I'm standing on the edge
My toes hanging off the side
The wind blows sweetly
Rustling my hair
And relaxing me
Causing me to lean towards the void
All around me
I hear his voice whispering
"You're beautiful" and
"I'll always be there for you"
I close my eyes
And I can feel his hand in mine
And his arms wrapped around me
Then my head is filled with memories
Of his lips
Pressed against mine
In the softest manner
And then
I'm
Falling
I've fallen in love with him
And it's the most exuberant feeling
The air rushes around me
And makes me lightheaded
It's like I'm flying
And nothing can stop me
All I hear is his voice
Telling me I'm the only one for him
Then...
He
Leaves
I hit the ground
Which seems to materialize underneath me
And for months I lay there
Broken
Hurt
And crying
People try to help me up
But I don't let them
All I can think of
Is him
How could he make me fall for him
When he had no intention
Of catching me

Then you come along
You mend my brokenness
And help me to my feet
And before I know it
I'm on top of the building again
And yet again
The wind blows
Trying to push me off the edge
But this time
I brace myself
I don't want to fall
And get hurt
A second time
I try to back away from the edge
But something stops me
I hear your voice
Calling to me from below
"I will never break your heart
I swear"
Slowly
I move towards the side of the building
I picture the times we've talked for hours
The times you've held me when I cried
The times you stuck by my side
When no one else would
"I'll never hurt you like he did"
You whisper this in my ear
As I drift off to sleep one night
I never remembered until now
And Then
I Fall..

They say that home is where the heart is.
But what if my heart doesn't feel at home anywhere?

How am I to feel?
When all I feel is empty.
I felt half full once..
But now all I feel is empty.

I want to scream out..
"CAN YOU HEAR ME?"
But what I hear in return is my own echo.
beyond the emptiness.

People get their hearts broke
Their hopes shattered..
Their regrets eat them alive.
To live to be empty.

I was born,raised, half grown.
They tell me that I still have a long road ahead.
I will forever live in my own empty

It's the emptiness that eats you.
To live to be empty.
Do you feel the empty?

The memory of us are so bittersweet.
I thought I could do it but it was time to say goodbye
There wasn’t anything left between us.
I held on to the memories..
I knew wouldn’t work out .

It was ****** from the beginning .
I love you but I hate you..
This the ending of us
The ending of our times together.

I am going to miss those moments of laughter we shared
You have made me cry to much
I have hurt you and you did the same

There was a fire burning thing between us.
We both held on to the edge of the cliff
It will be the ending of my misery
It was meant to be it will be..

I fell in love with you cause you held me so close
You were my security blanket that kept me insane.
There was loving and caring in those memories..

I cheated..you did too.
But two wrongs don’t make a right.
But yet some how you manage to put the blame on me.

So here is to the bittersweet memories of us

Welcome to my life.
It's a series of  roller coasters
It has its twists and turns
Its ups and downs
Going at a high rate of speed or slowing down to a rate to feel something.
But don't
so it starts again you screaming at the top of your lungs to catch a thrill
So this is why I am welcomed to the land of misfit toys.

Keep on Dreaming even if it breaks YOUR HEART! </3

The tears I shed are no longer meant for you.
For you I have a gift now called Dread.
You ****** me over once .
You did it again...
Now I crash and fall
My Memories of you linger..
Just to be placed with my
Doubts and Your Broken Promises.
You ****** me to many times to tell.
I thought I knew you so well.
So here is where we'll to hell
SEE YOU THERE!
You will dread me..
Cause you finally me the dead me..
Remember when we exchanged those vows?
"Until Death Do Us Part?"
I will see you in this world.
And the world under...

No one sits with him,he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong,do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not like you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And any kindness from you might have saved his life
Heroes are made when you make a choice

You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right....

No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she's brave
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way
Each moment of courage her own life she saves
When she throws the pills out a hero is made
Heroes are made when you make a choice

You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right....

No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
His brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes change a nine-year-old's life
You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right...

