My soul passed away and left today                       c.8.4.14 J.Ray
Since now I’m dead to you anyway
There was no casket, or no eulogy read
My body  still here, my soul gone ahead
My lips sewn together by the web you spun
Alone in the dark with no hint of the the sun
Blinded by the light I can no longer see
Was there ever just a you or just a me?
Dressed in black just so I can try to blend in
Merely a camouflage of the darkness within
I feel the sting of Deaths touch in my final breaths fade
My soul was sold for you though the debt is yet unpaid
My heart turns black as our true love fades
I fall into a hole, black as the Ace of Spades
Spirits pulling my soul in every direction
Ultimately landing in one final location
I find my solace in the nothingness of the everything
Upon my pain I built my kingdom; I crown myself King
In this, my Court of Madness I alone preside
Here at the Roundtable of Insanity I reside
I summon my servants whom I know how to feed
For they know how to fatten a King when in need
Through my hearts chamber door they all survive
In walks Anger and Hatred; they made it in alive

Closely follows Fear, Remorse, Regret, Envy, Hunger, and Thirst
They seat themselves at my table first one last and last one first
All in black robes, I can’t see their faces, but in my heart they dwell
They all are with me now, with eyes as bright as the furnace of Hell
Clouds of Rage and the flames of searing crimson
Surround my fallen body and blur my dark vision
I dip my quill into the Ink of Despair and Pain
Surely I have lost my mind and gone insane
I write for you this tale of Rhythm of Rhyme
It seems I played the Jester as I end every time
Misery surely loves its company, the adage is true
There seems to be no end to what I will go through

I don’t need you in my head                             c.7.8.14 J.Ray
I don’t want you in my bed
I don’t need your indifference
I don’t need your deliverance
You should just kick me in the *****
You left me here to watch four walls
Take your demons to someone new
I tried to walk through fire with you
Upon my castle you cast your crown
You came in once, you tore it down
I don’t need your pity or your shame
Find someone else to play your game
You are in my head and in my heart
When you are here,you tear it apart
You cast me aside, just like yesterday’s news
Did you really think that you were my muse?
So find some confetti and throw it in the air
You will never again have to see my derriere

My ears hear all the words that you sing                               c.6.21.14
And it sounds like the whisper of spring
Your smile captures my fainting heart
Although we seem to be worlds apart
Your lips say the words I want to hear
Your fingers hold my heart so sincere
I'm caught in your spell so mesmerized
And your eyes they got me hypnotized
So stay with me and leave your scent
For me to remember the time we spent
You build me up and tear me down
You can do it all without a sound
My moves are measured by your grace
My love is measured by your embrace
Upon my heart you have written your name
The one I love, I.. will never be the same
So feel my skin, and touch my soul
My heart is yours to have and to hold
And if it should break into tiny pieces
In the shards of my heart our love releases

She cries at night as she tries to sleep                     c. 6.13.14 J.Ray
A victim of the life she tries to keep
She lives her life inside her own mind
She looks for the things she cannot find
Trapped inside, she just lost her way
She is someone new each and every day
Takes meds today, so tomorrow she’s fine
But the Doctor says that she’s Borderline
Silence the quiet whispers and deny all your pain
The voices in your head have all come back again
The doctors and the nurses say that you’re insane
We can make her better they always seem to claim
But we know better ‘cause they’re the one to blame
Sleeping so well now and the time sure flies
When your mind goes away a part of me dies
Nothing but finest pills the nurses will bring
Effects can **** you but you won’t feel a thing
She’s here today, so tomorrow she’s fine
But the Doctor says she’s just Borderline

I watched as the storm gathered its strength                         c. 6.11.14 J.Ray
As it summoned its lightning from the heavens
I listened for the thunder and marveled at its resonance.
I watched as the rains came and drenched the land
Each grain of dry land was consumed by its own thirst.
I watched as the river roared, and carved a new way
I watched as the trees swayed, but stood firm in the soil
I watched as the storm passed, along with its darkness and unfounded fear
As the darkness gave way to light, the sun no longer hides his face from me
We weather the storms that life brings, this way we can appreciate the sun
Sometimes we tend to go our own way, as the river, and carve out our existence
Sometimes we are swayed, but must stand firm, and hold on by our roots
Sometimes we are so overcome by want, that we are consumed by that very desire
As does the ground, we remain, and bask in the light.
Watching and waiting
For the next storm

Addiction coursing through my veins                  c. 6/9/14 J.Ray
In my private hell all it does is rain
Your heart I keep so close to my own
Sometimes just a picture of all alone
Can your heart still beat with just an ache?
Do you really think it’s too hard to break?
Your Bedroom eyes, cause suicide
Lock your emotions deep inside
Your words keep ringing in my ears
Calm the waters calm my fears
A whisper of lies upon my face
You rob my guilt but save my grace
You throw me in your lake of fire
You burn my body with my desire
Lose yourself in your own demise
When you leave a part of me dies
You are taking everything away
And you know that I can’t make you stay


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If you were a mermaid                                   c. 6.8.14 J.Ray                         
I’d follow you down
I wouldn’t be afraid
If I had to drown

Into the dark sea
We swim all alone
Though we cannot see
Into the depths unknown

Through the waves
And through the sand
To Pirate’s graves
Let me hold your hand

Sharks around us got big teeth
Hold you close and calm the fear
The dangers in the underneath
But the water is just oh so clear

Your hair catches the suns final ray
I hate to go now but I’ll be with you soon
In my true heart I wish I could stay
I kiss you goodbye with light of the moon