I no longer look for the light at the end of the tunnel
Cause I know I hold the light within...

-J.A.M

Each time I write a rhyme
The redesigned lines
In my undefined mind start to shine
Even if I was blind I could still see the light's lime
I would say this is my time

But I don't own a watch
So I'll never know when the countdown stops
Just keep goin' forever, pretend I'm still runnin' from the cops
Strong in my stance, gonna bust like a balloon and pop
Now that I have the chance I'm just gonna dance and dance in this ballroom til' I drop

Praying someone can respect this sinner
I dip my finger in life's river and gradually test it
Playing the role of a winner
All while remaining casually majestic...

-J.A.M

In the hospital with broken collar bone 2 broken ribs and staples in my head, was gonna take a break from writing, but I couldn't help it, I knew I shouldn't have logged in! Any ways here's a short one for my present mind state.




I'm wearing these broken bones like an outfit as I soak up the rain

Can I outlast the pain without narcotics flooding my veins?

All it would take is letting the chemicals swim to my brains

To get me thinking I've found some sort of hidden treasure in this temporary and false pleasure

It has taken quite some time to cleanse my mind of the dirt and grime

Left over from bathing in the tarpits

So I think I'll just suffer and continue to use my words to hit my targets

-J.A.M

You will never know it
Cause I will never show it

I can never point my affection
In your direction
For my own, but mostly your protection

And it breaks my heart
As thoughts of you and I break apart

It was nice to think of
It was even better to dream of,
but now it just floats down a stream of,
your tears, your fears, the darkness under unlit chandeliers

So I will never show it
So you will never know it

How I truly feel...

I know beautiful places we could have gone
I would have written you the most beautiful songs,
but I'm no faker
I'm a heart breaker
and a mistake maker

I won't speak to extensively
I'll just leave it at this, your sensitivity
Could never handle my intensity

So I will never show how I truly feel
So you will never know how I truly feel
Cause your heart I could never break or steal

-J.A.M

I want you to say my name every time you ***

If it's what you want I won't stop until I see the sun

I know you only give it to those that deserve it

I can tell cause you make it extra hot when you serve it

Now your drippin' like a river runs, you scream my name again

I pull your hair and smack your *** just like you ask

Your bloods boiling and your heart starts to bake

I'm an unselfish lover so I don't stop til' I feel your thighs clench and shake

-J.A.M

Is this hard for you to see my dear, that I am alive and that I'm breathin' again
I'm in my spot at the top, spitting out my guts and sweating out my sin
But don't believe everything you read, it could just be ink spilled from my pen

I'm not here just to be chopped up thrown on a truck and made into a key chain for a bit of luck

Can't you see I'm the one you burn for, you walk down the aisle of a store to buy me and discover there is no more

My darkness shadows in my light and reflects it back out enabling me to see at night

She calls me tornado for a reason...

I'll walk into your life pick everything up, spin it around
Leave your heart on the ground and disappear into thin air nowhere to be found
I don't mean to be so profound when I speak,
But I can't break ground without my knees getting weak

-J.A.M

No no, this ain't one of those catchy love songs,
that get stuck in your head and play on the radio all day long
It's about life and meaning
all the way to the end from the beginning
and how the world keeps spinning,
when you fall down, whether your a happy or sad clown, nobody is gonna do it for you, you gotta get yourself off the ground


What makes it all okay, is that I wake up alive everyday
I like nice weather, but I won't ever complain, don't matter if it's sunshine or rain and what makes it even better is that when I fall apart I know I can put myself back together. Yeah I'll put me back together


I know sometimes you get angry, there will always be nights when you can't sleep
When it's bright you want it shady and things you've lost you wish you could keep
Just remember last September
when you were a number one contender for going on the worst ******
Don't forget the roads you've been down since,
keep kissin' toads girl, you'll find your prince


What makes it all okay,
is that you wake up alive everyday
So you don't complain about how sometimes you feel pain
and what makes it even better is that as long as you know you feel, you know you can heal. Yeah, you can heal


They both know that in a relationship there's a lot of give and less take
It's been twenty years
He still never lets his patience slip, without her he couldn't live, this love is anything but fake
She makes it clear she's always gonna be down to ride, she's there day after day
She's the one who will always stick by his side, even when they're old and gray
Everyday they let the other know they still feel the same way


What makes it all okay, is that they wake up side by side everyday
So they won't be bothered by the weather or ever complain,
don't matter if it's sunshine or rain
Either way to them it's bliss, they both feel life can't get any better than this
and every time they see a shooting star they know they've granted the others wish

Thank you W.B & D.B, your inspiration is priceless

-J.A.M

There are times we don't see things
even though they are as simple as they are,
even when they're right in front of us
we don't see, hear, or smell them right under our nose
let alone from a far.