Little mikey d was the one in class
Who every day got totally harassed
This went on for years until he decided
That ever again would he shed another tear
So he walked out the door
Grabbed a 4.4 out of his father's dresser drawer
And said I can't take life no more
And like that a life is lost
But this ain't even about that
All of us just sat back
And watched it happen
Thinking it's not my responsibility
To solve a problem that isn't about me
This is our problem
This is just one of the daily scenarios
In which we chose to cause a riot
Instead of doing the right thing
If we make a choice
Be the voice
To those who won't speak up for themselves
How many lives would be saved
Changed, rearranged
Now it's our job
To take a shot
Now don't keep walking by
Now why didn't you try
Cause you don't want to exist
And never be seen
So let's wake up
Change the world..Our time is now!!!!

You could be a hero - (our time is now) heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - (our time is now) you might save a life
You could be a hero - (our time is now) you could join the fight
For what's right, for what's right, for what's right

Bottled up inside
Are the words I never said,
The Feelings that I hide,
The lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes,
Read it on my face:
Trapped inside are lies
Of the past that I can’t replace

With memories that linger
Won’t seem to go away
Why can’t I be happier?
Today’s a brand new day

Yesterdays are over,
Even though the hurting’s not
Nothing lasts forever,
We must cherish what we got

Don’t take love for granted.
For soon it will be gone
All we ever wanted
Of the love you thought you’d won

The hurt I’m feeling now
Won’t disappear overnight.
But someway, somehow,
Everything will turn out all right
No more wishing for the past .
It wasn’t meant to be
It didn’t seem to last ,
So I had to set him free

Wasted
Here I am going in
It’s been Nine months on my sobriety
I made a promise to you that I wouldn’t do it
Baby I can’t stand it.
I want to drink.
You told me you loved me.
But you let your Dad in the way.
Just cause he is a deacon in a church.
Doesn’t’ mean he makes your decisions for you.
Do you truly care?
I go to church I am a Baptist just like you and him.
Is cause I grew up in a different environment then you?
But I am the good one. You are the bad.
You and I get as close as we can until they pull us apart.
But you told my best friend that you loved me along with
Another girl.
You hurt me Again how many times am I going to allow you to do that?
Cause I love you …
I want to be wasted
I want to forget you ever existed in my life
Wasted as the burn of whiskey touches my throat
The second shot is to show you how much I love you
But you will never know because I won’t tell you
SO cheers to us
Because you are the best thing I never had
I will be wasted on a love that will never be
Goodbye my love

Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Under haunted skies I see you (ooh)
Where love is lost your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down, whoa

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning, oh

Everything is perfect,
and nothing makes sense.
One half-silly smile,
a split second knowing glance
and you’ve lifted me from the ground,
freed me from the laws of man and earth.

And just because of that,
I’m afraid to love you.

It’s not your fault.
Don’t blame yourself.
It’s me.
I’m afraid for you, and I’m afraid for me,
but I still feel my pulse racing
the instant you appear,
a tingling that starts in my fingertips,
then shoots up my body,.. a pulsating lightning bolt
that splashes into my mind
and explodes into.. hot.. blinding white light.
A buzzing, stomping insistence that I recognize
the affect you have on me.
I’m left short of breath, eyes wide, dizzy
and suddenly, longing for your gentle touch.

Chaos inside
I am everywhere
and nowhere.
I am limitless yet tethered
I am willingly losing control
but the fear balances on my edge…
I cannot lose control, again,
and the confusion makes me afraid.
Afraid to love you.

I know
if I let myself
I would be with you forever
which is much longer than a lifetime.
I would take all my choices, my dreams, my fear
and set them at your feet
my.. gifts of sacrifice for the only one
for who I would give my life

I would confess to you my joy
and hide in you my pain
for I know that you would view
each with a critical but loving eye,
You understand that I’m not the perfect man
that I pretend to be
you’re ok that sometimes
I’m not even up
to being me.
You accept me as I am.
You’re the only one.
It feels so right,
which is exactly why
I’m afraid to love you.

Still, I see it in you.
I’m not that blind.
I can see what I’m afraid to see.
You’re eyes shine when I talk to you
of simple things.
You’re breath catches in your throat
when you’ve made me smile
I make you laugh… You make me laugh.
At little things and when we’re angry.
When I am near you
I feel as though I should sing.
I wish for nothing
except our songs entwined.
I feel you tremble at my lightest touch.
You are a dove
unfearful of my captive embrace.
I belong to you,
and you to me.

