i’ve started
writing again

perhaps i’ve started
feeling again,
too

i dreamt i was with her
the same way you
being with her
has haunted me
all these years

i dreamt i was with her

i dreamt i was with her
haunting you

if stars can fall
out of the sky

then maybe,
maybe so can i

maybe it’ll just
take more time

if you knew how to love

i like to think
you’d have loved me

i didn’t understand
the grass that grew beneath my feet
so i dug

i didn’t understand
the roots that grew below the grass
so i dug

i didn’t understand
how soil could lead to rock
so i dug

i didn’t understand
how rock could lead to magma
so i dug

i didn’t understand
how magma could lead to rock
so i dug

and i kept digging

through the core
through the magma and the rock
through the soil and the roots
through the grass

i kept digging to get through
to you

i didn’t understand
how someone could live
so differently from me
on the other side of the earth

so i dug

i’ve been alone
without feeling lonely,
i’ve felt lonely
without being alone,
and perhaps if i
could have felt you instead

i could have avoided both

he may love me
for as long as i live

but i will always love you
the longest