Be patient and take your time if you need to,
it can be as hard as you make it or as easy as you want it
like an open book to read through.

So while your busy livin',
runnin' around cashin' checks at banks
don't forget to stop and say thanks
to all those that have givin'.

-J.A.M

Your like a sun that shines on all days
even through the shiver of night
I can't seem to escape your rays
or a sliver of light
My heart tells me it wants more
if the heart can't have what the heart wants
than what is a heart good for?
I've searched high and low
aisle after aisle, row after row
nothing compares to your smile, your light, your glow
No matter what month, year, or season
I have yet to find a clear reason
Why we are not face to face
this is life though, not a race
so I'll keep stopping until you keep pace
By now we should be chest to chest,
but we're not so I wont stop trying
until I'm laid to rest
They said birds of a certain feather flock together
take my hand lets fly, take the world by storm and change the weather
My love will fail never
my heart beats for you
always and forever...
-J.A.M

I watched the the print go from smooth lines to drips

Trying to focus, but I can't help watch the clock as it chimes and ticks

The floor was freshly waxed so I was bound to slip

How many more times could one fall in pits?

It was starting to feel like I was being rained on by bricks

Dug myself out of that ****

Ain't it clear I found my niche?

You still on the fence? What more I gotta do to convince?

I'm Gonna dice and mince

Words with some of the best

But from now on and ever since

Just cause I left the nest

They wanna slice me open cause I'm not like the rest

Just to make sure a heart beats inside my chest

-J.A.M

****, one thing I hate doing is apologizing,
but it's my own fault for not recognizing

that I have a sharp tongue,
the things I say can be offensive or even hurt someone

It's different if the person deserves it, I'll chop em' into pieces
with a simple sentence or one of my speech's

if you didn't my bad, I'll always be a work in progress, but
that doesn't mean I have to be a **** or a **** in the process

-J.A.M

The air I breathe leaves me gently
and the writing down my sleeve is elementary
So school is in, school is out
you will learn a lesson without a doubt
Be who you are and be proud
sing out loud
send words into the air to rest upon a cloud
Summer is hot, night is long
before the day is gone I'll be right or wrong
Take my love as a token of my devotion
it stays consistent like waves in the ocean
Spare my heart and let it remain
so when I depart you'll remember my name.

-J.A.M

Let me ask you this... Are you aware

Hell exists, and it's actually cold there

My entire life I been shovelin' ****
and peekin' out the window
But if all I did was lean and sit
It would be impossible to win, so...

I'm always thinkin' of somethin' clever to say
Often my bones feel like they will crumble like chalk, but I will never decay

She told me her daughters meant the most to her
As she continues to use they just become ghosts to her

So much ambition
Sad she can't make a decision
Live or die?
Can you make a river cry?
Hell no, lets be honest between you and I

I got your back
But I gotta keep my strength to myself, I can't make up for what you lack

So as I sit here with the weight of the world on my back
I can't help but think of you and how your world turned from bright to black... - J.A.M

Was in my old neighborhood yesterday went out with a friend and ran into someone... Emily Marie

Emily Marie and her one CC
Knows I'm not the same me, but wont let me be

She says she knows I'll never forget her
Possibly, but I **** sure wish I never met her

Used to be livin' it up, a life sweeter than honey
Now bruised and probably givin' it up for money

I watch young girls I know fall and fall again
All I can do is offer my advice and be a friend
I don't mean to be cold as ice or offend

Show people your not singing the same song
Stop acting like a girl if you wants to be treated like a lady
You know right from wrong, a pearl is ruff before it is smooth and ready

For some reason after saying something like this to ladies it's like they come on stronger
Darlin' you need to go take care of your babies
you shouldn't be in this bar any longer

EM -"we had something Joe!"
J.A.M- "Had..."

You need to leave me alone Emily Marie
Get back home, focus on your family tree...

- J.A.M

If the title got your attention enough to click and take the time to read it, at least leave your feedback....

I guess I can only speak for myself though, but any poem I read, I at least give my opinion. Isn't that what we are all seeking on here? If not, why not just leave it in your notebook???

I'm playin' with fire, know I'm gonna get burned
I'm playin' with fire, know I'm gonna get hurt
I was playin' with fire so I got burnt

How come she don't want me like the other girls do?
They look at me while I stare at you

The scars on my back look like a thousand heart attacks
Thats because they are, each time you stuck the knife in
My heart turned a little more black

Now all I got is this ice box where my soul used to be
It's locked up and I hope I never find the key
I'd like the cold of the pain to remain a part of me

-J.A.M

Sometimes things seem to good to be true, but it doesn't mean they usually are...

I've gone from having everything to nothing, until 100% turned to 0. I've had an addiction so bad I sold everything until I had nothing , but a DVD starring Robert DeNiro.