Oh God, help me
because that’s exactly why
I’m afraid to love you…

… but I do…

Though it's only been a short while I've never had a friend like you
But soon you will be leaving me
And I don't know what to do
Your love and understanding
Have brought me a new hope
I wish that I could keep you here
Tied to me with a rope
Why do you choose to leave me?
I ask with confusion and pain
Don't let me go back to feeling alone
When will I see you again?
The miles soon stretched between us
What will happen to this bond?
Will we reunite to find
That this special tie is gone?
So many questions I have
My heart filled with fear
Dreading you will leave me
And never shed a tear
Unlike this desperate aching
In my heart that won't let go
Which leads me now to tell you
Something you must know
The friendship you have given me
The joy you bring my soul
Has filled me with such strength
And love once unforetold
How can it be so short?
This time we've spent together
I thought you would remain here
And love me 'til forever
Sadly, wishful thinking
As I now have come to see
But remember please this thought
When you think of me
We may soon be separated
But I'll remember, just the same
Forever in my heart
Is where you will remain
I wish that when you leave
We'd remain the best of friends
You'll be in my thoughts
'Till I see you again
How can I say goodbye?
No words, but just tears fall
From my eyes and sobbing heart
That knows you after all
The hours spent together
Will soon dwindle down to few
Forcing me to let go
And start this year anew
Without you here to talk to
Searching for a friendly face
That knows all too well
They can never be replaced

'Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind
From the day we met 'til you were making me cry
And it's just too bad you already had the best days
The best days of your life

Ain't it a shame
A shame that every time you hear my name
Brought up in a casual conversation
You can't think straight?

And ain't it sad
You can't forget about what we had?
Take a look at her and do you like what you see
Or do you wish it was me?

I'll be there in the back of your mind
From the day we met to the very last night
And it's just too bad you already had the best days
The best days of your life

And does she know
Know about the times you used to hold me
Wrapped me in your arms and how you told me
I'd be the only one?

I heard about
Yeah, someone told me once when you were out
She went a little crazy, ran her mouth about me
Ain't jealousy funny?
Life with me was a fairytale love
I was head over heals 'til you threw away us
And it's just too bad you already had the best days
The best days of your life

I heard you're gonna get married, have a nice little family
Live out my dreams with someone new
But I've been told that a cheater is always a cheater
So I've got my pride and she's got you

'Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind
From the day we met 'til you were making me cry
And it's just too bad you already had the best days
The best days of your life

Of your life, oh, oh yeah
You're gonna think of me
You're gonna think of me in your life

IT'S A SHAME :)

Whenever I am about to fall,
I think of you.
You're the first person i think about,
when I'm happy, when a tear is about to roll out of my eyes.

Mentally I'm destroying myself,
I know you'll never be here.
But unconsciously you are the first person that comes to mind.

God knows I long for you to be with me,
to just stand beside me like you use to.
to hug me,to hold me,to kiss me.

I know deep within your heart you love me,
just as much as i love you.
i know its taking all that you have to pull away from me.
i know it pains you to see me hurt.

But isn't it ironic? You and I are the very cause of my
sleepless nights, depressing days and heart breaking cries.
I can't forget you or your amazing smile no matter how hard I try.
I love you dearly with every beat of my heart.
And just no where ever you are in the world,
I will always stand with you.

Sadly no matter how much we love each other,
reality taught us the most valuable lesson,
sometimes it just never meant to be.

How can I say I'm sorry
When I know that you don't care?
Now that I have done you wrong
How can I say these feelings that I share?

I cannot say I love you
Or that I really truly care,
'Cause my words would mean as much to you
As a layer of thin air.

How can I say good-bye
Must I face my worst fear?
Must I lose all of these feelings
That I hold so near?

How can I let go
Of a love that was so true?
How can I forget these feelings
That I still hold for you?

Why can't I say good-bye?
Even when I was wrong
To think that these feelings
Could last forever long?

