amanda

amanda Jan 2021

i would rather
not be thought of
than to be after-thought of

ending all my
sentences with
prepositions
and i don't have
the energy to care

amanda Jan 2021

eat me out

i want you
to wear my legs
like a necklace

amanda Jan 2021

odd

i put you first

you put me third

or is it fifth?

i don’t know,
i just know
it’s odd

amanda Dec 2020

hurricane

they called me a hurricane
like i was a disaster

you saw my rain
and called me a force

you don’t make me feel
like a hot mess

you make me feel
like a force of nature

amanda Dec 2020

onus

i stopped asking
why you hurt me
and started asking
why i let you

amanda Dec 2020

if there was a word
other than
goodbye
that meant
choosing myself instead of you

i would have used it

i hate that this
is what i need

amanda Dec 2020

until you

i’ve always known
how to be
a fantasy

i didn’t know how
to have one

lili

you taught me
how to crave the taste
of someone

and to be honest,
i still do