I've burnt bridges with almost everyone I know
looking back my path of ash looks like grey and white snow.

Watched people cry, watched people die, If I told you I think they got what they deserved it would be a lie.

I've put needles in my arm trying to erase pain
All it did was **** my pride and usher in shame.

At one point in time when running from the law cause I had commited so much crime, I found myself at a Denny's buying coffee, with nowhere to go, sipping til' the sun came up cause I didn't have another dime.

Never left the cities, but I was off the map for years
my mother tried writing letters, I could barely make out the writing cause the ink was so smeared from her tears

If I was a turtle my shell would have a huge crack
If you met me today, you might say wisdom is something I don't lack
It's only causeI've been to hell and now I'm back

Today my feet are on the ground and things are great
It took being beat, sent to the human pound and almost prison up state

Ten years is the statue of limitations in CA, so for now I'm gonna count my blessin's , close my mouth and keep some confessions. You can look at hard times like bad luck or just take them as one of life's lessons.

Sometimes things seem so bad it makes you wanna quit, but you gotta keep trying and if you really want something, take another stab
reach out and grab it!


If you know the outcome and the consequence of a decision, then it's nobody's fault but yours if you suffer a penalty...

-J.A.M

Ladies and Gentleman, I give you Brandon the boy in the bubble and Doctor Wise...

The boy in the bubble
Never wanted any trouble

People said "your too fragile you'll get cancer"
So he would just make believe, pretend he was a cool agile panther
People said "your body will crumble like wood flooring rots"
So he would pretend, staying humble that he could fly over the jungle with soaring hawks

Aisles of adventures were all he sought
" I'll be in this bubble til I'm wearin' dentures", so he thought...

His doctor would come every other day
Just to make sure everything was okay
He went by Dr. "W" first initial J

One random paralyzed tuesday
Brandon sat in his sterilized room lettin' blues play
The doctor came to repeat the check up
Brandon was the same from shoulders to feet and neat from the neck up
The doctor asked "Son why are you in this bubble?"
Brandon said "The people told me the air could **** me and the sun would be worst trouble"
The doctor told Brandon "the world is a mysterious place in our galaxy, but you'll never know for yourself until you go face the challenge B"

The doctor lifted the window wide open and let in the breeze
As the fresh air hit his face, Brandon didn't so much as sneeze

Brandon - "Wow doc you must save thousands of lives"

Dr. W - "Not really, I just tell people this; Everybody lives, everybody smiles, everybody cries, everybody dies and

EEEEVVVVERYBODY LIES...

-J.A.M

That day I had to kick in your door cause you wouldn't answer
To get you back I would infect my self with cancer
That day still taunts me, it will forever haunt me

The needle still in your arm, face pale, lips blue
Would bleed to keep the other out of harm
best friends since we were 2
Unfortunately the end came too soon for you

The incision will always be in my heart
I know it wasn't your decision to part

You loved your life way too much
To give it up for a high or simple rush

Sadly you were taken and lost your life
Guess that's the risk of getting into bed with a knife
Sooner or later your gonna get sliced

I hope I get to see you when it's my time to ascend
I love you, I miss you, you'll forever be one of my best friends

R.I.P   J.D.H                  - J.A.M

Don't you know I can see right through you my dear
If you were a window you couldn't be more clear
Your afraid to love again and trust me, I understand your fear

All I seek is your friendship at this point in time
There are things you need to figure out in your life
and there are things I need to figure out in mine

I would never try to start something over night
just want you to think of me when the time is right,
but right now my future is the only thing locked in my sight

Things that make so much sense only happen once in a lifetime
Life moves fast, but I won't leave you behind
So please don't waste to much time with the battles in your mind


I'm not about lust, this world is filled with beautiful women, attraction is a given, I'm about love and trust

Even though I might be sensual and extremely ******,
I'm what you call an intellectual

The key to my heart is through my mind, you gotta have brains
so show me your the kind and not just another lame

For now I'll give you my friendship and loyalty
Keep your head on straight and maybe one day I'll give you my love and show you whats it's like to be treated like royalty

The word "unique" didn't exist until you were born and showed the dictionary it forgot the "e"
You could possibly be, INSIDE and OUT the most beautiful thing in this world to me...

-J.A.M

You could learn a lot from me,
matter of fact you could learn a lot from everybody

That's why I don't take peoples advice or opinions for granted,
I just chop em' up like onions and throw em' in my salad.

I use my own recipe to make the best of me

So with that said, I'll forever remain a student,
even though I'm sometimes truant,

Even though I'm sometimes tardy ***' I stayed up too late after last nights party,
but I maintain an average A,
all night and all through the day.
Take it as advice. Inspect it, dissect it,
or come up with your own recipe and perfect it ...

-J.A.M