But I guess it's really over.
I'm left alone and so sad,
Yet I still think of us
And all the times we had.

Maybe in the future
We can sort this all through,
But until then, my dearest love
I'll say one last "I love you."

From start to finish I wonder why
The cuts look good in this messed up lie
The blood that trickles down my arm
People all stare at the girl who self-harms:-

"The emo" they call me
I turn to my name
They act out slicing their wrists
I hang my head in shame
I can't help my feelings
Of being alone
I hide myself for the day
Just longing to go home
I sprawl on my bed
With my razor in hand
And take myself away
To a much better land
I stare in the mirror
And let myself cry
Looking forward to the day
That I finally die

Stains on the mirror.

Scars on the arm fade over time,

Scars on the heart last forever.

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When I started out writing this, I was carefree, innocent, happy.. Now, as I sit inside this dull-lit room

on the cold stone ground, I think about how my life used to be, and how much I long for things to go back

to the way they once were...

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As I looked up and glanced over towards the dresser drawer that lay open beside me, I felt a longing to it, a pull that

just wouldn't let go. After what felt like ages, I got up and looked inside...

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It was a simple razor.

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Memories came flooding back into me, it was like a tidal wave crashing down on me with full force. Memories that had been repressed for far too long. Memories of anguish, hatred, pain, and even fear.

My hand began to unsteadily reach out towards the dresser drawer. I took a deep breath and wiped the sweat from my eyebrows.

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I knew that I didn't want to head down this road. But I had no choice.

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I had already come too far to stop now.

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~His final act upon this earth was a single sentence. One final cry. It was written in his own blood and then smeared all

over the mirror.~

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'It drove me crazy, knowing that we would never be together...'

BEHIND HER HAZEL EYES                    
Somebody once told me that you could fit your life in a shoebox and I laughed at the thought of it.  
I was the youngest of six kids and I was favored by all of my siblings beside Natalie but she is a different story.
I grew up in a abusive home I would come home to see my dad beating my Mom until she couldn’t breath or get up.
I always watched it happen wishing that I did something about it but I was about ten and what could I do. There was a time my mom came home really late. I was asleep on the couch and Natalie was on the other one.
I heard my dad get up and come down stairs; I heard the front door open and close.
Then I heard my sister Melissa yelling at my Dad to leave our mom alone but He wouldn’t. My two sisters Melissa and Felicity were with my mom when she hit the deer and that is what my dad was so mad about. I got up ran to the door and I saw him and my mom. He had my mom up against the car, choking her out. I grabbed a stick and hit him on the back hard enough to make him let go of my mom.
He and I battled for whom had control of the stick he grabbed it out of my hands and pushed me on the ground and it knocked the wind out of me. It hurt but I got used to it over the years. I got up and I saw him looking from my mom to me. He wacked me across the face hard, I tasted blood and spit it out. I looked at him and said “ you are nothing but a coward, taking your anger out on your own children. You’re pathetic and dumb. Do you not see none of us want you here, Get lost I don’t want to see your face anymore”.
He had a hurt look on his face and looked at my mom. She was cowering in a corner.
She just said “You heard her Will just don’t come back”!
From that moment on I turned from an innocent little girl to a young woman who took care of her family and became the protector.  I have been in many struggles on my life path. I had to grown up and learn to face the life that shouldn’t have been put on anyone. I protected my best friend from being rapped. I told her to run and don’t look back and she did what I said. I remember the hands around my throat and getting slammed against the walls and the blood spewing from my nose. I fought hard knowing my life was at stake. I got quite a few punches and what not at the man. He let me go after a while and I ran I found Caddie at the park, waiting for me and she was bawling her eyes out when she look and saw me. She said, “Oh My God I thought you weren’t coming back, Jaylyn and you look like hell got a hold of you”.
I hugged her and started crying she knew she couldn’t ever repay me for what happened but she took me to the bathroom and cleaned up the blood that was smeared on my face. I knew she was thankful for me.
Caddie said to me “Jaylyn, you are a fighter”
When I heard this I thought it was funny at first but as I grew older. The message became clearer. On March 13, 2008 my sisters and I went in to foster care. I was scared and I was close to my mom. I lost her then. But Natalie and I were went to our 1st foster care home together and we were there for six months but the thing was they didn’t like me but they liked Natalie. I was scared and lonely. I wanted to leave cause they treated me like I was nothing and Natalie wanted to go with me and then she had wanted to stay with our first foster parents but to then she didn’t so we left and went in to another foster home and we were there for three years and I hated them and they treated me liked dirt and they did the same with Natalie but Natalie left before I did. They treated me more like crap and I hated them even more to the point to where I started cutting, drinking, and smoking. Anything that would harm my body.  It worked for a while but then it got worst and the drinking got a lot worse. I knew I had lost my way but I finally told my old school counselor. She and my friends became the only one I could trust. Ms. Lopez helped me get out of Bert and Anne’s House. I met this crazy black girl named Tanah and her foster mom.
She was excited to have me come there. I decided her and foster Mom would do.
From the First day I moved in Tanah and I were inseparable and still are a points she and take breaks but you can’t see one of us with out the other. Tanah helped me grow in a lot of ways it’s been six months since we have known each other but it feels like years.
But that is some of my story I don’t want to keep you reading forever
For all my life I knew I was a Fighter and always will be.
I guess you can fit your life in a shoebox if you want to try I say go for it there isn’t anyone trying to stop you from trying.

How long can I keep smiling,
Before somebody sees the cracks
And how long can I keep hoping,
Until my life slips off the tracks?
They say that I’ll be fine,
That I will get through this.
That I need to focus,
On all that I would miss.
If I so chose to take away my pain,
To forever escape this world,
Leave those who love me behind,
And the mystery of my sorrows unfurled.
But when nothing right,
Ever seems to come my way,
It makes wanting to stay here,
Harder every single day.
Confused by the thoughts in my head,
I am not sure what I should do.
Misery has taken over,
No one can help, not even you.
You say you are here for me,
And yet you’re never there.
Why should I breathe any more,
When you don’t really care?
You’ll argue and say you do,
But I know how you really feel.
You regret ever knowing me,
And believe my pain is unreal.
No one knows the real me,
Not even I really know,
Who I truly am,
I’ve sunk too far below.
This self inflicted misery,
Has taken its final toll.
It’s left me bruised and broken,
Trapped without a soul

Made a wrong turn, Once or twice
Dug my way out, Blood and fire
Bad decisions,That's alright Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood Miss "no way, it's all good",
It didn't slow me down Mistaken,
Always second guessing Under estimated,
Look, I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel Like your nothing You're perfect to me.
You're so mean,
When you talk, About yourself,
You are wrong. Change the voices,
In your head Make them like you Instead.
So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred Such a tired game.
It's enough,
I've done all I can think of Chased down all my demons,
I've seen you do the same! :)

Will i ever stop wondering about you
you walked in to my life and turned it upside down
with those Big brown eyes of yours
That smile that can warm my heart up over a thousand watts
But the thing is you notice me but don't say words.
you watch me past you and you just check me out
I catch your eyes on me and others
I just can't stop wondering about you
I like you and another
he treats me Like i am there
he makes sure im okay
he puts his strong hands on me when i doubt myself
I can't help but say im in love with him but i dont't know if he likes me
I used to know but some lady had to come and ruin it for the two of us
I wish i could ask you like i did that once
cause you caught my heart and i don't want to lose you

Tell Me Why

you always had the spotlight

second choice got me

I got tired of being your shadow

You hated that I was moving out from underneath you

I will never be as pretty as you

I will be something better than what you pretend to be

I will have my own spotlight that shines on me

not you

He will love me for me

not for something that was fake

but why did you always take them from me when they start to show interest?

I will try to believe someone will when they tell i am beautiful

Its hard to cause everytime I tried you were there to knock me down

with your words cut me like knives

your looks made me bleed

You got worst

As I became my own person

I can tell you I hate you

but i can’t tell you i dont love

cause then I would be lying

But I AM better I shined my spotlight

A Brave and Startling Truth

We, this people, on a small and lonely planet
Traveling through casual space
Past aloof stars, across the way of indifferent suns
To a destination where all signs tell us
It is possible and imperative that we learn
A brave and startling truth

And when we come to it
To the day of peacemaking
When we release our fingers
From fists of hostility
And allow the pure air to cool our palms

When we come to it
When the curtain falls on the minstrel show of hate
And faces sooted with scorn are scrubbed clean
When battlefields and coliseum
No longer rake our unique and particular sons and daughters
Up with the bruised and ****** grass
To lie in identical plots in foreign soil

When the rapacious storming of the churches
The screaming racket in the temples have ceased
When the pennants are waving gaily
When the banners of the world tremble
Stoutly in the good, clean breeze

When we come to it
When we let the rifles fall from our shoulders
And children dress their dolls in flags of truce
When land mines of death have been removed
And the aged can walk into evenings of peace
When religious ritual is not perfumed
By the incense of burning flesh
And childhood dreams are not kicked awake
By nightmares of abuse

When we come to it
Then we will confess that not the Pyramids
With their stones set in mysterious perfection
Nor the Gardens of Babylon
Hanging as eternal beauty
In our collective memory
Not the Grand Canyon
Kindled into delicious color
By Western sunsets

Nor the Danube, flowing its blue soul into Europe
Not the sacred peak of Mount Fuji
Stretching to the Rising Sun
Neither Father Amazon nor Mother Mississippi who, without favor,
Nurture all creatures in the depths and on the shores
These are not the only wonders of the world

When we come to it
We, this people, on this minuscule and kithless globe
Who reach daily for the bomb, the blade and the dagger
Yet who petition in the dark for tokens of peace
We, this people on this mote of matter
In whose mouths abide cankerous words
Which challenge our very existence
Yet out of those same mouths
Come songs of such exquisite sweetness
That the heart falters in its labor
And the body is quieted into awe

We, this people, on this small and drifting planet
Whose hands can strike with such abandon
That in a twinkling, life is sapped from the living
Yet those same hands can touch with such healing, irresistible tenderness
That the haughty neck is happy to bow
And the proud back is glad to bend
Out of such chaos, of such contradiction
We learn that we are neither devils nor divines

When we come to it
We, this people, on this wayward, floating body
Created on this earth, of this earth
Have the power to fashion for this earth
A climate where every man and every woman
Can live freely without sanctimonious piety
Without crippling fear

When we come to it
We must confess that we are the possible
We are the miraculous, the true wonder of this world
That is when, and only when
We come to it.
Maya Angelou

The non-believer
has no faith
doesn't even wish for a hope
second chances they don't believe in
dreams come true in fairy tales
The faith they need
they have it while in need
When hard times come by
The non believer became a believer
praying for a hope
Holding on to a rope
Million chances they believe in
What about the believer?
The believer
Big faith they have
There is a hope they keep saying
second chances will have
dreams 'can' come true
Praying they can't stop
even while not in need
Hard times come by
Faith they lose
Hope can't even hold on to a rope
Grief covers them
Where is the faith,
The faith of a believer
could it be taken by the non believer? !

Imma closed book you aren’t going to get anything out of me
Unless I want to share with you and Yeah I share some stuff with you
But that doesn’t make you special.
You think you are clever but in honesty …try again
You walked in to her life and acted liked you cared for her
But truth is she was just some chick you place beside you to take some other girls place
Look She wont fall for you or your crap
You thought you were smart and you played behind her back
But listen she got people
All she wants is revenge but she wont or maybe she will
Maybe even with your best friend
Don’t play a girl especially girls like me
You should have known what she would do
She came past you and it was like a smack to your face
You sort of kind of cared for her but just wouldn’t show her it again
She cared for you but what she heard broke her in to a thousand tiny little pieces
And then you turned and acted like a **** to her
She just really wanted you to understand her pain and struggles
And that secret she couldn’t tell you cause while it was happening the only thing that was on her mind was you and she stopped the guy cause of you.
You really did have a special place with her
But now is all over
She is done with you
And She likes someone else
Maybe even your best friend ☺

SO she did come and go
And punched your lights out
She said her final good-bye to you